why do these things happen

yesterday I was at the guild writing in their library when I developed a headache. I thought ok, well, i probably haven't eaten enough today, so i went home and ate. then I went to the gym and then it hit... A MIGRAINE!

I have had like maybe 4 migraines in my life, and this one was pretty damn bad. It was also accompanied by my face flushing and getting really hot! I did research and this was more than a simple migraine, but a cluster headache which according to my researche "is the most painful headache theere is," although i didn't have all the symptoms, just the pain and the flushed face. I have no idea. I'm a walking medical anomaly, I'm starting to think I'm crazy. I still have residual pain right now and in fact and typing this with my eyes closed as it hurts too much to look at the screen. I'm so please at my typing ability to allow such a feat!!!!

Okay i need to go lay down.

whats the point

I have no idea what i do with my days, they just slip by and all of a sudden i realize it's sunday again and I have to start over. I worked at the strike HQ yesterday again answering phones. I really like the tues shift as the corrdinator is really nice and not an old guy going on and on about how he wrote a Julia Roberts movie in the 90s and what she was like before she hit stardom! these people are your worst nightmare!

I hope i dont do that when I'm an old fart, perhaps I already am, b.c hollywood standards are quite different. yesterday i applied for a job up at Adidas HQ in portland, dont tell my friend who works at Nike!!!

Went out on friday night with Tom, we met for a drink at Chaya, I guess that's our 3rd date, in two months tho, so it's not encouraging. I also facebooked the guy who i went on a date with in august who had been messaging me recently and aksed if he wanted to go to this exhibit downtown, where he lives, he took all day to reply and then sent me a message this morning saying sure, but no XOXOX at the end of said message... no idea what that means.

Last night I had dinner with Tal, one of the execs at Sony, LOVE HER!! I thought it would be a quick dinner, but we sat and talked for 3 hours! It was so fun, and great to catch up with her! She rules.

I'm realy enjoying my tennis class and the girls in it. we all get along so well, it's pretty insane and we all had a potluck dinner on sunday night and just sat and gossipped, etc. really fun as most of them are not in the biz and are just really genuinely cool.

For those of you who dont know me well, i like free things, like actually LOVE free things. in fact in 3rd grade i had this book where you write down things like your favorite actor or book or tv show and one thing said "your motto." and at 8 years old I remember writing "free is for me."

AT 8 YEARS OLD!!!

As a result of the writers strike, drew carey offered to pick up the tab of any writer who eats at swingers or bob's big boy. I haven't taken nearly enough advantage of it, but my micaela made me so 2 weeks ago we went and chowed down on free grub and then showed our guild card and bam, free good, baby! we went again today after Weight watchers, I lost a pound hooller!!!

what is it about banana multigrain panckes and a vanilla latte that tastes so much better because it's free?!?! I kinda regret not going there more. I know the strike will end in like a few weeks probably, so I have to start going more often, maybe for dinner!!! grilled cheese or something, yummers!!!

GRIM

so last night i went to my friend jessica's, she's a tv director and lives 1.5 blocks from me. we met through my ex will and we've remained friends. i've met a lot of people that way, liz, rachel, etc and etc. I keep the friends of the boys, but not the boys. anyway, she's a director and was supposed to direct an episode of a FOX tv show but isn't now due to the strike and as a result is going to lose her health benefits cause she hasn't earned enough money to keep them. This is the exact same position I'm in.

she said she's going to have to probably change her career after all the works she's done to establish herself because the strike has ruined her momentum and potential jobs. again this is the exact position I'm in. I'm going to have to change my entire life and basically end my life long dream (although to be fair I did write on a hit tv show and sold another one this year even though it went no where) due to this strike and the 2 years of me not working leading up to it and me not having a job when it ends. it's strange to think none of my other friends will ever have this problem, my friends who aren't part of a union that is.

also i still think it's so unfair that the course of my life is drastically going to change due to HEALTH INSURANCE!!!! or the lack there of. I have it for not, but am going to lose it in september. And as is stands I wont have earned enough by September to keep it going. There is just no way I could earn it even if the strike ended today. People in washington do not care about health insurance driving americans in bankruptcy, they just dont. I wish sicko did more to change policy!

supernanny

I just went to the coffee bean in beverly hills and was sitting there and Jo the nanny from supernanny came in and got a coffee. she had a huge bag from the Gap and I thought to myself, Jo shops at the Gap????

the guy behind the counter, the same guy who kiiissseddd renee zellwegger's ass a few months back (and i wrote about it click on the celeb sightings link below) was kissing hers as well, this guy needs to get a fucking life! He bends over backwards for them and me he's like 'here" hands me my coffee so roughly that it spills down the front of my shirt. THANKS ASS!

I tivo-ed bridget jones diary and just watched it and was stunned by the similarities between bridget and myself and now I'm depressed. I think it also has to do with the fact that I can't tell if I'm sick or not, my body can't make up it's mind. sometimes I feel ok and then I feel sick?!?! PULL THE TRIGGER BODY OF MINE BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS STARTING TO PISS ME OFF!!

weird

I woke up in a bad mood today. this rarely happens to me, in fact i dont remember it ever happening to me, waking up in a bad mood is so strange. Anyway, then i went to weight watchers and I gained wieght and then I went to the coffee bean and my coffee spilled and burned my hand and then I realized they gave me the wrong coffee. UGH!

so that's 3 bad things, now i'm done for the day! I'm more stressed now about my current situation now that i went to a friends yesterday and this friend I find out has been in talks with a studio to write a pilot for them. this friend said that he/she needs to look out for themselves becuase the guild is'nt looking out for them. soo now i'm like has everyone been doing this? is the strike gonna end next week and I'm the only asshole who didn't develop behidn the backs of everyone??? This is the only town where being honest and good gets you NOWHERE AND NOTHING!!

STRIKE 3, SO I GUESS I'M OUT

Last week I pulled my resume together to apply for a job at Nike in Portland. It was the perfect job for my lack of business experience. unfortunately today i saw that the job was no longer on the website. *sigh* and seeing as I haven't been hired to do it, i think it's safe to assume someone else was. I'm extremely disappointed. if I weren't a robot and didn't know how to cry, this would be a time when a normal human would cry.

I also got the call this week that MTV passed on my pilot. Oh and I pitched a book idea to my agent who pitched it to the book people and that was passed on too!

I GIVE UP!! NOBODY WANTS ME OR MY TALENTS!!!

dont tell on me

I'm not picketing today. I was going to, but I just dont want to picket today and I'm not going to!!! THERE, take that!

I'm still trying to fashion a reply to Todd what with his reindeer games. his first email he ended with XO then this one he ended with XOXOXO wow I'm getting some serious action people!

um, don't only 12 year old girls do the whole XO thing? And what does it all mean?

yesterday i worked at the Writers Guild strike headquarters answering phones. This has become a regular monday morning ritual. it's easy to be there by 8am and its only a mile a way and not too much happens that early in the day. It's easy strike work.

i maybe had 5 phone calls in 3 hours.

then I worked out, ate, and read a book for a potential movie writing gig that I was supposed to read before the strike started. I felt that since I neglected to read it I was still allowed to under strike rules, but there's a good chance I'm making that up. I just had nothing to do so I picked up the book and read it in under 2 hours, it's a kids type book

Had my tennis class last night, 2 girls showed up who aren't usually in the class and I did not care for them. one of them had coke bottle glasses and kept hitting to my backhand which is fine if thats one of her stratagies but apparently it was her only strategy. so it got annoying. she's what I could call a scrappy player.

I ran into the net and my racquet snapped back and hit my jaw and then i left the class I was annoyed at these new people and in pain and made an executive decision to be a big baby and go home.

Oh and I messaged todd, the guy who is playing jedi mind tricks on me from facebook. anyway, with the help of amy i wrote a great response, after waiting 4 days like any lady would, and then he immediately responded to that message in like 2 hours!!! so know I'm figuring out what to do!

SATURDAY NIGHT

Last night I met up with Bern, Kyle, Christine for some beers at 3rd stop. I'm not a big beer person at all, nor do i like to particularly drink that much, but hey when the bar is w/in walking distance, hey why not, right? I had a nice time drinking and eating an entire pizza, yes you read that correctly.

i went to WW on friday and lost 2 pounds and of course I have to reward my hard work by eating everything and putting it all back on!!!

THERE YOU ARE

Last night in my facebook inbox, I got a message entititled "there you are"

it was from Todd who I went out with in august and who I really liked. We text messaged a few times after the most successful 1st date I've have in ages and then I never heard from him again... and oh how much I liked him. of course this is how it always goes, the ones that want you, you dont want and vice versa.

So imagine my surprise when he tracked me down on facebook and said "there you are," trying to imply that I not HIM is at fault for our fizzled out "relationship"

the rest of the message said something along the lines of "you can't hide on facebook"

yeah, that's me, the one who has been hiding RIGHT OUT IN THE OPEN WITH THE EXACT SAME EMAIL ADDRESS AND PHONE NUMBER I HAD ALLLLLL ALONG!!

Pffft, these Jedi mind trick DO NOT WORK ON ME! Does he think I'm so stupid to think "oh noooo, Todd has wanted to talk to me this entire time and i've made myself unavailable poor him." TRY AGAIN, todd!!

OF COURSE I'M TOTALLY GOING TO MESSAGE HIM BACK TO SATISFY MY MORBID CURIOSITY!

PHOTO JOURNAL 2008

I'm doing this little project this year where I take a photo a day.

here's the compilation for the first 2 weeks of the year.

MY 2008 PHOTOJOURNAL

Whenever I update it, I'll post the link, it's just interesting what I take a picture of i think. Sometimes it'll be my bed right before I go in it cause i've forgotten to take a photo that day!! Who knows where my travels will take me!!! Follow along!

so there's this woman who works at the library at the writers guild who i fucking hate.

she talks really loud when on the phone and engages people in conversations that last for hhooooourrrrss, i always feel so bad for those people on the other end who just called to get a simple one or two word answer and she keeps them on the phone for 20 mins.

a few months ago I asked her to reduce her voice and she said "I believe my voice is at a perfectly suitable decible." meanwhile, everyone in the library is looking at each other with the "is this fucking woman nuts" shrug and eyeroll.

so yesterday i brought in a dioet coke and you cant bring drinks in but you can leave them on a shelf by the door. so i did and she later comes over in her "quiet" voice and says, holding up the can "you cannot being carbonated beverages into the library. they are forbiden." so i said ok. and she said she was going to remove the offensive element from the library and to the fridge at the foundation room and i said "you can just throw it out, ti's not a big deal" and she said "it is a big deal, soft drinks are not allowed, water is fine, but no soft drinks are allowedin the library...." i wanted to say "yeah i got that the first time you said it'" she repeats herself over and over.

she's fucking annoying.

anyway, look who got quoted (totally inaccurately) in this story.

http://www.blogger.com/img/gl.link.gifSTORY WRITTEN ABOUT ME BUT THIS WOMAN QUOTED ME TOTALLY WRONG

a correction was made but not in time for the AP wiree to re-adjust

who is the cutest ever??

MY NIECE!!!


HERE IS A PIC OF HER ON CHRISTMAS!

AUNTIE SARAH GAVE HER THE HOOKER BOOTS!!

i'm back in la, everything thing is the same. Nothing changed except the last digit of the year when i fill out my checks. All my medical bills have flooded my mailbox, thankfully a lot of these places are still sending the bills to my old address so I prob. wont get them for another month, which is fine seeing as $1,000 a month comes out of my bank account EVERY MONTH for medical expenses!! But it's only until october, so that's just days away... that's right $10,000 in medical bills and no income!!

unfortunately this will probably determine and change the course of my life... i just dont think it's fair seeing as if i lived in a country that paid for health insurance I woudln't have thes problems. I know this isn't the first time I've talked about my medical bills, it's just that I got another bill from 2005 today and it kinda set me off...

Oh and before you ask, yes I have health insurance, VERY GOOD INSURANCE, but i accrued over $100,000 in medical bills in 2007. You know how you think to yourself, oh my insurance pays 80% and i only pay 20% what a great deal... well that's great until your total bill is $100,000 do the math, it's grim.

I had a 2nd date last night with the guy who made me pay for everything on the 1st date. He paid for everything!! hahah except the lakers tickets that my friend carrie gave me! FREE TICKETS BITCHES!!

it was fun, we made out in his car which is a lot less than i did with him the first date when i was drunk. oops did i not tell you guys that??? i had a date last month with this guy who conveniently forgot his wallet and i had to shell out for everything. anyway, i gave him a 2nd chance mostly b/c i was ashamed of myself... i'm glad I did, he's cute-ish!!

anyway, happy new year!!!! I'll be writing more now that my neighbors turned their internet back on and i can go back to stealing it!!

happy new year!!!!

greetings everyone, ih ave been away in NY for almost 2 weeks! Oy vey! I am happy to say knock on wood, I have not been killed by my parent's clutter crumbling onto me during my sleep. my parents are hoarders. I think my father might be the worst offender, oprah show worthy if I may be so bold or traitorous to the mac fam!

i have spent my last 2 trips re-doing my dad's office formerly known as my old bedroom. we through out 7 bags of garbage including multiple windows '95 manuals for software my father no longer has. I also threw out a lot stuff he doesn't even know i threw out, I told him i was donating stuff to make him feel better and then in the trash it went! but the news is not all good. yesterday I was down in the basement and a lot of books that were supposed to be thrown out in november my dad had hauled back in after i left. HE HAS A SERIOUS HOARDING PROBLEM. these books were in the musty old basement, not doing anything, but my dad simply could not throw them out. dont' worry i put them back in the garbage and dumped a cup of coffee on them and buried them down deep in the trash can so he cannot find them... i hope.

this morning we had pancakes and my father cleaned up after and i saw in the fridge like a drop of leftover pancake batter in a tupperware, not even enough for one pancake and my dad kept it (dont worry i promptly threw it out and he hasn't even noticed!!!!!! also he put in the fridge 3 pancakes we didn't eat!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH HIM???! i threw out those as well. it's not like tonight, i'm going to be like i'm hungry what can i eat, oh look soggy cold blue berry pancakes, yum!"

MORE ON MY TRIP AFTER I GET BACK TO la AND CAN START USING MY COMPUTER AGAIN!!!