License to wed premiere party was on monday night and my loyal WB friends hooked me up once again. I know I'm now on the premiere party circuit, but I still get such a kick as my mother woudl say, going to these things. they never get old to me, how is that possible? I got so jaded working on a tv show, oh it's friday we're taping again, snore. but going to premiere parties, woohooo bring it on!

had the best time at this one. the movie was not so hot, but the party was hilarious. I told one guy i didn't eat pork because i was kosher and he goes "ew," and steps away from me like I said i was contagious. clearly he didn't know what kosher meant.

i danced from one of the party to another because kristin bet me i wouldn't so i made a whopping ten bucks, although i had so much fun doing it, that i told her she didn't have to pay me, but she was true to her word.

at the party they had a couple of actors dressed up as bride and groom roaming the party and kristin and i had a drink with them, so freaking hollywood it was hilarious. I tried to hit on carrie's co-worker but got rejected so harsh!

sorry i haven't written in a week. so much to catch up on! well last wed. i went out on another bad date, not like the date was bad, more like the guy was not cute at all, i know i'm such a bitch, and he talked at me for 2 hours straight and it seemed like he wanted to hang out all night, i'm like no, i do 90 min first dates, point blank period.

then i had another first date sunday night and this guy was SOOO NOT CUTE ugh! both of these guys have emailed me already and asked me out again and i feel bad aas i dont wnat to hurt thier feelings, i've had my feelings hurt and it sucks balls. i also feel like such a bitch like "oh look at me every guy is so ugly and they want me so bad." if you know me you know that's not what i'm thinking.

had a 2nd date last night with... bike. that's obviosuly not his real name, clearly i changed one letter. anyway, it was at a cute restuarant in marina del rey, kind of a drive for me, but it looked nice online so i agreed. It was good. the date was nice, conversatoin flowed more naturally than the 1st date, he's cute, but a little rough around the edges in terms of not being as sweet as i like 'em. I usually like/date sweet guys and bike seems to carry himself in a defensive way, not like argumentative or anything like that, but just the things he sasy. also he was 10 mins late which wouldn't have been a big deal had he not be 30 mins late for our 1st date and then told me last night a stoyr about a fight he got into with his brother this weekend because he was really late and his brother said "you're always late' and he got all bent out of shape and woudon't apologize for it.

hmmm. this is a deal breaker as I am not a person who indulges said behavior.

okay so tonight i'm supposed to have a 2nd date with this guy who i crank called. he might have to work, but if not we're getting together. i'm not sure how psyched I am about this, see first dates are totally easy as i have no expectations and could care less either way. But now 2nd dates are where things start to get complicated. upon further review this guy didn't really talk much well, that's not true more aCcurately he would answer questions very briefly and then we'd have long moments of me in my head going... okay this is awkward.

i talked to him on the phone last night and these moments took place again, taht's what jogged my memory of our first date.

Grrrr, dating sucks. anyway, i'm going into it with an open mind as i've given 2nd dates to guys who have deserved it much less. hey you never know.

tomorrow night i have another first date with a guy named... i'll have to look it up, anyway, we met on ehar. and have since moved to our own email accounts and i have no idea what he looks like as my acct. at ehar is turned off and now can't access pictures. this should be interesting...

i'm dogsitting for my friend carrie this weekend which means I have to get up early to feed the dog and take it for a walk. Not a fan of these responsibilities!

Just went to jenny craig and i'm disappointed because I only lost one fucking pound. one pound! I guess i should've expected that b/c i did eat more than i've eaten ever this week. but it's weird my clothes fit so oooo much better so i was suprised that i only lost one pound but can we please talk about something. every time i dont have a big loss, people at weight watchers or now jenny craig is "you probalby put on muscle." I'M NOT PUTTING ON ANY FUCKING MUSCLE! I'VE BEEN working out every day for 8 years, and you dont all of a suddenly start adding muscle. it's not muscle, i did not gain muscle, the lady at the craig today is ike "wow you work out every day you probalby put on muscle," lady, look at my biceps, look at my triceps does it look like i have a ton of muscle here, no!" seriously, stop saying it!

last night went to domiicks and had a great time, met this cute guy who I forced to take my number... i swear he didn't even ask for it, i just told him he had to take it b/c we were tgoing to be friends b/c he and i are moving 2 blocks from each other next month. He told me hes going to have a party after he moves in, which i hope he said that b/c he inteneded to invite me. I also mentioned I had a date today, maybe to make him see how desireable I am.

speaking of desireable, yesterday I was in traffic, scrolling through my weeks missed calls. I saw my friend liz's number so i hit talk and a guy picked up. I hung up thinking, that's weird, and then i realized... the guy who i went out with on thurs. night has the same first 3 digits as liz and i had just called him, heard his voice, waited for a second and then hung up. Yeah, i totally pranked the cute guy and now i'm sure he thinks i'm fucking psycho and will never call me again. so heres the thing do i send him an email now explaining what happened or do i say my phone calle dyou accidently or do nothing? it doesn't matter really, he totally thinks i'm koo-koo.

anyway, excited for my date at the skirball center today!

wednesday night i went out with this guy who looked like herman munster, a less cute version of herman. he was super nervous, wouldn't look me in the eye and was not a very good converstaionlist. i like to give guys a 2nd chance but not so much this one. at the end of the date, he walked me to my car and said "so do you want me to call you?!" ahhhhh no! i said yes.

last night i had another first date (same place, diff guy) and it went much better, save for the fact that i was so hyper from my insane bootcamp class yester eve. i def. made him think i was a total spaz! i woudl def. go out with him again if he asked cause he was cute and easy to talk to.

I have another first date on sunday afternoon at the skirball center, going to see some play that he is producing for NPR. meeting him early before hand.

also jenny craig update, i' totally losing weight!!!!!!

I WON!!

friday i was feeling very blue and while driving by a 7-11 i decided to stop in to get a lottery ticket, the day wasn't going well, so i thougth what a perfect time to buy a ticket.

and i did, in fact i bought 3, 1 quick pick and 2 i did on my own, Well, i'm proud to announce that i'm california's newest lottery winner. My winnings totally - ONE DOLLAR!

dont worry, it hasn't changed me.

grey hairs

so i've noticed in the past mmonths that i have more and more grey hairs, I think the stress of the past year has manifested itself on ruining my beautiful mahogany hair, like it's getting bad, just now i was in the bathroom and i have 3 grey hairs sprouting right in the front of my head, for all to see. the other hairs are in the back or on the side. so i googled going grey and this is what anderson cooper, my 2nd gay boyfriend (stephen fry the english comedian being my first gay boyfriend and he's actually come out as gay unlike anderson) said about going gray early.

"Going gray is like ejaculation. You know it can happen prematurely, but when it actually does, it's a total shock."

love him.

although also in his article on grey hair is this:

"Did you know that according to legend, the guy who became Buddha decided to seek enlightenment the day he got a touch of gray? "Gray hairs," the would-be Buddha said, "are like angels sent by the god of death."

Translation: Gray is nature's way of whispering "You're dying."

goodness my life is dull. I have nothing to report today. yesterday i did the usual, ate jenny craig, went to the gym, walked around the grove and the barnes and noble last night and went to bed. Oh i also "winked" at a lot of guys on the onion dating website. no winks back just yet.

today I'll do much of the same. I have to write a little treatment for a show i'm being pitched by MTV for a certain incarcerated celebrity... i have a conference call tomorrow morning about it. allegedly, as they keep changing it, which is annoying.

so on day one of jenny craig i realized that you have to eat a lot of food. I hate eating food. i hate food! so at the end of the day i had to eat 3 servings of fruit that i didn't want to eat. I guess i dont eat enough maybe that's why i dont lose weight. I swear if i eat all this fucking food they're forcing down my throat and gain weight, i will go ballistic!!!!

watched teh sopranos finale last night with remi and carrie, i liked it even if people didn't. I just didn't get the whole meadow parking her car scenes.

I think i have 2 dates this week from guys on the internet. One from a guy who was cute in his original picture but then changed pictures mid-conversation, and now he's not so cute, but i'll get coffee with him. have to get coffee since i cant eat anything other than jenny craig right now and am not supposed to be drinking.

so tentatively i have dates: wed, thurs, sun. so i guess that's 3 dates this week. woo hoo!

so i'm loving living with Krsitin, so much fun, love love. this weekend was her bday weekend and we went out to dinner last night, although I just came for drinks cause my pickiness was not conducive to the fixed menu. it was a great place, social hollywood, whihc used to be hollywood athletic club, great space. it was where the tv guide emmy party was last year too , shout out to suzy!! awww yeah!

today i joined jenny craig!!! i have given up on weight watchers as i think my portions are out of control even htough i eat healthier than anyone i've ever met. so they give me the food and portions and so far so good.

friday night i went over to grey and amys and had pizza and drank wine and then headed to 3rd stop with a big gang, but was tired and left around midnight.

i'm so excited for jenny craig, i really hope i lose like 15 pounds on this. I've recently met a ton of gals who have been really successful on it Today is day 1 and so far so good, granted the turkey burger ws delish but the size of a beer coaster, but still, i need to shake it up.

the paris hilton ordeal woke me up on friday early. I live in west hollywood right now and the about 5 blocks south of where she is on kings road, i'm one block from kings road and the choppers were in full effect, a ton of them just hovering around her house starting at like 6am, what a blasted nuisances! ah, what a glam life i lead being woken up by choppers as such

have you heard of the james morrison song?

it's called "wonderful world."

the lyrics go like this:

I know it's a wonderful world but I can't see it right now

this describes my state at this moment.

OCEANS 13 PREMIERE

last night ruled! well, yesterday was a rollercoaster day, not gonna lie. got up and had b'fast with kristin at kings road, then headed to the guild and wrote, then had lucnh with all my girlfriends, 3 have had babies in the past 2 months, one is a writer on scrubs, Kristin has a huge deal at fox, and erika's husband wrote wild hogs and they're sending her and her hubby on a 3 week tour of europe to do research for the sequel... suffice it to say, i pale in comparison to these v. successful ladies. the ladies witht the babies all have super $ hubbies, so i'm there no job, no place to live, no boyfriend, no baby, no new car, no fancy house NOTHING! I HAVE NOTHING!!

and i decide to go on suicide watch for myself. until... i go to see a screening of oceans 13, i love those movies, so much pretty to look at, and i love heist movies, i really do! then i got invited to the oceans 13 premiere party where I saw all the stars!!! OMG george clooney is ridiculous hot! he walked out with me (no we didn't go home together) and I was dying!!! i stopped and watched as he signed autographs and was in awe.

sarah silverman was tehre, i saw her show, i think it sucks, and jimmy kimmell, and i saw lloyd from entourage, and matt damon and the little guy who plays lewis and super dave osbourne and GEORGE FUCKING CLOONEY!!!!

woo hoo, drank free booze, ate fried bananas!!! woo hooo, love bananaS!!!

so excited cause tonight i'm going to see a screening of oceans 13. I didn't love oceans 12 b/c it was like brad pitt and george clooney self flaggelation fest on the screen, but there is so much pretty in this movie i hope i enjoy it.

so relieved i moved out of brunos, wish i did it months ago, what was i thinking? love living with kristin and her guest bed is so comf!

now i still need a job and am worried about my sanity taking a nose dive like it did last year. i still have no idea what i am doing with my life, but i ask you this, do any of us have that answer?

I DID IT

i'm all grown up!! i did it! i moved out of the actors house and found my own apt. No more actor and his crazy fiancee who was going around the house when my movers were there yesterday pointing out stuff i "forgot." I'm like I didn't forget it, ass, im moving out RIGHT NOW it's just not in the movers truck right now. SHE'S FUCKING CRAZY. so when i said "please dont' go around pointing stuff out until I'm actually done, she said "well i wanted to put something in there." she wanted to put something in the closet i hadn't even moved out yet, she got out of bed, heard the movers come in and decided to put something in my closet before I was done. Karina G. is fucking crazy!!

so i moved out and into storage and then when i came back to the house to pick up my luggage they had already moved furniture into my room!!!! and moved my bags around! I had been gone for an hour!!! so glad i'm done.

on top of that the actor wanted to charge me 3 days rent pro-rated for the 2 days I was tehre in june, i was like good luck prying that cash from my hands.

now i'm staying at kristin's until mid july!!