last week

last week I went on a retreat to palm spring with the writers of a TV show. It was like bootcamp, I was baasically trying out to be on the writing staff. I don't want to go into very many details about which show, etc until i find out if I got the job or not, but it was so intense. I know you prob. think wow, palm springs, stayig in fancy resorts, rough life, but let me tell you, it was. You're with these peopel 24-7 for every meal and they're watchign you the entire time, trying to figure out if they like you. You're working with them all day and then going out for fancy meal and bottles of wine all night, and then up again working the next morning early. I came home friday and went to bed at 730pm, fell asleep at 930 and slept until 1030am. yeah, i was fucking beat! I will give more details at a later date! I'm stil recovering from the stress of it all.

aw yeah, the beavers dominated during super kickball 2007!!!! Every year my friends have a kickball tourney the day before the superbowl and i've never gone, but this year i represented and was selected to be on the beavers, who have won the past 4 years. We literally got picked like elementary school gym class style. We crushed the punishers and then went for a big drink up later. It was hilariosuly fun!

Sunday was superbowl sunday obviosuly, and once again i was in a rock paper scissors tourney, i was the champ last year, but this year I got knocked out in the first round, bull shit!! I ate way too much food even though I was on the couch in the fetal position during half time in pain from how much I ate, I still managed to eat more cake and cup cakes when they were put out in the 2nd half. I have no self control!!

update on my news years resolutions: I haven't smoked since new years eve and I've lost 4 pounds (using the weight I was 2 days before new years eve

groundhog day

I didn't see my shadow today so I'm not sure if that means 6 more weeks of winter or not seeing as we don't have winter here it makes no difference to me.

excited for this weekend. first off I lost .8 pounds this week, so that's good and now going out i'll feel more confident and comforatble in my clothes (i lost 1 pound last week, so we're moving right along)

going to hear my friend's band play tonight, then have a kickball tournament tomorrow and then the superbowl on sunday where we have the annual rock, paper scissors tournament and I'm the champ from last year, I'll let you know how I do!

yesterday I wrote a little for my ivillage blog and hung out at the writers guild. I just foudn out my friend greg and his writing partner, in teh past month have written a movie and a pilot, now I feel stressed out that I'm not getting anything accomplished, but that all changes today!!! or tomorow, or when i get around to it..

ah february, only 3 more months until staffing season. Well, it pretty much starts next month, but the showrunner meeetings with people who can actually hire me on their shows are in full swing in may. it's been a long long long 9 months. I hope I get staffed this year, I dont think I can just sit around for another year waiting to get a job.. that's when plan b goes into effect yo.

yesterday I hit the writers guild to do a re-write on an article for fandango. I write one every 2 months or so for them. It's a movie tickets website and my friend scored me the gig. I love my friends who score me gigs! then i had dinner with amy and we watched friday night lights. I freakin love that show.

when i came home my mail had been placed in front of my bedroom door. I'm not sure why my female roomie insists on putting my mail in front of my door, meanwhle her and her fiancee's mail can sit of the fucking table until thanksgiving. So today I wrote an email to the both of them saying "hey how about we leave my mail alone much like how if i bring in your mail, i don't fucking touch it, asses!" not those words exactly. but the guy i live with immidiately wrote me an email back saying "i didn't do it," God he's such a fucking child, like that stupid cartoon family circus where there's a ghost who's called not me or i didnt do it or some shit. I don't care if you did or didn't do it, just make sure it doesn't happen again.

monday monday

yesterday I didn't do much. I worked out, wrote a little and yup, that's it. My life is v. strange at the moment. I think i may have come up with an idea for a pilot, maybe, not sure if it's just right just yet, but we shall see. anything else... nope, sorry for a lame day. Oh, i haven't heard from the guy who i went on a date with on sat. so there's that update.

the weekend

so this weekend, i had a grand old time, was crazy busy running around seeing people. Went to the staples center on sat. night for a cliippers game. my friend who writes on scrubs won a box in a raffle and invited myself and 8 other peeps and then some other people from scrubs were there, all guys, so i drank a few beers and flirted my ass off.

i had a date with a guy from eharmony, he was kinda nice and it was fun, kinda. but not knock my socks off, but fine. I mean that 's a lot of pressure i put on myself for a 2 hour date/job interview type thing. If he emails me i'd totally go out with him again, although he failed to say at the end of the date "we should get together again... " so perhaps he didnt lik me. I hate how awk and forced dating like this is. HATE IT and resent it and wish i met my husband in college or in my group of friends.!!!

Last night i drove to the OC to have dinner with my 20 year old cousin who goes to college down there. i took her out to eat and while we were seated, a guy started choking. The women he's with call over the waiter and ask him if he knows the heimlich manuerve and he says no, but proceeds to go behind the guy to do... i dont know what, there was a lot of commotion and i totally got blocked from seeing what was going on even though it was the table next to us. Well, the guy ended up getting whatever it was out of his throat, but i turned to my cousin and said "i know the heimlich" and she's like why didnt you get up and do it and i was like "the waiter guy said he didn't know it and then started hitting the guy on the back, was i supposed to push my way through shouting i know what to do?." And the reality is if the guy did in fact need the hemilich, i would've gone over there and done it, obviously, but they weren't turning to the restaurant for help just yet, I wasn't sure of what my role shoud be.

Simon

I have a friend named... we'll call him simon. I've known simon for about 8 years. I have worked with simon on 2 shows. Simon once told me he liked me. but not in one of those big sit down i need to talk to you ways, but in an off the cuff, we're both in the same coffee shop on the way to work conversations. I told simon I had someone who i wanted to set him up with and said but she's loud and obnxious and he said that's okay I've had a crush on you all these years and I said okay great and left. that was like 4 years ago.

so back in october, I was at a party with rachel and liz and simon comes in and starts talking to us and i introduce him to rach and liz and then simon moves away and rachel says "simon is in love with you" and i'm like SAY WHAT? YOU GOT THAT FROM A 5 MINUTE CONVO? and she said it's pretty obvious. so then my friend paula started dating simon around Christmas and then broke up with him and i was at the movies yesterday with paula's best friend and she said "paula seems to think that simon is in love with you," and i was like WHAT?!

what is going on? I love simon but i dont LOVE SIMON. he's kinda of a total mess. what am i to do? also he's never asked me out! and i'd say no BECAUSE HE'S A TOTAL MESS. ugh! why can't someone who i want to be in love with me be in love with me???

eharmony

here's what i'm up against on eharmony. here's who i am matching with. this is one guy who I sent the follwoing questions to and these are his answers. I don't want to poison the well, i think you can see why i'm including them in my blog:
my commentary is in itlaics after the answer.



Looking back on your life, of what are you most proud?:

I'm most proud of getting my license as a certified public accountant.

THAT is what you're most proud of? Isn't that like me saying I'm most proud of getting my drivers license? I'm sorry, but there simply has to be something he is more proud of! HAS. TO. BE. IF THIS IS WHAT HE'S MOST PROUD OF I CAN'T DATE HIM.

What is the most adventuresome thing you've done in the past year?:

The most adventuresome thing that I've done in the past year was for work. I had to take a one day trip to Portland leaving LA in the morning, drive across the Columbia River to Vancouver, WA. Then I had to cram a full day's work into about 2 hours. Then it was back to Portland airport to be back in LA in the middle of rush hour. Wish I had a chance to have some fun on the trip though.

FUCK SHIT FUCK. I spontaenously took a trip to italy to stay with my friend to go to the olympics with no tickets, no plans nothing, then after the olympics, I just got on a train by myself and bummed around italy. That is the type of answer I want! going on a business trip is not adventurous! WHAT IS WRONG WITH THESE PEOPLE!!

i hate my roomates

so i live with my roomate and a few months ago this girlfriend moved in with us. here is my top 5 reasons why i hate her.

#5 She's dumb!

hey some peopel are dumb, that's not their fault, but she really really dumb because she reapeatedly asks me the same questions over and over and over and over again. that's another thing, she's always talking to me and it's so fucking annoying and it woudln't be so annoying if SHE WOULD REMEMBER THE ANSWERS I'VE ALREADY GIVEN HER. for example last week she heard my radio playing in my room (she's always listening to my phone convos or listening to what's going on in my room) anyway, i came out of my room and she pounces on me the second i step out of the room and is like "do you have satellite radio?" Me: yes. her: cause i thought i heard howard stern. me: "WE'VE HAD THIS CONVERSATION LIKE 10 TIMES ALREADY!! okay taht's not what i really said, but that's what i wanted to say because we've had that fucking conversation A MILLION FUCKING TIMES!! she's so fucking stupid.

so yesterday she said to me "how's your job search going?" and i said to her "my parents always ask me that and i keep telling them that the job search ONLY takes place during may. the weeks leading up to may are very busy going on meetings with the networks, but the actual jobs are really given only in may." she asks me this at least once a month and i've explained to her REPEATEDLY that there is no job search or opportunities between may and may. SO STOP FUCKING ASKING. it's obvious that if i get a job, i'm going to be kicked out so she is eager for me to get a job, i mean there is really no other explanation for her fucking stupidty.


#4 whatever i do she does

she always comes running out of her room when she hears me downstairs in the kitchen or coming out of my room. so this morning, i put a load of laundry in and left the house. I came back two hours later and she has taken over the washer/dryer and doing laundry. even though i have my basket sitting there with a few more loads that i wanted to do. So i came home, saw that she had now taken over the laundry and i was in the kitchen and started to make lunch. so she comes out of hte office (having heard me come in) comes into the kitchen and starts to make lunch. I go into the other room with my lunch and I turn on the news. She finishes making her lunch and comes over and starts watching the news with me. Then I leave. as i leave she hears that I'm walking around with shoes on and gathering my keys, etc and she comes running out of her room to ask where I was going. I pretended to not hear her. I came back 2 hours later, I came in, she heard me sit downstairs and start watching TV, she leaves the office and decides to make a big snack for her and her boyfriend and they sit down at the table and start talking loudly.

HAPPY 40TH BIRTHDAY

TODAY is my big brother's 40th birthday! I can't believe it!! How can i possibly have a sibling that old. Now most of my good friends can't relate because I am friends almost exclusively with the exception of 2 people (and one i'm on the fence about) with only oldest children. so these people would not know what it's like to be going through this. However i'm sure the same thing was thought of me by my brother when I turned 30. He's was probably like I can't believe my little bratty sister (oh yes, i'm bratty, it's true, i'm sure it's a SHOCKER!) is 30 years old. Last time I checked she was 10.

yesterday i went to an abs class at my gym. Now I've been going to classes at the gym over the course of my life all the time, always predominatly or exclusively made up of women. this is the first class I have ever been to which was predominatly male, interesting as i looked around the room. sure i go to the gay gym so it's all gay men wanting to have fab. abs, but still, i was very surprised. I guess women want nice sculpted legs so theyr'e always doing step or yoga. anyway, i suck at ab classes so i dont htink i did any of the moves right since i'm not that sore this morning! maybe it will get worse as the day goes on.

oh, eharmony

so i joined eharmony a few months ago, say about 2 months and it so far has been pretty slow going and that's kind of annoying. I had one date last week and another date yester. with the same guy, we'll call him john. So i went out with john last weekend and the date was kind of a bore and i was pleading with my eyes for the waitress to bring the check. sometimes getting dinner for a first date is a good idea and sometimes it's most def. not because with dinner you're stuck, with drinks you can chug and drink and be out the door in mere minutes.

anyway, all my friends insisted that i need to give john a 2nd chance, i thought they were crazy seeing as I hated the first date. well hate is a strong word, but i didn't enjoy it that much. but to a certain extent they were right, i mean he did fall in the grey area and the grey area usualy is awarded a 2nd date. so yesterday i grabbed coffee with him b/c i had to meet friends for dinner that night (BTW if you get awarded a coffee date for the 2nd date after a dinner date, you've been seriously down graded to a tropical storm, the relationship is no longer a hurricane i'm afraid to say to any potential daters of mine out there reading this)
and john is so nice, but i'm just not that attracted to him and now ih ave to send an email kind of blowing hiim off, I HATE THAT!! i know he won't be devastated after 2 dates to be let go, but still, i think he thought we were having a grand old time, he just didn't see me checking my cell phone 3 times in the one hour we were together. (p.s. i had a very positive attitude going into the date, i dont want to hear from anyonen saying, maybe you went into it thinking you already didn't like him. blah blah blah. no i was really upbeat and positive and wore a cute coffee outfit!)

movie mania

as a member of the writers guild I get sent screeners of all the top oscar buzz movies. Last night I watched the queen and Babel.

Babel was strange and good, maybe tried too hard to be "different" but overall thought it was a great film.

The queen i ddin't love, way over rated. granted I watched the DVD on my computer, but still, it was just eh. Although helen mirren was awesome!!

JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE

went to the justin timberlake concert last night!! HOLY CRAP HE ROCKED!!! he is an amazing performer, it might be hard to imagine but the boy can freakin' dance, i watched him amazement!!!! it was my 2nd JT concert and this was so so much better, the first one 3 years ago was his first solo tour and he has more confidence now. i'm so lame for typing that sentence.

golden globes

aww yeah, went to the NBC - universal nbc after party last night! It rocked!!! saw all the nbc stars, everyone from the office, donald trump, and donald JR, the cast of heroes, a few soap stars, ben affleck, jennifer garner, a few movie people, all in all very successful star sightings! check out the whole story over at tvcocktail.ivillage.com you probaby need to scroll down as some of the posts have been knocked off the front page.

also my friend carrie from high school who now also lives in bev. hills was at the park with her son last week and was pushing him on the swing and lo and behold, britney spears came over and put preston in the swing next to her son and they were talking for ever and what's funny is THE ENTIRE THING WAS VIDEOTAPED BY PAPPARAZZI AND ON YOUTUBE!!! i will link it later!

I'm wearing my headphones at the writers guild so I don't have to talk to the guy here who has a crush on me. I haven't seen him in like 2 months, but ugh, he showed up today. and when he saw me he said "I was just listening to some of your music." REALLY, HE'S DOING A SARAH MACLACHLAN JOKE TO ME? REALLY??!?!? WHAT THE F@#$Q@? Yeah, that's the way to my heart!

yesterday i had the most fun! I worked on a movie for warner bros. Often times they'll have a talbe read of a movie with the whole cast and then they bring in writers for the day to punch up the script, i.e. making it funnier. Everyone there knew the director except myself and another guy also represented by my agent and if we weren't htere they would've had no jokes. Him and i pitched a ton and got them all in and the other people pitched nothing! hello, you're getting paid to do this! it was very starnge, but it felt so so so so good to be back in a writing room, doing what I love, doing what I'm good at! I really need to get a job this seaon! If I dont i dont know what will be come of me!

b/c my career is ruined I need to get the anger out and i'm off to find a place that will teach me boxing.

last night i went to jackie's and we watched Grease and the apprentice together. her husband went to get us pizza and joined us to watch grease.

my roomate wrote me an email about letting one of the cats out and said it had to be me this morning becasue i was the only one who opened the door however i know for a fact that e said one of the cats he had to also opened the door because i came home late last night and saw a script outside the door and I just didn't feel like picking it up just to be a bitch, so I left it
there and when I left this mronig, he was reading it,SOOO he obviously opened the door and got it this morning. but i can't say, oh, what about when you got the script this morning... because then he'll know i saw it there and didn't pick it up on purpose.

we all know how my 2006 went, do i need to remind any of you? well, 2007 is not working out much better. I have been working on a pilot, mostly doing a shit load of research for it SINCE JULY. and in august I pitched the idea to my agents and they were like, hmmm, not sure it's accessible enough for amercians, only to read today that FOX JUST PICKED UP A SHOW ABOUT THE EXACT EXACT EXACT SAME THING!!!! I'm fucking losing my mind!

I mean, the personal lives of the exact same group of people?!?!! HOLY FUCK!! just goe to show you my agents don't know dick about TV!!!!

FUCKK! now what?

saturday night was fun at least before my world just came craashing down on me, went to natalya's baby shower/party. it was basically just a party with a ton of people I knew, and the only baby shower part of it was I brought a gift for the baby. I told my friend paula about my new years eve story and she told the entire party! that was nice i thought seeing as I didn't want anyone to know that my friend's friend (who is a male) was doing naughty things to me in bed while also doing naughty things to beth, the other girl in the bed. (we were all just innocently crashing at my friend amy's apt. when the guy started getting fresh with the both of us!!)

but who cares about that MY CAREER IS RUINED!

we all know how my 2006 went, do i need to remind any of you? well, 2007 is not working out much better. I have been working on a pilot, mostly doing a shit load of research for it SINCE JULY. and in august I pitched the idea to my agents and they were like, hmmm, not sure it's accessible enough for amercians, only to read today that FOX JUST PICKED UP A SHOW ABOUT THE EXACT EXACT EXACT SAME THING!!!! I'm fucking losing my mind!

I mean, the personal lives of the exact same group of people?!?!! HOLY FUCK!! just goe to show you my agents don't know dick about TV!!!!

FUCKK! now what?

saturday night was fun at least before my world just came craashing down on me, went to natalya's baby shower/party. it was basically just a party with a ton of people I knew, and the only baby shower part of it was I brought a gift for the baby. I told my friend paula about my new years eve story and she told the entire party! that was nice i thought seeing as I didn't want anyone to know that my friend's friend (who is a male) was doing naughty things to me in bed while also doing naughty things to beth, the other girl in the bed. (we were all just innocently crashing at my friend amy's apt. when the guy started getting fresh with the both of us!!)

but who cares about that MY CAREER IS RUINED!

CLEVELAND BABY!

quote of the day: Next time put these items in a zip lock bag instead of one that is a zipper. - the security guy who tore open my bag and took out the little shampoo and conditioner bottles i had and then put them in my clear zipper bag. I guess because the thinking is, while in flight I CAN undo a zipper, but couldn't possibly figure out how to undo a zip lock.

I'm sitting in the cleveland airport, just chilling next to some guy who has a bad attitude in my humble opinion. Went to the gym today and worked out like mad, which is why i felt like I desserved a TCBY yogurt upon landing in cleveland tonight. I caught an earlier flight to cleveland (imagine my surprise when I thought I landed in houston only to find out I was in cleveland) and now I'm waiting for my connection to LA. a guy wearing a bright orange cowboy hat dressed in his pajamas just walked by me and sat down at my gate... I fucking know he's going to be the jerk sitting next to me!

Play Like A Champion Today

quote of the day: "Is that diet?" my dad asking if my pitcher of soda that he wanted was diet coke after he had eaten the following: a bowl of chicken soup, 2 plates of chicken wings, 2 plates of pasta and 1/2 turkey pot pie.

"Play like a champion today" is the quote that is above the exit frpm the locker room to the field at the University of Notre Dame football stadium.

My dad, sister and I went to watch the Notre Dame game last night in NYC at McFaddens. A notoriously lame ass 20 something frat boy bar that just so happens to be the Notre Dame club of NY's football watching bar. My dad being an alumnus and hug follower of their football team wanted to watch the sugar bowl there. HE also was motivated by the fact that maybe my sis or I would meet a nice irish boy, at least a higher caliber man than the meatheads that usually inhabit that bar. Unfortunately the Irish did not play like champions, they got killed by Louisiana State. Stupid southerners.

and alas everyone was around 25 and the bar was loud and crowded so we didnt really get to mingle, but it was a good time nevertheless. Heading back to LA tonight, won't get in until real late, dreading the travel it will take to get there, i don't have a direct flight and that blows.

french

Quote of the Day: "You look better when you are wearing make-up." from amy gross at dinner friday night,

it is believed that she meant to say, out of all my friends you know how to wear make up the best... this was a the begginning of the meal, mind you, alcohol is no excuse!


everything on my dad's computer is in french. the google is the french google and this blogger is competely in french! Ugh! IMPOSSIBLE! (that was my limited knowledge of french being exhibited)

friday night had dinner with amy, noah, remi and carrie (my 2 friends from LA) at mexican radio downtown and then we headed to a wine bar for a few drinks. it was very fun and relaxed! My favorite kind of night.

Friday morning, I had b'fast with alyson (shout out) and went to the gym with suzy. we gossipped while on the treadmill for over and hour and and then we hit the pool. suzy talked to a guy the entire time while i did laps, mind you the pool was like 5 feet wide so even my measly 40 laps probably only amounted to 1/8 mile. got up saturday morning to go to weight watchers only to find out i've gained like 1000 pounds in one week, even after all that working out! Ugh AND IT'S NOT MUSCLE, I PROMISE BECAUE MY PANTS ARE TIGHT! EATING A CHOCOLATE BAR A DAY DOES NOT MUSCLE MAKE!!

i'm heading back to LA tomorrow. Coming back these past 2 holidays has been weird. it appears everyone i know has thier own lives and friends and boyfriends/girlfriends/husbands/kids, etc. and seem to be very busy and i spent more time with my parents watching DVDs than going out with my friends, which was enjoyable but not necessarily the reason I come to visit. I suppose we've all grown up and I'm a stranger in a strange land.

yesterday, took a water aerobics class at the spa, it was so great!!! also an abs class and worked out a little at the gym and swam 1/4 mile. then we drove home and my sister and I fought the whole way. girl is a back seat driver, which is anoying since she's the suckiest driver EVER!! I camae home and ate chocolate bars for dinner, not the best thing to do after a great few days of healthy eating at the spa.

the big news back at the homestead in westchester, my mom's bird clock isn't chirping on every hour. oh did i not tell you that my mom has a bird clock that has a different bird chirp every hour? I must've forgotten, yeah we've had it for years, i think it was a Christmas gift from my nutty aunt who gives bad gifts but it turns out this gift my mom liked. so she put it up. Now this year, my mom went out and bought another clock that plays christmas songs every hour, and this clock is about 1 minute behind the bird clock, so it's like a fucking rock concert in this house every hour, first with a blue bird chirping and when that's done, santa clause is coming to town racket and need i forget, the grandfather clock is also bonging away! I NEED THOSE BOSE HEADPHONES EVERY STRIKE OF THE HOUR!

went out last night to brute on 9 with Tina, emma and alyson (shout out) and we gossiped about who we thought was gay from our high school. We also harassed Tina to try and be an adult, but failed once again, she's 30 so my guess is it's a lost cause. Suffice it to say, I do not think I act like an adult on most occassions, but trust me, compared to Tina i'm a fucking elder statesman in the British parliment. I had a quite enjoyable evening, although my wine sucked balls. heading into the city tonight to meet up with friends from LA and amy and noah.

more pics from the estate sale

as i metioned a few weeks ago, i went to tori spellings estate sale and here are the pics I took. i didn't actually get in since the line was so f-ing long and it was hot out and i didn't feel like standing in the sun, but here are the pics with the papparazzi and the ridiculous waiver you had to sign to be part of her reality show and the hulla ballooooo

here's my watercolor painting, I TOLD YOU IT WAS PATHETIC! I'M A PATHETIC PAINTER!!!

the lodge at woodloch.

I am loving this place! it's like summer camp for adults. I am up early again for a yummy b'fast. there are activities all day long. yesterday I took a boot camp class for an hour, did the ellptical for 20 mins, biked for 15 mins, swam 1/4 mile, and took a spinning class where i was the onlyperson in the class so it was like a private lesson. I also took a 2 hour water color painting class and this is where my concerns lie:so in the watercolor class were myself and a mother and daughter. the daughter, amy is 28 and we were looking outside at the same landscape and we decided to sketch and then paint the same picture. well if you saw the difference in our pictures... SCARY! hers was this beautiul interpretation of the woods that looked straight out of a fairy tale and mine was literally a green blob (a bush) a brown blob (dirt) a few grey blobs (apparently floating rocks) and a few more different shades of grey blobs that were supposed to be a stone path. basically the only thing i really accomplished during this 2 hour class was mixing yellow and blue paint to make a green color and to be perfectly honest, I barely pulled that off.

I shall take a picture of my painting to really give you an idea and post it tonight upon my return to NY. What i love also is that everyone, well, that would be an exaggeration, but most people just walk around in their robes! like at b'fast yester. I went in my robe!! and then at the cooking demonstration yester, one of the women was in her robe! The cooking demonstration was fun, the chef was cute and made cooking look fun and easy. Then last night after dinner my sister and i went to the seminar about hypnosis. all the seminars are about improving yourself/the mind body connection, etc. My sis went to another one yester while I was at the spa in the steam room, about talking to the dead, it seemed silly to me so i skipped it.

well, i need to strap on my bath robe and head to b'fast. I'm going to have beeet/ginger/carrot juice!! the juices here are so good and then maybe i'll have an egg white omelet! YUM!

merry christmas

merry christmas everyone! a few days late, i know. went to philly for the holiday to hang with my brother and his familiy, went to the Lutheran church where my sister in law sings and my newphew and neice are in the cherub choir, soooo cute watching them sing.

Yesterday my sister and I drove to the poconos (which isn't so lame anymore, losing it's lame ass rep. as a cheesy lovers destination from the 80s) and we're staying at a destination spa called the lodge at woodloch. it's amazing!!! The food is unbelievable and in very small portions which i prefer, and all ridiculously healthy. Got a deep tissue massage yesterday and spent the afternoon under the waterfalls that beat down on your shoulders neck giving you a massage. sat in the steam room and had dinner with the owners of the place, the loveliest people.

just got up at 645am, had a wonderful b'fast and now we're headed to a boot camp class. Later today I'm hitting a spinning class, a water color class and a cooking demo. i'll also hit the gym (need to work off all those Christmas goodies) and the spa. there's an outdoor hot tub which is great because it's cold outside so it's nice to sit in a hot tub when the wind is whipping by you. Ah, life is good.

NYC

went on tues night in NYC with stacey my old LA roomie. Well, she's not old.. actually she is, it was her birthday so she's older, but i digress. we went to a fancy party at a fancy hotel for her christmas office party. free drinks awesome free desserts, i love me some desserts, and kareoke with some spectacularly bad singers and white, internet geek dacning happening, oh how glorious.

got off the train in irvington and ran into my good friend suzy, SHOUT OUT TO SUZY! we chatted until 1:30am in the cold by my dad's sweet ride and come to think of it, it wasn't that cold, that's what's weird about this trip, it's not cold at all! it was colder in LA last week! it's not beginning to feel a lot like Christmas.

the big apple

just got back to NY. sat next to this annoying woman on the plane trip from houston to laguardia. I had the luxury of an entire row to myself and this bitch from another more populated row took it upon herself to move into my empty row. I had dreams of spreading out and sleeping across the entire row and then this fat btich sat down. I made it perfectly clear i did not care for her presence, so much so that she said do you not want me to sit here, to which i replied, no its fine, but i lied, it wasn't fine, i hate her even now!

i have no car and i'm stuck at my parents house alone while my dad is at the gym and bed, bath and beyond. I would've gone, but am too tired from the insane red eye i took to houston and then on to ny. i dont even remember my time in houston, i was a walking zombie with 2.5 hours of sleep in me.

party time

hit up a bunch of parties this weeeknd. my friend michaela had a bday fest on friday night, silver lake style. I never hang out there much, i'm not hip enough (not hollywood hip mind you, but more grunge hip) but it was fun.

saturday night I saw Apocolypto, which i didn't want to see on principle cause I dont like mel gibson and his hate spewing ideals, but my friends were going and it was raining and i thought what the hell. turns out i loved it, wwaaayyy too much violence for my taste, covered my eyes for about 30% of the movie, but still thought it was worth it. then headed to santa monica for my friend ferells party, it was awesome, but way too many chicks there, i mean the reason i leave the house is to meet men, and was wildly disappointed, but enjoyed dancing to justin timberlake whose concert i'm going to in a few weeks AAAWWWW YEAH!

so bad

another week has gone by and i don't know what i've been doing that caused me not to update. I saw the movie holiday with my friends jackie and jeff and HATED IT! which is odd it is sooooo the type of movie I would love, but didn't, except i love jude law LOVE!!

I had sushi at sushi dan with my friend jeff who i've known for like 10 years out here, but haven't seen in a year, it was so good to catch up with him and gossip about the old gang, the big group of people i used to hang out with all the time when i first moved out here and we all only knew each other. now with all of us having worked on a million different shows, we have branched our social circle outward and i rarely see them, so it was nice.

last night i went to warner bros studio to see WE ARE MARSHALL. i didn't love the movie but LOOOOOOOOOVEEE the story and matthew fox who is my boyfriend of the week!

yesterday i ate blueberry pancakes for lunch, how strange. I never do that, but just felt compelled to. I went to the chisel class again today, i liked it better last week. this guy also teaches the class outside on saturdays at some park in west hollywood, i think i'm going to try it on saturday. I leave for NY on monday night for 2.5 weeks, so excited!!!

chiseled

went to a class at crunch yesterday morning called chisel. and let me say I'm not chiseled from tgoing to it, but i think it's only a matter of time. last night went to Iiz's had a some wine and played board games, it was very nice, but now on to more important things...

TORI SPELLING'S GARAGE SALE!!

yes, that's right seems as tori is having a garage/estate sale in studio city, like 2 miles from my house so naturally i head over and damn what a crazy cluster fuck it was. there was a line up the street and around the corner, news vans, papparazzi GALORE!!! i got a good parking spot and my friend michaela and i stood in line for like 10 mins when we heard the peopel in front of us say they had been there for an hour and I was like see ya! we left, but pics to follow of the hulaballoo when i get them off my camera!

really funny stuff.

blood diamonds premiere party

last night i saw a screening of the new leo dicaprio movie, blood diamond and went to the premiere party where I rubbed elbows with Leo himself!!! holy crap is that man hot in person, seriously, his face is chiseled, boy can wear a suit real and don't get me started on his cocky swagger!!! ME LIKEY SO MUCH!!

the party was at the roosevelt hotel and i went with my Warner bros connections who know people who work with the top stars of the movie so we had VIP access to the after after party at teddys next door. but before we went there, I spied djimon hounsou, who was in the film, quite possibly one of the best films this year, and he was wearing this pin stripe suit that I wanted to tear off with my teeth and then procede to lick his gorgeous chiseled abs (which are prominantly displayed in the film, all the more reason to see it)

also at the party: kevin connelly from entourage, dr. burke from greys anatomy, wearing a baseball cap to remain inconspicous, PUH-LEASE DR. BURKE YOU'RE A NOBODY WHEN LEO AND DJIMON ARE IN THE SAME ROOm, you're at a movie premiere party, one of the places you don't need to try and hide, and I saw one of the guys from Lost and a few other movie stars. at the end of the night, we were leaving teddys (paris hilton in the house, yo) and missed out on the gift bags, but the lady was still there and gave us a bunch, she gave my friend 3 and my friend gave me all the t-shirts b/c they are freaking awesome and al ldifferent styles and colors and now I have 3 news soft awesome tees in my wardrobe!!!

saturday night

on saturday night i ran into this guy who I totally made out with like 7 yeras ago. he was the roomate of one of the guys who worked on a show I worked on and naturally since I was still in my mid twenties I was totally wasted and don't even think i talked to the guy very long before sticking my tongue down his throat. anyway, we made out on the front lawn of the house next door to the party, with people walking by, the works, oh yeah it was ridiculous. so for the past 7 years my friends whose party it was still bring him up.

so my friend steven introduces us at the party the other night and he's like "i feel like we've met before," and i'm like yeah, you look familiar (let me stick my tongue down your throat to be sure) so he starts trying to take the time to figue out how he knows me and naturally that's the LAST thing I want so i try to dodge the issue but he was relentless and so he asks me what shows I've worked on and I purposefully leave out the show that would connect us being like um, let me think, yeah, that's all the shows i've been on, yup not a single one left off the list. anyway, he seemed interested in me, but i wasn't having it. been there..

what have i been up to lately?

well, on friday night i stayed hom cause I had a cold. Yes, a friday night at home, not very often does that happen and it made me feel so awkward. Then on saturday I slept a lot, I did manage to hit the gym to do some ellipticalling to sweat out my sick and then went to 2 awesome parties that night. first was my friend tal's annual Christmas party, free booze and the who's who of hollywood TV people. love it every year.

then i headed to my friend murray's 30th bday party at his house and that was really fun, i knew a ton of people and his house is an awesome display of bachelorhood. for some strange reason one of his friends made a video of himself naked, dancing around, showing EVERYTHING, on a rooftop and also spread across a couch like a professional photo shoot and this video was playing on a continuous loop at the party on murray's flat screen 10000 inch TV (i could be exaggerating but it did look as long as my car) and the naked guy was at the party not at all embarrassed about this video. And yes at the party he was wearing clothes.

denstist

I am not one of those people who hates going to the dentist like a lot of people I know. I'm also a big fan of flying. So i am not scared of the things the average person is scared of. I on the other hand, have an irrational fear of mayonnaise and olives. So who can really understand my fucked up brain. So i had a dentist appt. yester. for a cleaning and the dental hygenist who I am convinced was totally banging my married dentist last time i was in, didn't show up for work, so my dentist had to clean my teeth. He's from italy and i'm not sure over there they taught them how to clean teeth without hurting the gums of a delicate american such as myself. I mean i was hemmoragging blood like I felt like i was in the movie "the holy grail" when the guy got his arm sliced off and blood was squirting out and he'd be like "oh, just a flesh wound." Now I don't want to ever go back. I mean he literally i think lifted my gums off my teeth if that's even possible and then cleaned underneath them and returend them to their natural position.

that's what it was like. I must've drank a gallon of blood, i did not like it, so i guess I can scratch vampire off the list of alternate professions.

watched greys anatomy at remi and carrie's last night, always fun to watch with girls and comment on it in a very caddy way. Must run, i've returned to the writers guild today for the first time in weeks and have told myself i need to write for 3 hours today then i can go on a hike or a run as a reward.

also amy and i are trying to lose 5 pounds before new years, so i need to start to work out more. I want to start boxing!

my dad

I love my dad, for example he picks me up and drops me off at the airport even at inconventinet times like yesterday morning leaving the house at 6am. Granted I got up early and made us both oatmeal, that's something, but still, a pretty stand up guy.

well today he emailed me and told me he googled "finding a husband" and sent me the top 3 links to what he found. Apparently desperate times bring desperate measures. anyway, one of the links is ivillage which is strange seeing as they are my current and only employer! I shall see if they ahve anything good to say and then give them feedback perhaps. oh that reminds me i got to go check my eharmony account, i got 6 more matches yesterday, none of them every good, but it's something!

FYI I'll be on chic chat radio today again. I'm now their resident TV expert coming on every few weeks to talk TV. Pretty funny. i think you can podcast them to hear my pearls of wisdom on earth shatter topics like oprah and lost.

big day

yesterday i joined eharmony.com to find my soulmate, yup they tell me that's what is going to happen, so fingers crossed... or uncrossed b.c whenever someone tells me they have their fingers crossed for me, it never works out. UNCROSS YOUR FINGERS PEOPLE!

I just checked and they found like 6 more matches for me, what am i doing updating my blog when my future husband could be sitting in my inbox! inevitably, the guys they send me never look anything like the cute guys in the commercials, but i will keep you updated.

yesterday i also hit bellas, my fave b'fast joint here in westchester. went on saturday with emma and vicki but yesterday i went with my parents, yummy chocoalte chip pancakes! then i got tina out of bed and we took a walk at the park, 2 miles, (still working on gettig those steps in, only got 7500 yester) then last night watched the most awesome bad TV movie ever, it was on CBS and it was one of those hallmark movies with alicia silverstone and of course she returns to her home town and of course living there was her next door neighbor who was in love with her and of course she's hiding a secret that she's dying and of course she needs someone to adopt her 12 year old son and of course her best guy friend does and of course she dies. but it was so bad it was good, i was laughing the entire time.

it's not a hard knock life

Yesterday, my friend amy gross and i went on a hike at the rockefeller estate. One of my goals every day is to get 10,000 steps on my pedometer so we went hiking and cranked them out. we then headed to barnes and noble to do some research on potential vacays to take next year, we're thinking asia i.e. cambodia and laos. So excited. I was worred that my leg might get blown off by a land mine in cambodia ALA paul mccartney's wife, but she's made a good life for herself sans leg, so who knows maybe I could marry a beatle if i got my leg blown off. Is this an insensitive thought? I think perhaps it might be.

last night had thanksgiving dinner #2 at the pomeranz's house, i'm so fat right now, i cant wait to get bck to LA and go back to starving myself and working out obsessively!

twas the night before thanksgiving

Last night we headed down to the city to see the balloons being blown up before the htanksgiving day parade, it was really fun. it was my mom, dad, sister and stacey (my old roomie from LA who now lives in NYC) and her mom and dad. It wasn't that cold at all, as it has been in years past. if you've never seen the balloons being blown up for the parade, it truly is one of the more fun things to do in this city. we saw dora the explorer baloon, big bird, super grover, snoopy, a bunch of weebles and many others, and they're being blown up and then they're tied down under like a big military net. It looks like the balloons are trying to break free! Now that would be a site

today I ran a 5 mile run with emma and matija. It was cold and spitting rain at 8am and we wanted to not do it, but we did. I was leading the way toward the end, but in the last 1/8th of the race, my leg muscles just did not want to move and became really heavy and cold and emma and mat crossed the finish line just in front of me, only seconds, but still. Regardless, last year I walked about amile, so this year was a vast improvement! headed to jersey for t'giving with the fam, my sister in laws fam is down there, had a big meal, but even the 5 miles will barely crack a dent in the calories I've consumed!

btw how great was grey's anatomy tonight

sorry

for the lack of posts. again. on thurs i got on a plane to NY and was involved in a car accident after I dropped my dad off in the city for a class and drove out to westchester in torrential rains and flooding and trees down and leaves everywhre on the saw mill parkway and a huge tree branch came a crashing into my dad's car, very scary. ON friday i drove up to cape cod where i am now thoroughly enjoying my existance for once in a very long time. I wondered into falmouth today and shopped around and got some b'fast with katie, joe and alyce, my bf from college and her parents. and went for a run, ahhh and it's so nice and crsip and gourgeous up here. Katie, alyce and i made cookies tonight and i ate so much fucking cookie dough, i'm sick to my stomach.

some more much needed R and R tomorrow and i'm going to see casino royale with joe, katie's dad. hot date!

monday

yesterday i went to the writers guild and once again failed to accomplish anything. this is starting to become a bad habit. I'm excited that I head to NY in 2 days for the t'giving holiday. I booked the ticket like last week so the only reasonable flights avail were way before and way after the holiday. which means i'm going to be at my parents for waaaay to long. dont get me wrong i love them, but i'm an adult and hate having to ask to borrow the car. so i'm clipping my trip a little and heading up to the cape on friday for a long weekend, then i'll be back in NY on monday for the holiday week, that's cool with me.

yesterday i also had lunch with my friend Trae who works at Fox and who i've worked with for like 6 years on various shows. we went to the grand lux cafe at the beverly center, it blew, the lunch not the company. anyone who knows me knows i love trae. then i hit the gym and wrote a few things for ivillage and crashed. All in all, not a bad monday as far as mondays go. nevertheless, i'm SO FUCKING BORED from being umeployed for almost a year now! time really flies when you're miserable and depressed.

weekend

saturday night i hung out at the cat and the fiddle with a bunch of friends. Kristen and I got a bunch of friends togther and drank some beers on the open courtyard. sometimes a beer feels so good going down, right? I rarely drink beer, but when i get a nice crisp one, deeeelish!

My exboyfriend's friend showed up, shes really nice and I like her, but the prob. is she's alwasy still talking about him and we broke up like forever ago. she walked in and I was like "oh where did you have dinner?" normal question people ask, right? and she's like oh, i was at a birthday dinner for (fill in ex's name)'s girlfriend. Now, why would I wnat to know that. She could've just said, I had dinner at domiciks with a bunch of friends... but no, she gave me the specifics. Oy

sunday i tried again to hit 10,000 steps on my pedometer, i hit the mid 9000s. so close. I walked around a lot. went shopping with bernsie, hung out with jill at her potche(gifts, lotions, etc) party and picked up something for one of my agent's bday party last night, met a cute writer talked to him forever, turns out hes fucking engaged, as soon as i learned that , was like i'm outtie. then i realized i still only had 5000 steps so i drove to a nice neighborhood and hit the pavement, yes at 9pm, because i'm obsessed with hitting 10,000 steps!!!

holy

i didnt realize it had been so long since i last posted? what have i been doing? The answer is nothing, absolutely nothing. I took the week off and now I can hardly believe it's saturday, i really maybe ran 4 errands and donated blood that's all i did, but i cant believe how fast the week went. I donated blood on tuesday AND voted, such a good Amerian I am. I saw borat on wed. night with bern, kyle and Brian, loved that movie, then we hit an italian restuarnat at the grove, very good night. On thursday night, Brian and I went to see the guy who started postsecret.blogspot.com talk. He was so freakin incredible talking about people's secrets and why the site and the books do so well, covered the anatomy of a secret, etc. It was a haunting, moving talk. We were both totally blown away. Now i'm going to send in a secret and see if it gets posted. he only posts 20 a week and gets 1000, so the odds are against me. Seeing as this year I've been rejectecd by every major network and every guy i liked, i highly doubt i'll get mine posted. I am hoping rejection tour 2006 will end when 2007 starts. SO sad if my miserable existance continues at this pace.

Last night I also so Shut up and Sing, the documentary about the dixie chics when they said that thing in london when we were going to war about hating george bush, it was really really good. I dont really remember the controversy, but it makes you really angry that all these stupid, red neck americans were calling country stattions and saying they'd stop listening to the station if they continued to play the chicks. I actually knew nothing about this group until I saw them on Oprah and then went to see the film. It's actually really really interesting and well done, i highly recommend it.

Bought a pedometer yesterday, apparently we're supposed to take 10,000 steps a day, yesterday I took 7000 and today I'm only at 4,000. I better get a walking!

weekend

those are tori spelling's massive pregnancy boobs!!!




awesome tee!







holy crap on fri night i went to the bevl hills 90210 aND melrose place DVD release party. it was awesome. I have pics and everything. so freakin awesome. The party itself actually blew, it was like a bad barmitzvah with colored gels over lights and a lame DJ and lilke a salad bar, i'm serious, it was lame-o considering this show made and contiues to make millions of dollars for the companies involved. anyway, i was on the red carpet and met brandon, andrea, kelly, whoever brian austin green's character was (he looked so fucking hot by the way, wasn't he the geeky kid?) and steve sanders. No luke perry or shannen doherty. boo. they didnt come to the party. anyway, i roamed around with bernadette, scored 2 gift bags complete with dvds from both shows, season 1, and an awesome 90210 tee with a picture of the cast on it, i wore it saturday and got mucho compliments. I didn't get lipgloss and hairspray in my first bag which were supposed to be in there, so thats why i helped myself to another one.

and the blues continue

like i mentioned yesterday I'm blue from my recent male rejection fest 2006. to make matters worse last night i fell down a flight of stairs and now i'm in a super bad mood. I'm never in a bad mood, i might be in a "don't talk to me mood," but bad mood so rarely happens, but now i'm in one because my wrist hurts as does my ass and so one down the body.

I wasn't even drunk or drinking unless you consider water a vice, i was just going to my bathroom down these windy stairs to brush my teeth and the next thing i know I'm on the stairs flying down them on my ass. I dont even know how it happened. now i'm more blue than ever, black and blue that is.

pitch day

yesterday I pitched to these networks, haven't heard any news. We have more introspective issues to deal with... yes, this is a public blog, but this is what i'm writing about because I can't actually see any of you right now.

So last month or maybe 2 months now, I told you how i had like a double date at a bar, my friend jamie was setting me up with this guy and we hung out all night and was totally chill and I wasn't even sure i thought he was cute enough, but regardless i was pleased that he asked for my number, like I had won a prize. I think girls always want the number asked for even if we don't like the guy, but in this case, i liked him. so then i never heard from him and saw him at the gym and hid. so he didn't like me, clearly.

Then on saturday I had a sort of date with a guy who's a friend of a friend and i thought he was nice and cute and charming and SMART! hello he used to work at ted kennedy's office briefing him for senate hearings!!! and i haven't heard from him!

Then on sunday i met the love of my life, of course i'm exaggerting, but a really cute guy who i was instantly drawn to the minute he walked in the door, and that SO RARELY HAPPENS TO ME IT'S LAUGHABLE and so my friend who was throwing the party emailed him the next day (monday) and was like i saw you talking to sarah and I'm just always a matchmaker so i was wondering if it's a match or some shit.. anyway, SHE HASN'T HEARD FROM HIM!!

holy crap, i used to be turning down guys, coming up with every which excuse why i coudln't be with them and now I'm 0-3 in th past 3 males i like interactions!! the only guy who has liked me this year has been the worst date i ever had in february who wouldn't shut up about the sci-fi channel, apparently he's still talking about me! I am not repulsive, but maybe in LA i am, what is going on? what am i doing wrong that I can't even get a guy who asks for my number to call me. I hate life.

weekend update

here's me on saturday night looking so fucking fat, newman on the left is slutty candy corn, the liz is a scarecrow and rachel is some sort of egyptian lady. not sure who the guy in teh back was.

also this carved pumpkin sits outsdie the gates of tom cruise's house down the street from me.




and am i the only person sad that reese witherspoon and ryan phillipe broke up? Yes? okay i'll shut up

halloween

I hate halloween, hate it hate it hate it. I hate getting dressed up but have done so for the past few years, so this year I decided I was going to take the year off, but my friend Liz wasn't having any of that. So she came to myhouse before we went to this huge halloween party (zach braff was there) and made me put on her costume from last year, rainbow brite, see pic. So I put it on but i'm taller than liz is so the costume came to about the end of my back or the begginning of my butt, either way, not okay to wear in public. so i had to throw on a a pair of jeans. I have an actual pic, but my camera is not cooperating, yet.

yesterday before Carter's big bash (carter created how i met your mother, very fancy) bernadette and I spent the ENTIRE day getting together her costume for halloween, the best costume at her office wins a computer A COMPUTER!!!! she's going to be ugly betty and we got had to put together the costume piece by piece. we coudln't find the giant guadalaja poncho anywhere so we had to re-creat it and i think we did an ubelieveable job, pics to follow next week!

Medium Premeire Party

working for ivillage has provided me many an exciting opportunities. last night I got invited to the medium premiere party. Medium is a show on NBC with patricia arquette who I got to interview and who I now love. Of course my favorite person I interviews was masi oka from heroes, he's so sweet!!! Courtney cox aruquette was there with her daughter and I took a few pics of her daughter's juice box, so cute. I had so much fun at the party, it was an awesome night. I knew nobody so I had to make friends with people who all work togetehr, so it's hard to inject yourself into such a tight knit group, but I managed. Also jason bateman was there, so cute!!!

next week I get to hit the red carpet of the 90210 / melrose place dvd release party and get to go to the party after! bernadette is going to be my plus one so I'm not alone in that one! cannot wait, loved 90210!!!

very exciting day

yesterday was exciting. I started off the usual way, coffee, yogurt, fruit salad, and proceeded to sit at the writers guild and do no work whatsoever. The laptop computer with built in internet airport card is both a blessing and a curse. I could have taken this whole week off quiet frankly and not come tot he guild at all seeing as i've done nothing. so i decide to go to yoga at yoga works in larchmont and i get there and place my mat down and right before the class starts in walks NICOLE FREAKING KIDMAN!! that's a huge celeb sighting, right? I mean I see celebs all the time in the coffe shop, in restaurants, going about their daily life, usually just lame ass tv stars, but nicole is a huge freaking movie star, probably my biggest sighting as of yet!!!! she also didnt use a hairband, and she has totally long hair! that was strange and she's good at yoga and has a great body, ugh, hate perfect people like her.

then i went to see the prestige with remi and carrie and my friend carrie is in it and we were at a private screening so whenever she came on the screen all her friends and co-workers were hootin' and hollaring!

tuesday october 24

yesterday i went on a 2 hour hike with Jenny, very nice and relaxing. I did nothing yesterday once again, although I did go to the writers guild and play on the internet, which is what I'm also doing today, not getting any work done on my Grey's anatomy spec script I've been writing since june (to be fair i've taken the last 2 months off) so that's what I'm trying to finish so i can hand it in to my agents. but i'm procrastinating. I told myself today i have to write 5 pages, i've done one. but i'm not leaving this place until 4 more are done even if it means I'll miss my yoga class at 4:30pm.


tonight I'm seeing the prestige at warner bros at a screening with my friends remi and carrie, very excited! didnt actually want to see it but it's free so now i'm totally on board! also NASA is offereing $6100 to anyone who will lie down for 3 weeks as they do tests on them, they will naturally lose muscle, etc, but i'm seriously considering it, SERIOUSLY. if i dont get the tv writing job i'm up for, i'm submitting my name for it, read about it in todays NY times, 3 weeks for 6 grand, come on! and i get to be in bed for 3 weeks!! dude, awesome.

I'm so fucking bored

with life. When is something going to change and mix it up. I have no job, no boyfriend, no kids, just a car and too many pairs of Nike shoes. I need to take a trip, where should i go? Also I just foudn out today that I'm still in the mix for the show I met on last week, but they're not deciding for another 2 or 3 weeks. That means I can probably go home for thansgiving, which is cool, so i'm going to book that ticket soon! I need to take a vacay although staying with my parents and asking to borrow the car is not my defination of a vacation, so if anyone has time off and want to go somewhere, let me know!

sup yo

I have led the mose boring life recently. Yesterday I had lunch with my friend at the century city food court which was completely re-done in past years and looks amazing, I used to work with this guy on my old show, I totally adore him, too bad he's married, oh well, such is life.

Last night I went to a party for my friend carrie's husbands movie premiere, didnt' actually see the movie as it's a horror film and I'm not allowed to see those, per my mother when I was a little girl who got scared by Tom and Jerry. So I jsut hit the party which was in a phat house in the hills, it was really fun, except when I found myself with a group of women talking about how to sleep train their children, that was when I suddenly got very tired and had to leave. I had a major thing for the director's son who is 19 and from NJ and is ridiculously hot, minus the chains and diamond earrings. But he's a teen and I couldn't even make the effort, i'm like 40 years older than him and i would've been pathetic for me to even try to talk to him.

One of my BF's from college who works at Nike and who i stayed with at the olympics is in town today and we're gonna meet up in bev. hills for some lunch, so i should go get ready.

ass

i'm currently looking at a woman's ass right now and i feel that one day my ass might look like hers. it's like a mom's ass, no not young moms, but like an older mom's ass. I'm afraid now i'm going to get that ass. I'm not exaclty sure what about it i dont like, it's not overly huge it's just rounded. I now have to go into the bathroom and check out my ass to make sure it's not that rounded. Why am i obsessing over this woman's ass?

on another note, i saw 2 old people yesterday and did not feel the need to race them, maybe my phase is going away

and on a final note, i saw THE best movie last night with bernadette. it's called the Last King of Scotland. it's amazing. so far my 2 fave movies this year have been in the comedy dept: little miss sunshine and the drama: the last kind of scotland. SEE. THIS. MOVIE.

important day

I've decided today after many days of consideration that I hate canteloupe. for the past 10 days every day i've eaten this yogurt/fruit salad/granola thing they sell at the farmers market and they have canteloupe in it. So for the past 10 days i've been eating it and today it dawned on me that i fucking hate canteloupe. first of all look how it's spelled, too many vowels for my taste, also it's big and awkward to eat and finally it tastes like nothing. but i will still be eating it every day as i love the rest of the salad especially bananas, mmmmmm bananas.

suck it

so i had my meeting yesterday, don't think it went that well, which sucks b/c from what I understand i was pretty much a shoe in for the job. these meetings are so fucking strange and weird with diffrent unique personalities all together, hard to explain.

then i met up with amy and monique for a ladies lunch and spa day! so much fun, we hit a restaurant in sunset plaza which is like tourist heaven, but was really f-ing good and then went to the ole henriksen spa and got a 1.5 hr hot stone massage. Yeah, it's the good life. I didn't love it to be honest, i really liked it but loved the hot stone massage i had at the peninsula hotel back in may!

last night i hit the gym for over an hour, i'm trying to get off the last 6 pounds. it's a totally random number but it's something to do. i'm bored...

OH AND DID U PEOPLE SEE ME ON THE TODAY SHOW THIS MORNING? I WAS INTERVIEWED ABOUT DEATH AND THE AFTER LIFE, MY FRIEND AMY GROSS SAYS IT'S ON THE TODAY SHOW WEBSITE SO CHECK IT OUT. I'M ON FOR LIKE A SPLIT SECOND SO DON'T BLINK

aids walk

today carrie and i did the aids walk for the 2nd year in a row. 6 miles baby and then i came back and ate a million bagels. yum, i earned it. this weekend went out to venice friday night with liz and the gang, ate grilled cheese at Rick on main and then got cold stone creamery and then we all went to the brig for a few more drinks. i wasn't having any, but hung out for while. Yesterday i went to barnes and nobles at the grove and read magazines during the day and went to a party in santa monica last night. My friend phil and his roomie live in this shitty apt and have lived there for 8 yeras and are now moving on and they threw a party because they didn't care about the deposit. it was such a guys apt. with beer in the bathtub and a rented margarita machine. I tried to pick up a guy but he had NO INTEREST and then when i went back to my group of friends i said "i just tried to pick up this guy but he was not interested. at. all. I then realized he was stading with his back to my friend who i was telling this to and if you know me, you know my voice is LOUD! so he totally heard, i wish shit like that would stop happening to me. then i met a cute lawyer named Avi, who was like 26 and i fell in love with him, but he wan't intersted probably because i was so tongue tied with him, i sounded like an idiot. and so it goes...

i am meeting on a show tomorrow so i need to get back to working on story ideas that i'll pitch to the creators... I hope i get it. It's cool a show is staffing on the off season. (shows usually staff in may!)

Mac Vs. Old people

There is something definately wrong with me, that much I know. Let me tell you why. whenever i get out of my car and see an old person heading to the ATM machine or same coffee shop as me, i always and i mean always break into a sprint to beat them to their desitination so i can get their first so i dont have to wait for them. I know this sounds mean, but it does make sense

Do not judge me until you have been stuck behind an old person trying to figure out what to order at the coffee bean. the menu is not really that confusing, you'd think they never ordered a cup of coffee before and dont get me started on them trying to pick out a treat to eat from the glass container. It takes forever. but now I find myself racing old people every time i see them, and you dont see many in LA, but it happens at least once a week. most recently in the trader joes parking lot, i saw an old guy get out of his car at the same time i did and i felt the need to race him to the door. Is this normal? I'm gonna go out on a limb here and say no.

PS was over at the FOX lot yesterday and saw hugh laurie going into his trailer! i love him to much, it's insane.

food coma

last night I had girls night with my gal pals. Ive talked about girls night before, well, monique annoucned she's preggers, which is so amazing. However, amy the first girl in the group to have a baby had to pull out of girls night last minute because her 18 month old was having a fit, so now i'm worried that the same thing will happen to monique and eventually girls night will just be me drinking a bottle of wine watching "love, Actually," and wanting to kill myself.

we went to erika's house and her house ive said before is the one straight out of a movie that has the most incredible view of the valley and an infinity pool and hot tub and floor to ceiling windows and it's UNREAL. we ordered pizza and tehy delivered it, and they screwed up the order, so they sent up another pizzz, once again, they screwed up the order so my friend erika called the place and said "can i ask you one question? are you guys high?" THEY SCREWED UP 3 PIZZAS!

I'm super excited becasue monique is taking the day off of work on monday and erika doesn't work, nor do i, so we're having a spa day!!! Hot stone massages are amazing!!!! i cannnnnooottt wait! i've earned it!

one more thing about me you might not know

a few weeks ago i posted 5 things you didn't know about me, i just thought of another.

#6 I OFTEN WEAR HEADPHONES IN MY EARS EITHER ATTACHED TO NOTHING OR WHATEVER THEY ARE ATTACHED TO ISN'T ON JUST SO PEOPLE WILL LEAVE ME ALONE

ALSO, i recently learned how to bold in HMTL (the computer language i'm learning) so that's why i have started bolding stuff!

i'm totally eating cookies right now

i know i talk a lot about wanting to lose weight, but these cookies are from whole foods and reportedly quite good for me! Anyway, just ran over to the farmers market and the grove mall across the street from the writers guild to get fresh fruit for lunch, so freaking good and cheap, and then get my niece rowan who turned 4 yesterday an outfit from the gap, like Godmother, like Goddaughter... so cute. I was busy last week and wasn't able to get a gift to her for all those who are judging me my auntie abilities, i was trying to sell a freakin' show to pay for her college education, biatches!

ok so on my way back, the TOday Show stopped me and asked to interview me about the afterlife!!! how hilarious is that!! so i'm going to be on the today show on tuesday talking about how i think the afterlife is like a bunch of green golf courses and friends hanging out. Hopefully there will be no boy troubles in heaven!

just another manic monday

today i could not concentrate. I wrote one thing for the tv blog i write for, i'm finding it harder and harder to come up with tv news. turns out there's not much tv news to report on. Its not like celeb gossip which is always happening, TV news isn't so prolific. oy vey, anyway, i think I've decided that I want to get back together with someone who dumped me a while ago. not sure exaclty how to accomplish this... very tricky. i mean, this person didn't want to be with me, so theres that, then there's the chance he has a girlfriend, a good chance since it's totally easy for men to get women, so there's that also, and i dont have his number any more and i've forgotten his email address, so i feel like the cards are stacked against me... i need to think about this some more as i know it's going to end terribly with me feeling sorry for myself. I just need to busy myself and forget about him.

update: I have been assured by my friends that me contacting Mr EX is a bad idea. Like i said i've lost all his contact info, so that pretty much makes my decision for me, but why the need to get back together with him? dont know. Speaking of exes i had a stalker EX a few years ago and I just was on his myspace page (yes even though he was a sorta stalker i still allowed him to be my myspace friend) and even he has a girlfriend, so i have to believe that mr. ex has one too.

have you guys been reading my TV blog? see the link down below, a few posts down, check it ou and post commments.

mets

the best part of my weekend was going to the mets/dodgers game. holy mooly it was the most amazing game!! i went with my friend alan and i had arranged to have this guy sell us tickets before the game, he had put an ad up on craigs list. so i call the guy as i'm pulling into the parking lot and he says he was at lot #13 and so i park and we start walking and calling him and he doesn't pick up so we call again, he doesn't pick up, again, again, so we're walking around lot 13 and there are only 3 groups there and so alan goes up and asks each group if someone there is sean, the guy's name, so the 3rd group he goes up to and as he's asking, i call again and the group says they have no sean, but as they're saying there's no sean, i see a guy look at his cell phone that has just started ringing, (i was calling) and looks at me on the phone and alan and i are pussy's so we walked away. clearly the guy had told a few people he'd sell them the tickets, and gave them to the first people who showed up. anyway, we scalp tickets to get in since we were already there and unfortuatnly we were sitting near a bunch of gang banging looking types, yeah, it was scary since i'm wearing a Mets hat which i prompttly took off when i realized i could easily get my assed kicked and alan would be of no help seeing as i could beat him up. soooo the game rocked, but the fans were drunk and belligerent so i culdn't really cheer that loud for the mets but WE WON!!! so now we're going to the NL playoffs, hopefully in san diego so i can go down there for a game!! LETS GO METS!! oh and the yanks lost so i guess all my friends who became yankee fans in the mid 90s will now jump on the mets bandwagon, but i will be pushing them off, we dont needs fairweather fans, thank you v. much.

big day

did you guys see me in USA today on thursday?

http://www.usatoday.com/life/television/news/2006-10-04-mcsteamy-returns_x.htm

so that was fun,but the other big part of my day on thurs. was pitching a tv show to executives at the peacock network, home of some tv shows like cheers and seinfeld.

well, the pitch went amazing, i kicked some serious ass and made them laugh and they usually never laugh, so that was good, but unfortunately the pitch wasn't bought due to the fact that they have a similar project already in develop. sucks to work for a month straight on something like that and it literally goes away over night. but we might take it to other networks the reason why i took it to the one i did is becuase the production company i'm developing with has a deal with them and we had to go there first. but seriously pitching a tv show and developing one too is the hardest thing i've ever done in my life, so fukcing ridiculous, but at the end of the day, a great experience for future times I'm going to have to do it over and over again until i get a show on the air... we shall see.

this weekend was fun, saw the most amazing movie, The Departed, seriously unbelievable although ridiculously long. I loved it, how hot is leo dicaprio, did i just turn into a 12 yr old girl? on saturday am had b'fast at my friend carrie's house who i went to high school with. she's married and has a kid and lives in bev. hills, it was fun because she made the most amazing pancakes, seriously, how did she make them taste that good?

today i watched football with liz at my friend bryan's house and now i'm eating soy chocolate pudding, yum!

hell

i'm in hell, creating a TV show is hell, i'm in hell. I pitch to one of the networks tomorrow so no more updates until after that, just know i'm in total hell. Oh, the hoops i'm jumping through...

TV blog

for the past month i've been writing for a tv watching blog over on ivillage. here's the link

http://tvcocktail.ivillage.com/entertainment/

anyway, a bunch of us write for it, but i'm the main person who does reviews and tv news. Everyone else just writes recaps of episodes of whatever shows they watch. anyway, i just got a call that USA today wants to interview me and it's going to happen any minute, i'm so nervous!! i'll let you know when the interview comes out, eek, i've never been interviewed by a major publication.

UPDATE - THE INTERVIEW WILL APPEAR IN THE LIFE SECTION OF THE USA TODAY ON THURSDAY

boulder insanity

so much happened this weekend, had so much fun. Erin's wedding was beautiful, Jamie and I got wasted, classy, huh? but it wasn't our fault, the servers at the wedding kept refilling the wine glasses on the table and we had no idea how much we were drinking. anyway, we ended up at chautaqua where all the guests were staying and hung outside the cabin erin and chris were in and everyone was just chilling and drinking and jamie and i were wasted and just left and started walking towards the hotel that we had to get cause we were too drunk to drive back to dennver. so we we get to the hill where all the students go to party and there are a lot of frats there and we go to a frat party and i walk in and no one says anytyhing, but they stop jamie and start harassing him and i come back and tell the guys that taylor invited us, knowning that every frat has a guy named taylor in it, well, lo and behold pi kapp does have a taylor in it and guess who was standing right next to me when i said this, TAYLOR, the one and only taylor in the frat! WHAT ARE THE CHANCES?!?! so we're like okay bye, then we stumble down to circle K and convince these guys who were filling up on gas to drive us to the hotel, they are seniors at the air force academy and were on their way back to colorado springs, so they drive us to our hotel and when we get there no one is behind the desk which makes sense since it was 3 am, so i call the hotel from my cell and jamie reaches over the counbter and picks up the phone, this went on for anumber of times even though i was like jamie, stop that, but we were drunk and some guy in the lobbby found us very amusing.... then came yesterday's hangover.... oy vey! more on that later...

boulder bound

i'm in colorado right now at my friend jamie's apartment hanging. I'm about to head up to boulder in a little for my freshman year college roomate's wedding!! I love my friend, ERin and i'm so excited for her. actually tonight i'm going to the rehersal dinner in boulder, the wedding is tomorrow, and jamie is coming with, oddly because jamie and erin's fiancee are colleagues at the rocky mountain newspaper. weird, small world, right? Fingers crossed that i make out with a cute boy!! so excited to be back in boulder, it's beautiful!!

I do not heart boys

a few weeks ago, my friend jamie set me up, in a group date setting at a bar, with a guy named russell. over the course of the evening russell asked for my phone number and said let's get coffee. and it wasn't like he had to do that, we were in a group we were both talking to everyone all night, so why did he ask for it? Well, Duh, me thought, i was A. going to hear from him and B get coffee. oh, sarah, how naive you are. HE HASN'T CALLED! so suffice it to say, i realize that ship has sailed. but last night, while at the gym, that we talked about us both belonging to, i for some reason looked down the line of treadmills while i was on the treadmill, which i never do and i saw him about 5 treadmills away from me. i'm like, say what? is that russell? so i was done with my cardio and heading upstairs to the weights area and got a better look and yup, it was him and we may have made eye contact, but I pretended i did not recognize. seriously, my life is sucky.

weekend

all i did this weekend was write. I'm submitting something for a show that i really really really really want to write for. so i have to write a very specific submission for them and that's what i did all weekend. good to know that I"m going to spend 4 days on this thing and probably won't get the job and won't get paid for all my hours on the computer doing research and writing. that blows, ahhh, the life of a writer.

saw the movie "the last kiss," with zach braaf, i love me some zach braff. and i really liked the movie, but found it to be a little whiny about a guy who's 29 and afraid of growing up, guess it has something to do with being dumped by a 25 year old earlier this year who freaked out when he found out i was in my early thirties. I hate whiny, i'm scared to grow up bulls hit, these guys are lucky they didn't have to fight in a fucking war like the men in the early 1900s.

we shall see....

well the big night is here, the greys anatomy premiere, i'm so excited, i can't see straight. also i just emailed my new tv show pitch in to the company I'm writing for, hopefully they will like it, the security guy at the front desk of the writers guild asked me if i was proud of it and i said yes and he said then that's all that matters, his lips to God's ears. Anywho back to greys, i'm going to my friend michelle's house where she's having a bunch of ladies over for a fiesta, i might be throwing back a few too many glasses of wine, so watch out, i need a little relaxing!

LETS GO METS

ALRIGHT METS, fuck off to all the yankee fans out there that used to be mets fans, but were fairweather fans and now the mets just clinched the NL east for the first time since 1988!!! AWWW YEAH,! THIS IS OUR YEAR!! I LOVE THE METS!!

depression back on

I'm totally stressed out. I met with the producers of my show and they totally changed the concept to where it's unrecognizable to me. And now I have to come up with an entirely different show based on their criteria, which by the way was 2 sentences long!! I'M HAVING A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN.

had a great weekend in seattle despite my nervous breakdown, my aunt and uncles 50th wedding anniversary party was amazing, they showed a video of their life together and it included my dad walking my aunt down the aisle on her wedding day (their dad died when they were young) anyway, i totally cried seeing my dad as a young guy and seeing my grandmother who i never met, but have heard a lot about, it was incredible or i'm a pussy, not sure which one, afraid it might be the latter. anyway, ineed to get back to work on my idea that is pretty much due this week and ih ave no idea what hte fuck i'm doing.. AAARRGGGGHHHH! nervous breakdown is in full effect yo.

wednesday

alright, so i have just spent the entire day at the writers guild library surfing the internet. secretly i wish they didn't have access to the internet because I find myself doing things like playing on itunes store and downloading songs from the new greys anatomy soundtrack when what I really should be doing is coming up with my new tv show idea seeing as I have a meeting tomorrow for it. then on early fri morn I'm off to seattle-ish for my aunt and uncles 50th wedding anniv. party. i'm psyched to see my immediate family including my bro fresh from Iraq!

On the note of downloading songs, you must download my new favorite song, HOW WE OPERATE by gomez!! I LOVE IT AND CAN'T STOP HITTING REPLAY!!!
also you need to email me for the new TV blog I write for this company.

depression lifted

just found out last night that the tv show idea i pitched last week, the people wnat to do it with me. next step is to go to all the networks and pitch it to them and hopefully one of them will want to buy it and I'll get paid to write the script!! SO EXCITING, WHAT A BIG DEVELOPMENT!! I'm so psyched that the first time i've ever pitdched anything ever, i won! Yippee! that's the news on my front.

weekend update

blind date went well, it was just a chill night at a bar with friends, but the dude asked for my number, so that's good. and he was cute (in a dark bar, who knows what kind of monster he is in the light of day...) and then saturday i had to run errands I blew off the past 2 weeks because of pitching and wedding commitments. I watched football all day with some friends and worked out. I took a lot of naps this weekend which i actually never do, I'm not a big napper, but more of a solid 12 hours sleeper. I think it's screwing me up! I hope my date calls me this week... oh and here's a pick of me in my brides maid dress from B's wedding in malibu.

holy moly

so this week has been crazy sorry for the lack of posts. I pitched a tv show on wednesday, like one that came to me in my brain!! It was so freakin' intense. I had to pitch out the premise and possible characters and story ideas, etc. it was the hardest thing I've ever done. Imgaine giving a speech to 2 people and it's not like teaching where you have the materials that are facts like science, but i had to make them up and entertain and be energetic for an hour. And i had to memorize 4 pages of single spaced microsoft word paper of all that information. Phew. I'll keep you abreast of what happens. then yesterday i had a movie meeting for a possible movie re-write. so today i'm totally exhausted. also I'm being set up tonight on a blind date by my friend jamie. but it's a triple date with jamie and his girlfriend and my friend kristin and a guy jamie is setting her up with too. so the pressure is off, but i'm so tired, i dont know how entertaining I'm gonna be. so much going on...

what the?

yesterday at the gym, i went into the ladies room. you walk in and the stalls, about 5 of them are on the left, sinks to the right. so i walk in and go to the first stall and tug on the door ands it's locked, so I notice that the 4th stall's door is wide open, so i headed over and when I got there, i saw a woman sitting on the can and she looks at me and says "hey." HEY?!! not ooops the door must've opened, or oops i forgot to lock the door. but HEY! now the dooor had been open since i stepped in the bathroom, but i just chose to go to the first one first because I like that stall better. anywya, this is one of those ladies you see at the gym whenever you go, she's totally emaciated and takes a spinning classes before and after the mat pilates class you're taking with her, so clearly there's something wrong with her.

wedding

so the wedding was awesome. On friday night we had the rehersal. I was nervous becasuse I had high heels about 2inches and all the other bridesmaids had wedges and we had to walk on grass and uneven terrain down the aisle. so i was in major ttrouble. AFter the rehearsal, i broke out the shoes and did a test run and did fine. that night the bridesmaids spent the night at the malibu beach house kyle and berna rented for the weekend. we had a big girls slumber party!!

So the next day, was the wedding. it was on this bluff in malibu looking over malibu and the pacific ocean and the sun was setting during the reception and wow, words can't even begin to describe it. bernadette looked amazing as did all the girls (us bridesmaids) I got my hair and make up professionally done, pics to follw in a few days, and danced with my drunken friends and got no action other than a few innapropraite hands on the dance floor. oh well, i met another writer who gave me some great advice on how to pitch a tv show, so it wasn't a waste of my time. on sunday they had a brunch and matija and i drove all the way bacdk to malibu and hung out with the happy couple. then we worked out in brentwood, doing the stairs, which are just a bunch of stairs that people go up and down up and down up and down, sweating their asses off. so i did it 8 times, and was dying because it's a major heat wave here... last night i headed over to my friend pau's house for a BBQ and hung out with some friends until I was about to pass out, I was so tired from all the weeekends events, and I came home and just sat in peace and quiet! all and all the weekend was pretty damn nice. who can complain about a malibu weekend.

ugh

i wrote this whole long post and then my computer crashed... basically this weekend is the big weekend for bernadettes wedding in malibu, very excited. I paid 400 bucks for the bridesmaid dress, so i better look hot in it and hopefully get some action, even though I hear there's not many or any single boys going to be present at this wedding. really what's the point of going to a wedding in the first place. anyway, thankfully i'm wearing the dress again at my aunt and uncles 50th wedding anniv. party in seattle in 2 weeks and again at a wedding in boulder, CO of my college fresh. yr. roomie at the end of september. what does that bring the price per wear down to... i dont like math, so i'm not going to do it. anyway, off to malibu for the rehearsal (gotta get a workout in beforehand to buff up my arms for the dress!)