tues night i was at my friends house where i watch american idol every week. The couple ended up getting into a huge fight while I was there eating my chicken sandwhich. this is not a new phenomenon. couples often invite me over and then end up fighting in front of me and dont seem to mind that I'm there. why is this? because I DO seem to mine seeing as I hate confrontation even if I'm not directly involved in it.

last night i drove to el segundo to have dinner with my cousin steve and his family and my cousin patty and her family. patty was in from seattle and I hadn't seen them in a long time! it was nice to catch up, but i did realize one thing. when I'm alone in my apt/home office alone all day every day, I feel like I"m a totally normal persons, until i go out in public and open my mouth and say stupid shit... then i realize people must thing I'm barking mad!

i dont know if it would help if i spend more time around groups of people or not! I will have to start testing this out.