a weekend of signs

I got 2 signs this weekend:

the first one was when i went to go buy beer for the friday night halloween party. I didn't get ID-ed and when I looked at my receipt it said "VERIFICATION BYPASSED"

MEANING: I'M OLD

they no longer needs to verify if i'm over 21. i have dreaded this day. what a harsh way to learn it: verification bypassed seems so cruel.

second sign: Next time be more considerate, ASSHOLE! This was a note i found on my car saturday evening when i came out after an art show. I have the note and am going to take a picture of it. but i checked and i wasn't blocking a driveway or boxing anyone in. I really wish this angry person would've elaborated on my transgression. clearly next time i won't be considerate becuase i dont know what i did wrong.

steve, monique, dylan and i.




went to ricks annual halloween party last night. it was fun in a very tame adult, we have kids and/or are pregnant sort of night. grrrr. oh and with the exception of the 24 year olds who are friends of rick's new GF (he recently got divorced) so it was a bunch of oldies and then 24 y/o who are dressed like whores.

I'm not sure the order of the pics, but a few are of erica who announced her pregnanacy dressing as a cadillac escalade with the the tag "baby on board" and then the due date on the license plate on the back, very cute. she has been trying to get preggers for like 3 years so we're all thrilled. I'm feeling up kristin's boobs in one pic.

I'm the gorilla BTW.

teh party was fun-ish. more fun than i thought it was going to be as i wasn't drinking. so i thought i woudn't have fun, but my big group of friends was there, so that fun!!

yesterday i had my meeting. it was good, it went well, i handled the bitch v. easily. puddy in my hands.

then i wen tout with kristin, jackie and natalya to the best new restaurant in la. FYI these women are totally fucking rich. 2 working writers and then nat who's husband runs a tv show, so she's rich by proxy. me: not so much right now, sooo of course they pick THE MOST $$$$$$ RESTAURANT, but it was worth it. it was amazing. so amazing. i'm not sure i've had such a fantastic meal

the place is craft, which is from tom collicio (sp?) the guy from top chef and what i loved about the restaurant was everything was perfect for the season. oh and at the end of the meal, they gives us individually wrapped muffins for b'fast, pumpkin muffins, soooo good! this place was ridic!!!!! go there!!! its amazing!!!! best food eeeevvvveeeerrr!

i'm fat

its official

i have a major crush on anderson cooper. sure he's allegedly gay, but i love him nevertheless. i find him so ridic. attractive.

how can you not? and he's so funny, i watch his show like every night on CNN.

I have a meeting with the above mentioned network today in regards to my high profile project i'm writing for them.

so here's the gossip: they just brought on a new executive over the one who bought my project and you know what happens to the projects that are bought before someone comes in, they get pissed on. So i have to go in and meet with this person who i hear is a nightmare, a total uber bitch. and who has been pissing all over all the projects she didn't personally buy. GREAT.

also, this network just had a huge show bomb, one of their new scripted programs. and it bombed on monday night. so this should be fun!!!!

i'm stressed about this meeting because i've been warned the bitch smells fear and will tear you apart. and the asst. warned me becaue I'm so easy going that she's worried this woman will steam roll me, so now i have to have a zone defense ready for her when she questions things in my script and why i wrote what i did.

dating tip

here's a dating tip, when you go on a date with a guy u met on the internet, know what his name is BEFORE you arrive.

yeah, cause i didn't

i went to luna park last night to meet up with an internet guy, i thought his name was dan, i have no idea why. I only know 2 dans: my brother and my friend who is married.
but anyway, i walked up to him and said "are you dan?" he said no, then i had to look around some more and be like I swear that guy looks like the guy (FYI looked like, but did not really look like him, he must've showed a picture from ages ago) then i had to be like ummmmm.... and then he said "you're sarah." and i was so fucking humiliated!!!! he told me at the end of the date, at that moment he was going to be like "yeah, lets just go home." but thankfully when we sat down I wowed him with my gorilla run story. Good to know that's such a great story.

anyway, he was very nice, once he got over the attitude of me not knowing his name. I had to work extra hard and be extra "everythings cool" even though he was kinda being a bitch about it with his attitude and smarmy look. I was like furiously trying to peddle the bicycle. I could totally tell he wanted to hit eject with how he was giving me smarm looks, anyway, we ate s'mores which is why we went there since I love s'mores and say so on my bio.

we had fun. i'm not drinking in the month of october, so i drank lemonade i didn't tell him of course I wasn't drinking for that reason, kinda makes it seem like I'm a drunk if i have a rule where I take a month off of booze every year, so i just said "Oh I took an allergy pill b/c of all the smoke and crap in the air right now and can't have a drink." this relationship is already built on lies, i think the best ones are.

anyway, he walked me to my car and said good night. I think he's very smart and nice and would go out with him again. I'm trying to do that more, give peopel more than one shot to impress me. I'm such a bitch, i know but i'm trying not to be!

type A

when i was growing up i pretended to not care about anything. ever. truth is i cared about everything. However people are stupid and coudn't tell, or maybe some could. but a lot of my friends in irvington still think of me as a fuck up.

here's the reality.

I'm a fucking type A perfectionist.

which is why taking tennis is proving to be disastorous. In the past 4 weeks of my lessons, my game has improved so dramatically that all the people in my class are stunned as is the teacher. Like stunned, they cannot believe how much better i've gotten. Im focused, I'm driven and I really work at it.

tonight on the court, my game was so on. and i was no longer the suck ass player. and then is started, the john mcenroe melt downs. becuause I am a perfectionist and know that I'm much better, I now expect so much of myself, i expect perfection which i know is irrational and unrealistic, but tonight I missed an easy shot and screamed, threw down my racket and walked off the court, later I rolled around on the ground in pure agony. it's agony not being perfect.

the instructor said something about my competitive side coming, but i'm not competitive with other people, i do not care about other people, i'm so wrapped up in my own progress. he even pretended to hit me with the racket after a missed a shot and i didn't even notice, he was all You didn't even flinch, I was inches away from hitting you. I said I was too mad at myself to notice anything else around me.

i'm turning into john mcenroe.

oh and the girls in my class finally asked me if I wanted to play during the week. No one has aksed me before cause i suck, but now i'm good and they all want a piece. I'm kidding, but it does feel good. Man, when I focus I hyper focus, not sure it's a good thing...

Does this guy look gay to you? he's on brothers and sisters and I saw him walk into the little door next door last week and.... I find him super fly, so why didn't i follow him in? I was outside talking to my friend Paul and just had a big lunch with my friend carrie and didn't need to eat or drink any more coffee even if a tv star was in the showp. but he looked so cute!!!! he's from wales, i think we would make a cute couple.

I wonder if he lives in the nieghborhood becuase I live in the neighborhood and it would be so convenient.

also on the male front, there's a guy who i have a mild interest in, he was the one in april who after my friends premire party tracked my email down and send me an email. i went to see his band the other night and he seemed so happy to see me and kept touching me while he talked to me, and so i sent him some pics from the gorilla run cause he donated and then NOTHING. my friend karen was with me and was like "i think doug likes you, he kept touching you, he wasn't touching me!" and i was like "nooooo" but inside i was like "yaaaayyy!!"

but now im disappointed cuase i haven't heard from him

i just exhibitted some serious will power. tonight i was reallly hungry, and told myself if i went to the gym i could then afterward get dominick's spag. and meatballs for takeout. It's my fave restaurant in LA and so fucking good.

while on the eliptical, where I did 4 miles and burned 400 calories, i said no sarah, u have veggies and eggs in ur fridge that are about to go bad, make something out of that and u can save money and eat a healthy alternative. so i did!!

then i said i'd reward myself by going to the grocery after and picking up some more sugar free choc. pudding, but whenever i go to the store these days buy candy corn and said no i wont do that, but that lasted until i got in the aisle of candy and ooked up and down so then i said if i dont see the candy corn during my first pass of the candy aisle, then i'm not allowed to go back and look again, that was the sign i'm not supposed to get the large autumn candy corn mix with pumpkin and chocolate candy corn as well. NO I AM NOT! well of course, i turned around after failing to see the bag the first pass, i mean where could they be hiding, they wre right here last sunday night, dammit!

but alas, i wouldn't allow myself to do another drive by. so i came home, with the pudding, soy milk and banans and some more of my favorite yogurt (real yogurt not frozen) I've found that one yogurt a day has solved my stomach problems... of course until they start up again.

so i turned down the spag and meatballs, saved money and turned down candy corn. so proud of myself.

do i seem obsessed? that was rehtorical.

went yesterday to an autumn festival in moorpark. It was like something stright out of gimore girls. it was about an hour outside of LA. went with my friends who have kids, i was the 7th wheel. I went with amy and greg and their 2 kids, sooooooo cute these kids and babies playing on the hay, posing on big pumpkins, etc.

saw pig racing!!! i feel like i'm in the country not the 2nd largest city in the us.

there was a cow ride and each cow had a name, as u can see one was named sarah, my name.

I have commitment issues that i need to stop. let me slow down.

last week i was watching oprah with alexis stewart where she talked about getting preggers in her early 40s and how impossible it was proving to be and how all these magazines make it seem like she has plenty of time to get preggers cause people are having their 2nd child in their 50s. but she says its just not true.

so i panicked and that night got back online dating and winked at a couple of guys, 10 2 b exact, only 2 winked back. that's a 20% return rate, better than a stock portfolio i guess.

i need to meet someone. i'm not sure i want kids or what have u, they seem like a lot of work and i'm lazy by nature, but i need to get on it so as at least have a chance and not be fucked if i decide in 5 years that's exactly what i want!!

under pressure

prob. is i have major commitment issues that i need to adress, but who has the time, according to alexis stewart, i'm alredy too late!!! AARRRGGGHH!!!!!

the guy on the left is Sam, my english lova! 6 feet 4 inches of loveliness.

I HAVE A CANDY CORN HANGOVER.... I WISH I WAS KIDDING

must stop eating candy corn.

so when i was in high school, billy joel released this song called we didn't start the fire and it was like cool to memorize the entire thing, dont really know why or if it was cool at all, perhaps only i thought it was cool

anyway, i found this site that hyperlinks EVERY word of that song so you know what every event he's takling about is, it's pretty awesome. or maybe i just think it's awesome and it's not.

WE DIDN'T START THE FIRE HYPERLIN

how do they know this?

i was just at Ralphs shopping for groceries and needed salsa. So i went up to an employee and said "wheres the salsa?" and she said without a 2nd thought, "aisle 13."

how did she know this? do they have to memorize where EVERY SINGLE ITEM is in the store? i'm always suprised when they all know this. I dont even know where i put my keys IN MY OWN HOUSE!

i'm so tired, i have been burning the candle at both ends. today i woke up at 9am and that ws so late for me as I have been gettting up at 7 and going to ed at like 2.

another friend read the script last night, she said it's good. i still think everyone is lying to me. i mean it's no House (best show on TV along with Friday night lights)
but it is very MTV cartoon, which seeing that it is an MTV cartoon sounds right.

it's that time of the year again....

i hate halloween, i mean HATE HATE HATE IT. I miss my old roomie stacey terribly, but she is crazy in love with halloween and that is the only reason i'm glad shes not around anymore as she used to make me celebrate this stupid holiday.


but here's the only reason why i like this time of year...



I cannot go into Ralphs without picking a bag of this devils brew up! I'm even considering buying bags and bag to last me until the new year!!!

speaking of the new year, as a result of the 3 some i had last year and the blackout/falling down the subway stairs and then unblacking out I grounded myself on Jan 1st for 2007-2008 new years eve. that's right an entire year before I already told myself i was being punished for said behavior. so now chatter is happening about this NYE and people think i'm lame for not allowing myself to go out. I think a glass of wine and a night at the cinema might do a gal good.

i'm stressed. I have so much going on this week it's crazy. I'm furiouslly writing my MTV show script doubting now whether I can even write. I wrote for 4 hours yesterday after my pitch to TBS and athen went to tennis and while trying to perfect my backhand I came to the conclusion that I needed to work much more.

so at 9pm i sat down at my computer and worked for 4 more hours. today i met my friend at Peets coffee to discuss it. Shes not one of those people who is honest so it's hard to know how sh really felt about the script. this is what i've learned about people. She doens't like to get notes or do re-writes on her scripts and she takes notes so personally that sometimes she cries when you says "i dont really know the voice of this character" so as a result, she doesn't give honest notes. Meanwhile, if i read something, i'm like hate it, love it, needs work, dont get, becaues i think getting notes only makes a script better and i welcome them and do not take it personally. If you dont get something u dont get it and chances are other people wont end of story!

so now i'm doing another re-write to send to my friend Alan who will hopefully be more honest. although that s not to say my friend this a.m. wan'st helpful, she def. was.

another thing though is that she says when i ask her to read a script "you better hire me on this," or "you better by me a latte," she always wants payback, meanwhile I read her script a few weeks ago and just read it and didn't demand anything, but she ALWAYS needs to have an agenda, always needs to tell u why she's doing you a favor, always needs to be OWED!

it's annoying

phew! i got a $600 residual check yesterday that i immediately sent to my Credit card whose balance i have let accrue which is so unlike me it's ridic! so when i got the check in teh mail, i sent the exact amount to my 2 credit cards (you know things are bad when you start choosing which card to use) that is going to put a nice dent in what I owe. thank heaven!

yesterday i found a dollar on the sidewalk, it made me smile,

today i have to pitch to my sony producer more ideas to go out with to the networks again, meanwhile i'm furiously drownging in my mtv script as it's a complete mess and not at all funny. Man pilots are hard you have to set up the characters, all their relationships while making it funny. It's already 12 pages and it's only supposed to be 17, oh well, try more like 30. i'll have to make cuts after wards.

so ive come up with like 15 ideas to pitch the producer today, some are dark and crazy, but most have a hook which is what she likes.

on monday i'm stepping in for a 2 month gig back on my ivillage tv website to help out suzy, shout out!! because the gal who took over after me quit. also i write the house recaps on that site and loooove that. Its fun to read the comments other fans post based on my questions about the episode.

i'm tired

if you have any ideas for a tv show please share ASAP

i'm still recovering from jet lag which i've never really had before as i usually get to my destingation and work out or run or walk and that really helps, but since i've been back, i've been sitting and writing non stop, so no workouts so this jet lag has been dragging. It didn't help that on sunday night in london after our flight turned around and landed back in london that i went to bed at 130am and had to get up at 4am to fight with united about putting me on a direct to LA flight and then was too riled up to sleep again, so i didn't really get a good nights sleep and thats just fucked me!

oh well

off to create a tv show...

more london pics

here's one of the other gorilla's and one of the tower bridge i stayed just on the other side!

on frieday night in london, i got free tickets to see ricky gervais in concert! HOLY SHIT IS THAT GUY HAILAROUS!

my seat was amazing, 8th row center, amazing.

where to begin..

i'mnot sure, and i know i dont have time to dicuss all that happened in london right now as i'm on deadline for the mtv show...

let's just say after my encounter with the hot brit, i got a UTI and was peeing blood for about 5 days, at first i had no idea waht was going on and had to google it at 2 am in cambridge b/c i thought i was going to die. then the next day i hit up a homeopathic place as a doctor would've been a waste of a day and they gave me some stuff to make me more comf. until i got home and started chowing down on anti biotics.

ok, so on my flight from dc to london, i met this girl who sat next to me named sarah.
and turns out, she is me. literally. let me start listing it off

she sleeps for 12 hours a day, so do i
she is really funny and has so much energy, so am i
she loves stephen fry, so do i
she loves harry potter, so do i
she works in tv, so do i
she wants to live in london, so do i
she has brown hair, so do i and the same lienght as mine
her name is sarah, so is mine.


she told her friends in london about me and they were like "she sounds like you."

i've never met any one who is so much like me and that inclusdes stacey who is eerily like me, this person is LITERALY ME!

we were on the same flight back to d.c. that took off then after 2 hours turned around and landed back in london where we were all put in a hotel. we hung out at the pub and drank beer and talked and she is me, i swear, we even prefer the same beer. she called me the next a.m. and we got b'fast together and headed to heathrow together but i got on a direct flight to l.a. so we had to break up.