pitch day

yesterday I pitched to these networks, haven't heard any news. We have more introspective issues to deal with... yes, this is a public blog, but this is what i'm writing about because I can't actually see any of you right now.

So last month or maybe 2 months now, I told you how i had like a double date at a bar, my friend jamie was setting me up with this guy and we hung out all night and was totally chill and I wasn't even sure i thought he was cute enough, but regardless i was pleased that he asked for my number, like I had won a prize. I think girls always want the number asked for even if we don't like the guy, but in this case, i liked him. so then i never heard from him and saw him at the gym and hid. so he didn't like me, clearly.

Then on saturday I had a sort of date with a guy who's a friend of a friend and i thought he was nice and cute and charming and SMART! hello he used to work at ted kennedy's office briefing him for senate hearings!!! and i haven't heard from him!

Then on sunday i met the love of my life, of course i'm exaggerting, but a really cute guy who i was instantly drawn to the minute he walked in the door, and that SO RARELY HAPPENS TO ME IT'S LAUGHABLE and so my friend who was throwing the party emailed him the next day (monday) and was like i saw you talking to sarah and I'm just always a matchmaker so i was wondering if it's a match or some shit.. anyway, SHE HASN'T HEARD FROM HIM!!

holy crap, i used to be turning down guys, coming up with every which excuse why i coudln't be with them and now I'm 0-3 in th past 3 males i like interactions!! the only guy who has liked me this year has been the worst date i ever had in february who wouldn't shut up about the sci-fi channel, apparently he's still talking about me! I am not repulsive, but maybe in LA i am, what is going on? what am i doing wrong that I can't even get a guy who asks for my number to call me. I hate life.