sorry!!!

I am so embarrassed that I have neglected my blog! I have been crazy writing my pilot for SONY and the last thing I want to do at the end of a long day is to write!

Anyway, i'm back now, i just got notes back on my first draft: it's funny! It's hilarious, but i need to make the main character more vulnerable and show her emotional drive or some such nonsense. Here's a secret about writing, the main character is always always always the author. So when u watch a show, say greys anatomy, you know that meredith grey is shonda rhimes, i mean not entirely of course, but for the most part, who she really is is the writer of the show. The show I used to write for, the main character Eric was based on the creator's life growning up in buffalo, now the creator wasn't a nerdy guy, but he felt like he was and the story between eric and donna was based on his relationship with his first girlfriend in high school. Anyway, back to my script, this girl is me and since I'm not one to show my vulnerability to most people but the producer wants to see it... what do i do, or more like HOW do i do it. I guess i make her cry in the first ten pages.

THe thing is it takes something huge to make me cry. and its not like "oh i'm so tough i dont cry" its quite the opposite, I want to cry, but it my body doesn't generate that response to most typical cry inducing scenarios. Although in a sad movie when all my friends are crying i do recognize "i see this as a place where people woudl cry" so I do have the capacity for emotion. I just get mad that I dont react that way. Nor do i react at all, i'm like a robot. it's fine, i'm used to it. I know I cried in february 2008 and in november 2006, both having to do with doctors visits, dont worry i'm not dying, but I didn't cry when i was getting my appendix out. weird.

anyway, the moral of the story is i now have to make my character more vulnerable and since I dont know what makes peopel vulnerable, i'm not sure how to execute this on my next draft... off to think about it and will be back this weekend to chat more!