cute jeans, slutty top?

I didn't do much yesterday, just worked (i'm a writer) then worked out (i'm a neurotic wanna lose weight-er) and talked on the phone for 45 mins with a guy I met on the internet personals. The onion website to be exact. He seems really nice and totally smart and funny. WE;re going out to a tapas and wine bar tomorrow night and i'm looking forward to it. I have had my fair share of bad dates, disastorous men, etc and Lord knows I need someting to renew my faith in humanity, and this world in general. I'm not going to become one of those bitter old women who is always lamenting about not meeting the right guy, i mean, i'm totally picky, so it's partially my fault... ok, maybe i will be the bitter lady, but give me a few years and a few more failed relationships and we'll re-evaluate where we are! not sure what to wear with this guy, kevin. should I go skirt, slutty top or jeans slutty top. girls think we look so cute in cute jeans and slutty top, but i have to be honest, I've gotten more feedback from cute skirt slutty top! oh, to be young and single.

sunday morning

today i had breakfast with my cousins who were visiting from out of town to drop their daughter off at college. I met this young lady when she was 10 months old, so to see her at 18 with a dorm room and checking out college guys, it was a bit alarming. where has the time gone? that old cliche. anyway, it's a christian college and if I knew how many hot guys were going to Chrisitian colleges when I was picking schools, my fate my have been a little different. Hallejuah, Amen! yes, i was checking out 18 yr, old Christian ass. Hey, i'm a woman. Then I watched the six feet under finale and was totally blown away. I wish I was even remotely as talented a writer as the writers on that show, or as talented an actess as Francis Conroy or talented in any arena for that matter!!!

fred segal

went to fred segal cafe for lunch today, seriously amazing food! why haven't I thought about eating there before? I can't believe no one has shared this great little lunch place with me, i feel betrayed by my city and it's inhabitants. anyway, if you go, try to the veggie and chicken combo, it will blow your mind. then i got my nails done. due to my neverending african parasite I had an attack of intestinal distress and decided to throw myself yet another pity party, take a vicodin and down a few glasses of wine...

daddy daycare

Had a second date with daddy day care, the totally hot guy i met at the oakland airport, who talked to me for 3 hours who i was TOTALLY psyched to go out with, only to find out he had an 11yr old who lives with him. Here's the deal, i'm so immature I cannot be a mommy to an 11 yr old! I can barely start my own car in the morning!! anyway, the 2nd date didn't go as well as the first, for some insane reason, he's agains rent control which make me against him!! But saw 40 yr old virgin which i thought was v. funny!

The Pub

had dinner at my friends house last night, they have a baby girl who is so freaking cute and has gotten so big. she's 5 months old, man i love babies! anyway, i have a second date tonight with a guy who i met at oakland airport. he is so cute and i was so excited for the 1st date until 2/3 way through he told me he had an 11 year old. PERSON. not like an 11 year old car or something i could get behind. anyway, he's 29 years old and he has a daughter who lives with him. i'm still turning that one over in my head if i really want to take this any further. I mean, i'm totally immature, i can't be around an 11 yrd old. Unless of course she has a subscription to Teen People! then i could like her. anyway, some people think it's no big deal. that i'm 30 and most likely i'm going to be meeting men with kids or divorced or with baggage. . we all have baggage, but yikes!! i'll let you know how it goes.

colonoscopy

I had a colonoscopy yesterday. it was totally fine, the procedure itself, but damn, the prep was brutal. you couldn't eat for an etire day, nothing at all, then you had to drink this laxative stuff and you shit your brains out, like nothing i've experienced my entire life!!!! wow, all night with that thing. anyway, turns out i have some f-ed up valve in my bowel. like i need another reason for men to be turned off of me