Simon

I have a friend named... we'll call him simon. I've known simon for about 8 years. I have worked with simon on 2 shows. Simon once told me he liked me. but not in one of those big sit down i need to talk to you ways, but in an off the cuff, we're both in the same coffee shop on the way to work conversations. I told simon I had someone who i wanted to set him up with and said but she's loud and obnxious and he said that's okay I've had a crush on you all these years and I said okay great and left. that was like 4 years ago.

so back in october, I was at a party with rachel and liz and simon comes in and starts talking to us and i introduce him to rach and liz and then simon moves away and rachel says "simon is in love with you" and i'm like SAY WHAT? YOU GOT THAT FROM A 5 MINUTE CONVO? and she said it's pretty obvious. so then my friend paula started dating simon around Christmas and then broke up with him and i was at the movies yesterday with paula's best friend and she said "paula seems to think that simon is in love with you," and i was like WHAT?!

what is going on? I love simon but i dont LOVE SIMON. he's kinda of a total mess. what am i to do? also he's never asked me out! and i'd say no BECAUSE HE'S A TOTAL MESS. ugh! why can't someone who i want to be in love with me be in love with me???