inspiration can come at the most bizarre times

last night i drove down to the OC to see my cousin who is a senior in college down there and her dad who was in town from seattle to help out at some church thing. Oh, FYI they're fundamentalist Christians, but I try not to hold that against them. anyway, we had dinner with my cousin and her dad (who is married to my first cousin MO) and then we went out for Fro yo at this most awesome place down in huntington beach called America's cup. make a special trip there, it does not disappoint. Afterwards we went back to Hillary's boyfriend's place and her dad fell asleep on the couch and then i offered to give him a ride back to his RV (oh yes an RV he drove down from seattle to do some church work) which was parked at the church. I swear I dont come from trailer trash, i swear! It was actually a pretty suite ride.

Anyway, he and i ended up hanging out in his RV until like 1230am just talking about life. He's almost 50, has 3 kids (2 in college). He has known me since I was 12 and I just think the world of him, so anyway, we just talked and I told him what's been going on in my life and how SONY is trying to break my spirit (jokes on you sony, my spirit was broken long ago by MTV) about how Sony decided 4 days before going to network with my pitch i just spent 3 months writing that we weren't going out with the pitch after all and they wanted me to do an entirely new idea.... and have it ready to pitch in a few weeks... yeah, it's so great being abused by a major studio and having no recourse since I'm a younger writer. Oh and the head of the studio called me up and was like "this is how development works," like this is my first time at the rodeo or something?!?! it was so patronizing. I'VE BEEN DEVELOPING FOR 3 YEARS, HAVE PITCHED TO EVERY MAJOR NETWORK TWICE AND SOLD A SHOW TO MTV LAST YEAR!!!!!


i hate when people talk down to me. Hello, i know what development is like! I could give more great gossip about this story but can't on the interwebs.

but back to the story. anyway, my cousin's husband gave me great advice, and I talked to him about what he is going through and it was a really cool moment in our relationship. I mean he has literally seen me grow up! Families are so interesting. What's cool about him and his fmaily is they're really open and honest about what they're going through, I'm not sure how many other people they share this with, so i consider it a great honor.


yesterday morning, i had to get some follow up dental work. My dentist told me he wasn't going to use anestheisia, and for some insane reason I agreeed. NEVER AGAIN. I was in so much pain, my heart was racing, it was a nightmare. Sure it was over in like 20 mins, but IT WAS HELL!!

last friday night i went out for happy hour with Kate and a few others. Happy hour lasted many happy hours and then ended up causing many unhappy hours the following day. I don't drink much anymore, so i drank way more than I should've. also I hadn't eaten all day so it was the perfect storm of drunken disaster. I think I even smoked pot which is strange seeing as I never do that and at the beginning of the night kept saying no thanks but by the end of the night i turned into bob fucking marley!!! WTF?

so the rest of the weeeknd and even parts of monday were totally useless. Got my ass to the gym yesterday to help myself recover and then hit the movies last night. saw wall-e. thought it was good, but not as great as apparently everyone else did. Tonight I'm going to see the new batman movie, my friend is having a special screening over at warner bros, so i got a few peeps together to check it out. other than that, nothing new to report. Oh i pitched at Warner bros last week but got DENIED!! they apparently didn't like any of our ideas (they brought in 3 different writers to pitch on this idea)

whatever, moving on.

sorry about the disappearance.

the stuff on the professional front that I thought was happening isn't now... oh well, i'm so used to be rejected and disappointed. this industry is so fucking brutal, i would not recommend it for the faint at heart. Anyway, my friend who is the head writer on a show called me and said he's considering a few people for a job that just opened up on his writing staff, and i was one of the peeps, and that was 2 weeks ago and he never returned my calls after that. It's like dating, sometimes people just disappear. he's done this before though, he offered me a freelance script on his show and then instead gave it to mallory from family ties and i had to read her quote in the post that said "it's crazy that i did this cause i've never written a script before!"

today i had to go to the dentist to fix a cracked tooth and replace a leaky filling, total fucking nightmare. I still can't feel my left half of my face. anyway, my dentist employees a full time massuese who massages your feet while you're getting your head drilled.... gotta love beverly hills!

last night i was bored, and since every night is friday night for me since I aint gots no job, I called my friend danny who lives up the street from me. He and his wife invited me over for dinner and a few beers. AFterwards they headed out to see a movie and my friend K called me and so I met up with her at the grove and had a few more drinks and she ate dinner. Then she drove my car to her house and we watched reality bites and then I had sobered up, drove to canters deli bought cookies and ate them on the drive home.

I love that danny lives in my neighborhood. I seriously have such a fantastic area. My friend D. is moving here today and then my friend jessica lives 2 blocks from me and danny and his wife live at the top of my street. Bernsie lives 1.5 miles from me, so sometimes i'll walk over there and yeah, this neighborhood rocks. I've lived here for 1 year and I simply could not be more delighted with this part of town, I also am totally obsessed with my kick ass apartment! i can't believe I didn't live alone before last year! It's just bloody fantastic!

sorry, i cannot believe it's been 9 days since i posted last. I've been crazy busy readying my pitch for SONY Television on monday morning. I had to re-write then re-tool it in order to get it in to shape.

funny hollywood story typical of the tv world. I sent my producer the pitch last friday at 630pm. by monday i hadn't heard back from her with notes and was suprised so i emailed her to find out if she got the pitch. she replied back no she didn't, then 5 mins later followed up with "wait, i did get it. next time to avoid situations like these please dont send stuff to my home on friday night when i'm out to dinner and I forget I recieved it."

soooo i guess her forgetting she recieved something from me is MY fault. I love that she speaks to me like I"m her subordinate, when in actuality, I'm the talent so really she should be mine.

so freakin typical. also, since when (in this town) is 630pm FRIDAY NIGHT??? 10PM yes, but 630pm here at least is still considered part of the business day considering no one starts work before 10am!!!

pffft.


p.s. am i the only one who thinks josh groban is cute sometimes, but other times not so much?

p.p.s. i have things cooking on all fronts of my personal and professinal life, will update when I have more details so i dont jinx myself.

I"m starting to see why actors and in general people in hollywood become drug addicts. it's all because boredom can drive a person crazy. right now i'm not bored, but for the past 2 years combined I have been insanely bored. sure i have projects here and there I get hired for, but since I have to turn them in on my own time, and they usually dont require me to work 100 hours a week i find myself bored.

now back to my thesis statement, i just took an anti-axiety pill because I am bored. I was like I'm going to take a pill and i have a million of htese things since i am and always have been very anxious, so i just popped a pill not because I'm anxious right now, but only because i was in the bathroom and had nothing better to do.

anyway, do not become alarmed, I'm guessing one pill in 2 years because i'm bored is a pretty good ratio and safe. The only ever time I take one is when I'm pitching to a network, although I'm so used to pitching now, I barely even do that. Its strange that something that struck fear in me 2 years ago, doesn't even really show up on my radar now. I'm starting to think i'm starting to mellow, but I suppose it depends on who you ask...

howdy. i'm gonna write more later, just wanted to let you know i was still alive. If I had more to report i would've sadly, but I do not. I've been hanging out and writing and on tuesday I refused to drive in order to be more green and save money (it's 5 bucks a gallon near me) so I walked to the beverly hills library and worked there.

The homeless people of BH spend the day on the internet at the BH library. I'm really curious to know what on earth they are looking up or searching for. They get a little jumpy when people are get too close so it's not like I can look over their shoulder to see them on their gmail account or reading about getting an online degree. I have no idea. then again, why do i assume homeless people dont want to be caught up on current events or have friends they email. I mean if i lost my house and lived under a bench on santa monica blvd in BH, i'd still have people i'd like to think would want to hear from me on email, right?

on sunday I was in church (yes I"m still a good.... good-ish) Catholic girl, anyway, i saw vanessa williams and this is the 2nd time i've seen her recently, the first time being right before easter and i thought she's one of those catholics that come to church only around the big holidays, but i was wrong, she was there (and so freaking skinny, my arms are bigger than her legs) on sunday, so good for her.

Oh and I have a great story about YO and an email exchange we had. I dont even know where to start, but actualy i'm not sure i'm going to share cause I shared with my friend carrie and chris last night and they thought i was a total bitch! which is funny because all my married friends thing I was in the wrong and my single friends think I am in the right... weird. will get to that some other time. need to go work.

dominicks is domi-awesome

last night i just got back from the gym.... wait lets start over...

yesterday morning i got up super early to hike with a friend of mine who i worked with on a show many moons ago. We lost touch and then she hired my former writing partner on her show and from that day forth i decided never to speak to her again. But as you get older and realize life is a nightmare for every fucking person, you soften and we ran into each other at a couple of strike events and picked up where we left off and now we're hiking buddies. Yeah, look who is being the bigger person for the thousandth time in a row... Anyway she is writing on some new show so she is working now so we hike super early. So later in the day, b/c i have so much on my mind these days, i had forgotten that I already worked out and went to the gym last night!?! in the middle of my run i realize... i already worked out today?! who does this? anyway, i figured, well i'm already here so i might as well finish my workout.

so after the gym i get a text from my friend jessica to see if i wanted to get a drink so we head over to dominicks, i freakin love this place. I discovered it like 2 years ago and now live within walking distance and am obsessed! we sat outside by the fire, had a great chat, a nice glass of wine and then headed home. What a fun way to spend 2 hours of your tues night. God, i love LA. (the city not the industry)

so i'm pitching to my producer on friday morning now, it got pushed! I have been writing the pitch and i kinda super like it! Much better than the idea they forced me to pitch last year where wasn't as organic as this one as this one is based on my life in my small town i grew up in. If this show ever made it to air, i'd have to change EVERYONEs names. Because everyone is either based on someone I grew up with or most are an amalgamation of a few people and everyone has names of people from said podunk town. so i hope she likey and wont make me make many changes for when we go to SONY on the 30th.

a couple of years ago when I was rich and never cooked for myself, or did anything for myself if we're being honest, i would go to whole foods in bev. hills all the time an dpick up food. One time while in front of the glass counter trying to figure out what to eat, a man from behind me started giving me suggestions, completely unsolicited. he told me to get the chicken nuggets. I turn around to thank him and it's billy bob thorton. He then (still completely unsolicited) goes on and on to me about why he likes them, what other foods he likes there and his food allergies. ALL OF THEM.

strangely i took his suggestion and loved the chicken. I had completely forgotten about this until my friend kristin was talking about billy bob last week. For some reason i was thinking bout this conversation on sunday while I was hungry and I thought to myself, you know what I really want, those chicken nuggets from whole foods. and i went to get them.

Now billy bob will forever be in my brain associated with the bevely hills whole food chicken nuggets. How strange that a conversatoin about billy bob days before helped solve my food question... just thought i'd share.

i'm not computer savvy.

some of my recent posts were accidently deleted when I checked a whole bunch of them and then clicked delete in stead of save.

sorry.

visited Kristin's set again today (went to the un burned back lot of universal on saturday and spent a few hours there watching them film the mexican carnival scene)

anyway, today they're filming in a boutique on 3rd street right around the corner from me. Bernsie and janie are extras!! anyway, I was walking through the store and needed to get around someone and said "excuse me" only to find out that "someone" was a mannequin.

secret shopper

like i said in my last post i'm being a secret shopper tonight at a nice sushi restuarant in LA. And i'm psyched for free food, but I have to fill out like a 10 page form about everything from the moment I call to make a ressie to the minute we leave valet!! but here is what my friend Amy (who is one of my best friends out here and is a mom with 2 young kids so i'm taking her with me for a night away from the family treat) and I have to eat tonight. And as many of you know, i dont like to eat big dinners so this is going to cause me to have nightmares tonight because all the food I'm going to ingest. (the nightmares will not come from eating so much food but I get nightmares when I eat big meals, it's weird, i know but what can you do?)

AT THE BAR - 1 DRINK PER PERSON BEFORE OR AFTER DINNER

AT THE TABLE - ONE COCKTAIL EACH, ONE SHARED APPETIZER, ONE SOUP OR SALAD EACH, ONE ENTREE EACH, ONE DESSERT PER PERSON, ONE COFFFE/TEA PER PERSON

how am i possibly going to be able to consume all the food"?!?!!?!


but i'm super excited!!!!!

do you ever have those days when you just can't seem to focus on what you need to accomplish? These days are brutal on a writer with a deadline. I have to pitch to my producer over at SONY on wednesday and I have to really develop the world of the show I'm ptiching then write the pitch, all of which i was hoping to.. well not finish, but at least start today and for some reason I have done everything but do this. I have accomplished nothing. IN fact when I type this, i'm going to the gym to run instead of working on my pitch. And it's not like something I can phone in, i am going to be sitting in a room opposite my producer, just the 2 of us while I pitch this and it has to be clear, concise, funny oh and a viable idea that she can envision as a tv show. If not, we're back to square one. So the fact that I can't concentrate on my only really reason for getting out of bed this a.m. is DRIVING ME BATTY!

I do however, now have a clean apartment floor as I swifter-ed it and vacuumed and took out the trash, walked to the grocery store, met a friend for coffee, helped her re-do her pitch for paramount and then played on the internet. BTW I liked life a lot more when I had a maid cleaning my place. I've had one almost my entire life so to now not have someone clean my apt. because I can't really spend the money on it is also DRIVING ME FUCKING BATTY.

while at peetes coffee today on larchmont, i saw a lot of people carrying around yoga mats, i need to do this next time I head to larchmont (a ritzy upscale street in LA that is so super cute, has adorable shops, the best pizza in LA and reminds me of scarsdale) I also saw tina majorino, she was the little girl from "when a man loves a woman," she was in napolean dynomite and also she's in big love on HBO. she was walking with some TV exec. I saw someone else famous today too but can't remember who... I went to bed at 1am and then woke up at 6am maybe that's why i'm all over the place today.

last night i went to dinner with my tennis class girls, we're all soo different yet we all get along so well, we range in ages from 45 to 25, from australia to marietta GA, from Catholic to Jewish, from writers to hotel industry employees. we had a fantastic time!!! Damn, i love tennis.

MY SURPRISE PARTY PICS

Steve and bernsie pretending they are at a major rager!



bernsie, kristin, Gunn!

me with the boys (check out the sign in the background)


me, carrie (from high school), danielle and bernsie



me, adam (so hot!), bryan (we dated and his engagment party is the one i went to this weekend), kate and morgan.



me, bernsie and bryan.



me, amy and bernsie!

last week i was working at universal studios. i parked in the muddy waters parking lot and had to walk through the back lot in order to get to Kristin's office. I walked through it 2 a day for 3 days, also walked through it every day when I worked there 6 years ago. Anyway, now the back lot has been burned to pieces. So sad to think I may have been one of the last people to see the back to the future clocktower set...

anyway, i was walking through there the other day when all of a sudden a black BMW almost hits me. I look at the person driving and thought it was my agent, Greg, but as I looked closer i see it's the actor, the guy I used to live with. well, not live with but lived in his house with him. anyway, he's doing a spot on CSI and was there for a wardrobe fitting and yeah, he narrowly missed me! he gave me a ride to kristin's office and said "how funny would that have been if I hit you, got out of the car and was like I'm so sorry-- Sarah?"

Hilarious that would've been!

today I at the Writers Guild reading some scripts and then I need to send off an email to the ABC drama exec who i met with a few weeks ago to tell her if I liked them. of course I will say I loved them all, b/c i want a fucking job!

weekend

this weekend went by fast. I was driving today thinking, i hate when the weekend is over cause that means i'm supposed to do something with my life starting tomorrow. unfortuatnely it appears that SONY is taking their sweet time on deciding on which idea i'm going to develop for them this year. so i have nothing to do!! i know this sounds like a dream to some, but i assure you it sucks so much balls to open your eyes every morning and look up at the ceiling thinking i could stay here alll freakin day and no one would ever know.

yesterday i went to my friend/ex engagement party. the party called for "hoedown" wear. Now for a girl from NY i do not have any hoedown type garb. so the closest thing I had was a red bandana that i wore on my head and a white skirt that COULD be seen as a western outfit, but was really more a hippie outfit. my friends were all wearing cowboy boots and plaid cowboy shirts and cowboy hats and took one look at me and here are the comments i got:


YOU LOOK LIKE YOU'RE GOING TO LALAPALOOZA
I'M SORRY DID THE INVITE SAY AN AUNT JAMIMA THEMED PARTY?

so needless to say the party was my worst nightmare with all these atrocious outfits and then country music?!?! and the food was from zeke's BBq. so there were ribs and pulled chicken and baked beans and basically everything I woudl NEVER eat. Now I'm sure many know I have major food issues, mostly because of the foodbourne illnesses i have had in the past, so as you can imagine, i'm not an adventourous eater when it comes to shit like pulled chicken and fucking ribs!!!

well, I bailed right after the food arrived to hit the Sex and the city movie with remi, carrie and the gang. BTW the movie was terrible, but so freakin delicious for a fan like myself!!! so i looved every 140 minutes of it!! and so did the rest of the arclight audience, people were clapping and hollaring. yeah, i'm a freakin cliche and loved every second of it.

after wards we headed to the well, which is my least fave place in LA and got a drink. I passed on the drink and headed home early since I was so freakin tired from working all week on the ABC pilot.

alright, off to the gym!

working for a living

hey all, been working on kristin's pilot like crazy these days. Worked until midnight last night and then worked all evening today. but we ordered dinner from Katsuya which is the best sushi in LA!!! so it was all worth it!

I'm having the best time being back in the writers room yukking it up with some of the old guys from that 70s show. It's so much fun!!! i've missed this!!! and Kristin is doing really great considering we've had to re-write the entire script.

I was supposed to read the part of Joy at yesterday's table read but then last minute was re-cast. boo! the part is now cut, but it would've have been had I read the lines!! oh yeah, i practiced and practiced and would've hit it out of the ball park.

tomorrow I'm so excited, I'm hiking at 8am, playing tennis at 10am then working all day again on the script over at universal studios. Saturday i have a engagement party for my ex boyfriend, and then sat. night i'm going to ssee sex and the city with a big group of friends. we're making it a night of it, drinks before hand and I think we're going to the over 21 showing at the arclight so I think we can bring drinks in! either way, i'm fucking psyched!

today i'm back in the tv hollywood world. going to my friend kristin's table read for her pilot. a table read is where the entire cast sits around a table and reads her script for her show. then the network and studio gives her notes and then we writers go help her make it better based on the network and studio notes and we re-write jokes we thought worked and story plots that need to be fixed.

it will be fun! i'm reading the part of Joy in the script because I guess they haven't cast Joy yet so I'm going to be in front of the entire ABC network, dreams works and all the trained actors on the cast and say some lines!! i hope i dont fuck it up!!! wish me luck! who knows maybe i'll have a new career.

YOu're probably wondering why I'm updating my blog so much today. I'm bored and it's raining in LA. I've now decided to complain about men in general. I sometimes wish I was a lesbian and wonder if woman put other woman through the hoops that men put woman through. I'm also kind of embarrassed what I allow guys to do to me, like what I put up with in order to make something work. this more accurate for relationships in the past then current ones, altho i dont currently have one but you know what I mean. I suppose more recent ones would be an more accurate description.

I was in this meeting with ABC drama last week and the woman told me that people dont come to LA to settle down, that's why so many woman mostly have a hard time finding someone here. They come to follow dreams and live a fairly unrealistic life (quite frankly exactly like the one I have been leading what with my hollywood premieres, TV show job, being part of a celeb entourage albeit breifly) I think her assesment of LA was quite on target.

fran

the last time I was home, i realized something about my mom who totally rules. Well actually this isn't a new realization, but one that started to grate on me. Here's what happened and maybe you can figure out what hte problem is...

we get in the car and drive to bellas, my fave b'fast restuarant. my mom gets the newpapers, gets into the car and sings "oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beuatiful day..." the entire song.

In bellas we were talking about being old and how it sucks to grow up. My mother immediately broke into another song "I wont grow up" from Peter Pan

On the way home I commented on something out of the window and this inspired my mom to break into song again.

Then during lunch preparations, she started to sing another song about heating up tea! How does this woman: A. know so many songs and B. know so many songs that apply to such specific situations?!! Like heating up tea for example, who knew that was a lyric in any song?! MY MOTHER!!

it's just weird because it's not like she was the star of stage and screen or something, she just sings for no apparent reason. IT'S WEIRD!! and this isn't a new thing, she's done it for years, but i think the afflication is getting worse.

UPDATE: JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH FRAN, AND I WAS TALKING ABOUT A TICKET I NEEDED TO GET FOR MY FRIEND NOAH'S WEDDING BUT HE HASN'T NAILED DOWN A DATE FOR HIS AUGUST NUPTUIALS. ANYWAY, MY MOM STARTED SINGING "SHE'S GOT A TICKET TO RIDE," INSTEAD OF LISTENING TO THE REST OF THE CONVO... SERIOUSLY PEOPLE DO YOU KNOW ANYONE ELSE WITH THIS ILLNESS, PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP!!

babysitting

i think the weirdest day of one's life might be the day they meet or hear that the kids they babysat for are now college graduates. I just got an email from one of the woman whose kids I used to baby sit for. she wished me happy birthday then went on to update me. her oldest just graduated from college last weekend. Her youngest is going to be a junior in college. I met these girls when they were 5 and 7! I mean, it blows my mind! blows my mind. Why am I so old? who allowed this to happen? Not I.

there are 2 other girls I used to babysit for who have been out of college for a number of years, and I still can't wrap my head around it when I run into them whenever I'm home in NY for a visit. They're real people instead of little kids I'd run around after dressed up as a boogie man or some other strange character. Anyway, perhaps this post is a just a reflection of my passing birthday and movement on in the years!!

SURPRISE!

omg last night i was all ready to go with berna and kristin to see "sex and the city" screening. At least that's what I thought i was doing. On the walk over to the movie theatre, kristin wanted to stop in and see this wine bar we used to go to b./c it cahnged ownership and was like 'hey I want to poke my head in to see what it looks like" so she opened the door and i stood back on the sidewalk waiting and she opens the door and there's a sign that says "happy bday sarah mac" and i think to myself "thats funny thats my name too!" and then i see my friend chris and i think "what a coincidence Chris is at this bar and i'm walking by, this town is so small" and then everyone says suprise!!! AND IT WAS A SUPRISE PARTY FOR ME AND I'M TOO STUPID TO REALIZE IT!!!

i saw words sarah mac and didn't think it was for me!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!

I WAS SO FREAKIN SURPRISED and a little disappointed that i didn't see the sex and the city movie, not gonna lie!

but my friends were like "that was the best surprise ever because the look on your face was priceless," now let it be known that this is the 2nd surprise i've had in 5 years and the same thing happened last time too, i had no freakin idea and was kinda freaked out by the shock of it all.

but it seriously was an awesome night. berna pillaged my list of facebook friends and contacted those she had never even met before and was got all these people on the evite list!!

also i got totally and completely shitfaced. It was so fun to see so many friends to come out to celebrete ME! there were flowers and pizza and crudite and balloons and gifts, people brought gifts!!!!

cool, righ?

on tues i'm going to the spa. every year I go to the spa and to church on my bday! but i'll be getting a 90 min deep tissue massage and spending the day by the pool!! cannot wait!!

anyway, it was a good night. a great super fun happy night! I just feel so stupid again that I had no idea, AGAIN!

meetings

this is the week all the shows get picked up for the new tv season. well due to the strike many shows are not even shot yet so they wont be hiring for a few more months. ugh! anyway, i have lots of meetings and had a bunch last week but the show i had the best meeting on probably isn't going to get picked up. Its annoying since i spend hours reading the script, coming up with ideas, stuff to talk about, get dressed, drive to burbank, sit in the meeting, and then drive back, basically taking up 2 days including prep only to find out the show isn't even getting picked up and i have no job after all that?!?!??!?! SUCK!!

yesterday I filed for unemployment again, i get to sign up every may and it lasts for a few months. it's not much money and doesn't cover any of my expenses, well maybe cable and my cell phone but i'll take it. I have no idea if I qualify seeing as in order to get unemployment you have to have earned money in the past year which sadly I didn't earn much, but who knows, i thought i'd give it a shot.

weekends

weekends to me are the same as weekedays. pretty much nothing happens. I guess I have a few more friends around that are off work, but mostly my friends are all unemployed writers so they're around all day every day anyway. It just means there are more people in the brunch places, that's all.

friday night i went to liz's to watch Grizzy man documentary. if you haven't seen it, it's brilliant and when i mention it to people since, a ton of people are like I know i saw that and it's amazing. then i wonder why hasn't anyone told me about this gem of a film. Seriouly stop what youer' doing right now and watch it! not to be believed!!! it's about a guy who goes and lives with bears in alaska and eventually gets eaten by them becaues the bears are like "WTF is this guy doing thinking he's one of us!"

on saturday I went to my friend natalyas and hung out with her and her son who is 1.5 years old. he's so freakin cute. I used to work with her hubby so it was fun to see them. I went to talk career advice with Nat as she's super smart and gives great advice. They then asked me to come to dinner with them and we hit up the grove which was a mistake since there were like 10000000 people there and it was all too overwhelming for a person who sits at home alone all day. we had dinner, checked out barnes and noble and then I came home and went to bed. I had donated blood earlier in the day so was kinda wiped out.


Saw jeremy piven the other day at lulus cafe on beverly. I hate that guy. arrogance just oozes out of him while he's crouched over drinking his vanilla latte and egg whites. I just want to punch him in the face every time I see him.



oh and a great sighting was Kevin Connoly from entourage at my Catholic church last night, I've seen him once before, like 2 years ago, but he stayed for the entire mass, he's very cute, very irish so naturally i'm attracted to him, but he's too short for me!!

also on my way into church i saw a yellow VW bug and thought my friend Matija who used to live in LA but now lives in san fran was at church since she's the only person i know who drives one of those! so i got excited only to walk by the car and see it was an enterprise rental, very disappointing.

hey everyone, i've been back in LA for about a week and basicaly done nothing with my life. friday night i met up with remi for her bday and they had dinner somewhere but I met them for drinks at this place called vermont where we were in a minor battle with TR Knight's posse, AKA george o'malley. he's so tiny!!! anyway, his people insisted our table was reserved for his big group and they had some bossy big blonde lady trying to convince us of that, but in fact carrie had reserved that table for us!

in leiu of bday cake carrie had an assortment of cupcakes, omg so freaking good!! what a great idea. I felt bad that i was so freakin tired from all the wedding stuff the week before and the travelling that I had to leave early.

saturday went to david's surprise 40th at village idiot, it was in the back room and it was awesome! great food and seriously, rent that space it's freakin awesome if you're ever looking for a place to have a party. the service was fantastic!

this week i have a few meetings, i want a job, i want to be on a show, i'm so sick of not having a job it's driving me crazy!!! the next few weeks should be interesting as it's sorta staffing season, the annual rush to get writers jobs on tv shows, but due to the strike not all the shows are ready to be shot and ready to hire now so that might happen in a few months, thats annoying because it would be nice to afford my rent.

party time

I am right now in NY for emma's wedding. well her wedding happened on sat. and it was a rocking good time. my calves are so sore right now from all the jumping around and dancing! I have never heard croatian music before that night, but certaintly danced like i had been doing it all my life... must've been the booze!

I looked amazing in my black bridesmaid dress with a honey dew sash! the ceremony was amazing, there wasn't a dry eye in the church (well excpet mine since I dont cry and emma's since she has no tear ducts) we took loads of pics, were driven everywhere in the limos, ate, drank, was very merry. I had such a blast, i think i danced with every guy there, including the brides father who I believe I led and at one point even dipped!! oh yes!! did i mention there was lot of booze!

then we went to the after party and ran into a girl i went to high school with and alyson one of the other bridesmaid was drunk and mad at me for something that i had nothing to do with, but anyway she told me to "just go home" (we've made up) and so i caught a ride with the girl from high schoool who freaking worked at the hotel we werea after partying at!!! hilar! it was like 3:3oam before I even got home (had gotten up at 7am that day) I made it home with all my shoes and makeup and camera and I.D. etc. thankfully my parents were in Philly and didn't have to see me! when i get back to LA i'll upload the pics!

the best man who i figured I was going to make out with was hot and bothered with another lady, so this sinlge bridesmaid went back to her childhood bed in her parents house alllll alone!!! oh well, my choices were pretty limited, unless I wanted to take home my friend Tina's dad!

sorry for the lack of posts. I've continued to be horrible sick with acute athamatic bronchitis. breathing has been a strange thing for me the past few days.

anyway, i've also been out and about pretending i'm not sick and enjoying my life. I've seen a number of movies, had a few beers (i haven't drank beer in years) and playing tennis. My friend jen and I play every tues. morning at 10 at the bev hills tennis club (sounds fancy but it's a public court) sure i dont have a job and i'm totally poor, but still at least i'm trying to find the silver lining. Last night i went on a hike with kristin to a place, runyon canyon i"ve gone a million of times and she took me down a completely different path and it blew my mind. how did i not know this path existed and gave even a more spectacular view?!?! after living here for 12 freakin years, i can still learn something about this city. fantastic!

leaving tomoro for NY for emma's wedding, i'm a bridesmaid, cant wait should be fun even though i've been on all these steroids to help me breath for 3 weeks and I'm all bloated and ugly. sorry, what can you do? not my fault my lungs hate me.

greetings friends. I would like to wish my cold a happy 3rd week anniversary. Oh yes, i have been sick with a cold for about 3 weeks. It sucks. I finally went to the doctor on thursday only to be yelled at. It seems I had both a sinus infection and severe bronchitis which to a person with asthma like myself can be life threatening, I figured as much as I was drowning in my own muscus on wed. night. It's weird how you can actually feel the inside of your lungs?!1 anyway, I'm now on a major anti biotic and 2 inhalers (one with steroids, i'm hoping i h=get roid rage!! how fun would that be!) and feeling much better, despite thinking I was going to have to go to the hospital on saturday b/c i thought i had pnuemonia!

anyway, today I have an article due at fandango that i haven't even started since I was so sick and very busy watching maid in manhattan and coyote ugly!

last week i worked on a pilot at Paramount for NBC. I don't get paid in these situations, but usually they send a gift, we'll see. anyway, it was so much fun to be back on a set, pitching jokes, the only annoying thing were the people, well one writer in particualr who when he was off somewhere else and woudl come back and hear a joke someone had pitched while he was away he'd be like 'who said that who gets credit, who gets credit" and i realized I woudl hate to work with him. That's the competitive mentality i hate when working on a show. "who's joke was that. who gets credit" its susually a collaborative effort where someone pitches an area and then together everyone builds on it, but by pointing out who gets credit, it makes everyone else feel like they did nothing and the one who pitched the final wording is the genius. I swear i wanted to punch this guy in the face when he kepts saying it for 2 days straight. anyway, the show is really funny, and i hope gets on the air and i hope they hire me!!!!

celebrity sighting round up

I have a ton of celeb sightings!!!



on thurs I was driving by orso, a very actory type restaurant which is about 4 blocks from my house and I stopped because of traffic and looked over and saw Josh Jackson and his Girlfriend. Josh jackson who played pacey on dawson's creek. and let me just say he is looking MIGHTY FUCKING FINE!!!!! have you guys seen him lately?!?! yum yum, i wanted to lick him!!! but the light turned green and I had to go but DAMN!!




on saturday I was driving to my friend carrie's house when I drove by the park at coldwater canyon and saw all the paps lined up taking pics so I slowed down to see Gwen steffani with her son, pushing him on some two wheeler. she was all glam on an early sat. morn. By the time I had brunch and got home the pics of her day at the park were already up on people.com!!!



Just now I am currently staring at Eric Stolz from every 80s movie under the sun and once again may i say DAMN!! he's in the writers guild lounge for some reason. I looked over and there he was grabbing a bathroom key. he's in the small conference room with some people, i didn't recognize them, which means they're not regulars here as i have been given the title "mayor of the writers guild lounge!"

last night i went out for kristin's party, she sold her pilot which is good news for me since I helped her write it and if it gets picked up to series I'll have a job!! woo hoo! and then I can afford coffee again! oh yeah, since the sky rocketing pricetag of my accident and medical bills (from 2007) and car repairs, i have had to cut out coffee bean, 2 bucks a day instead of going to my gut goes to my credit card. so every 5 days i'm going to send a check via my bank to the credit card companies to help pay for stuff. ugh, being poor is a fucking nightmare!!

every day at the wrtiers guild there is a woman who comes to write and often sits across from me, well she sits a lot of places. moves aroudn the lounge she moves like 4 time a day sometimes twice in one hour. anyway, whenever she sits on the couches where is usually her first stop, she falls asleep. just sits there with her computer on her lap, eyes closed. this happens every day. and i watch her as her eyes slowly close and she tries to battle them to stay open but is unsuccesful, oh, right now she is up again, i'll keep you updated.

i've been sick for a week and I'm so tired! ugh! last night greg S drove me home from krisine's and then came inside to give me a pep talk about my life. he gave me some valuable advice about trying to figure out what i want to do with my life. well, not my life but what I want to do next. we shall see. I just wish someone would just tell me what to do, that would be so much easier. i hate being a grown up.

back in la!! went to emma's bachlorette party in SF this weekend with the rest of the bridesmaids and had a great time even though I had bronchitis and didnt get to go out as late as the rest of the girls. I'm still plagued with the illness as I'm too lazy to go see a doctor.

we toured the vineyards of napa in high style, a very tacky cheesy lame ass white limo that was PERFECT@! a freakin white limo, i didn't even know they made those anymore! we went to like 5 vineyards and at one my spot had about 10 empty champagne glassses! yeah, I was a bit faced! all the girls rallied to head out that night after a day of drinking, but I was too dizzy to stand let alone go to some bar so I stayed back and fell asleep watching bridget jones diary 2.

flew home sunday and have been in la since. I know am driving a rental car that i freakin hate, a ford focus which is a shit box but what can you do? I should get my car back next week, cannot wait, i miss it, but mostly because I left a whole bunch of laundry in it and now I don't have clean sock or my tennis racket which is in the truck! grrrr!! i didn't plan that well!

anyway, back to resting!!

so immediately after my accident last week my parents flew me home to NY. I just clarely had such a bad run of bad luck and I was so wound up and the pressure and stress and mental toll was all to much. I got into the acciddent at 2 called them around 3pm and was on a plane that night. My dad said i was so upset on the phone he thought I had killed someone. No, not someone, just someone's jaguar.

so i have been hiding out in ny recovering from whip lash and all my mental scarring. I'm glad I came home, turns out it was easter so I had a great time with my family and then started being spotted in my small town and in the church I go to and had to tell people I was home. It was fine, by then I was ready to get off my parents couch, although not behind a wheel. basically my friends just pick me up and drive me whereever they're going, i tag along. today I went swimming which i read is good for shoulder, neck and back injuries, so that felt good. my dad and I split a lane, hehe! pretty funny. we have matching goggles.

tonight my friend BJ and her kids and I went up to briarcliff to her sister cathy's sweet ass condo. I think one of my basketball coaches now works for the NBA pretty high up so i'm going to contact her about employment opporutnities there. Very excited about that. that should be cool. we had yummy spinach pizza tonight and played with the kids and gossiped about everyone we know. it's fun to do that with people you have known for over 15 years! it's not the same with the friends i've only had a few years, not that I dont cherish those relationships. I def. do, but still. anyway, I emailed with one of my friends today and he just gave me a great email reply when I told him I had to miss lunch b/c I was in ny due to this accident and my nervous breakdown, he said the nicest things, I just love getting those types of emails. Although now more and more I'm getting condolence emails and phone calls from people who are starting to hear about my accident etc as the news trickles out since I just picked up in left hours after the accident took place. lets see how nice they're going to be when they have to drive me everywhere when i go back to LA cause I'll be without a car for who knows how long. suck!

I WON THE LOTTERY

I bought a mega millions ticket the morning after my accident and guess what?!?! I WON!!! I WON THREE DOLLARS!! it's something right?!!?!?!

what should i spend it on? i dont want to spend it all on one place so as one would imagine that really narrows down my options. YIPPEE!!!

she's being aggressive

She's very AGGRESSIVE. this is what i just heard from my insurance company. My poor insurance compnay who i've only had for like 3 months and they have to deal with a COMPLETE lunatic that was involved in the accident with me. This woman was screaming at me and now i can only imagine what they're dealing with. As a result of this revelation and warning from my insurance company, i can no longer divulge information about the accident. Just know we were both at fault (my side) she on the other hand has a different view of the story. It's very complicated.

today was Good Friday, I've always wondered why it's called "Good Friday" since it's the day Jesus died. Actually I do know the answer, but it still bewilders me.

I would also like to apologize to my faithful readers who day after day come to my blog to read something witty or funny only to find out that I have suffered more bad luck, have slipped further into my depression and have completely lost the will to live. I'm sorry, I just can't seem to catch a break, I hope you know that since i'm reading "When Bad things happen to good people" (thanks mom!)... wel, I dont want to say I know I'm going to be okay and i'm going to get through this because if you scroll through my days it only keeps getting worse, but lets just leave it at that I'm reading this "when bad things happen to good people book," and that's that.

hmmm i guess the bird poop thing wasn't good luck after all. On monday I had a car repair for $1100. Tues I got a rejection letter for an entry level trainee job saying I didn't have the right qualifications!! FOR AN ENTRY LEVEL JOB and then on wednesday i got into a big car accident with a screaming lady, a lunatic insane lady who my insurance company told me today is being very "aggressive" with them and causing a lot of problems. (less than 24 hours after the accident) oh and a sassy black bus driver who first said I hit her bus too and then 10 mins later said "no wait you didn't hit my bus." so she's the "credible witness" for the entire case. Oh and i did happen to mention the botoxed lady was driving a brand new Jaguar?! yeah, awesome! I think I cried more yesterday than I have in... well only bout 2 weeks. but today is the first day of the rest of my life.

p.s. okay that is pic is not what happened!! oh and the $1100 car repair is gonna have to be completely redone! but it's okay, i'm gonna be ok and it could've been worse!! (at least that what some guy told me when he saw me standing by my car just staring at it glazed over about 30 mins after the accidnet)

good luck

I hear getting pooped on by a bird is good luck. any one have any idea what that is based on? I just got pooped on so I was curious!?@!

this week i went up to santa barbara with my cousin mo and her 2 girls to check out colleges for one of the girls. it was a small Christian college in montecito, so ridiculously beautiful and very very very small. I convinced Hannah to go to Pepperdine in Malibu, i wanted to go there but my parents were against it. check out the picture of this campus!!! come on!!! amazing. So that woudl be cool, hannah is a very cool girl. its weird to think that when she was 1 years old that was the last time I took a road trip with her and her parents, and now i'm road tripping with her TO COLLEGES!!!

life is going by waaaay too fast!

yesterday I went to a baby shower for my friend erika. it was reallllly nice of course, all my friends are TOTALLY RICH RICH RICH!! I am not. but that has been well established. anyway, she was opening presents and wondered where this one woman was who RSVP-ed and I was like I dont know her and she was like yes you do, you know Kerry Anderson and I was like no, I dont and this is how ther est of the conversation went.

Her: Kerry Anderson, you know Kerry Anderson. Kerry Anderson?
me: no I have no idea who she is
Her: Kerry Anderson. (turns to our friends) She's met Kerry Anderson right?
Jenny: yeah, you know Kerry Anderson she was at my shower
Me: i swear I dont know Kerry Anderson
Jenny: yes you do, she does, she met her at my shower
her: Kerry Anderson, you know her.
me: you can keep saying her name, but my answer isn't going to change.
Jenny: no, you know her, you just dont know it.

me: (in my head): oh, ok.???

Post tenebras spero lucem ("After darkness I hope for light")

Ive decided I'm no longer JOB from the Bible. Job is the guy who is repeatedly tested by God to see his faith and God gives him the most UNBELIEVABLE bad luck and just heaps it on him more and more and more and more, killing his wife and kids and taking away everything. For more info read about it here. ALL ABOUT BAD LUCK JOBFor most of 2 years now I've thought I was JOB, the modern day JOB, i do not have a wife and kids to take away but everything else I have had stripped from me.

But today I've decided I'm Lazarus, another Biblical character who Jesus rises from the dead, resurects, more like ressucitates. I have decided I am now Lazarus, I am on the rise.

TOday I picked up a mail from the actors house and found a medical bill, no surprsie there, I'm drowning in medical bills, this is one for $7,000 from 2005 when I was sick after Africa. My insurance woudln't pay it. I had 2 procedures done with a doctor in their network who did said procedures at a non-network place and they would only pay $3000 of the 10,000 so that left with me $7000. I told my doctor last year I couldn't pay it, and it wasn fair since I was using him a in network doctor that I should be penalized becaue he was using a non network surgery center for my stomach stuff. So he told me to fax him the bill and he'd try and work something out, i'd probably have to pay some of it, but not a of it. This is a doctor who I have developed a good report with seeing as I'm always in there with ailments that "only 65 year old men have, not women your ag" that's a direct quote. he was also the one who told me to go to the ER b/c I was having an appendicitis, needless to say this guy has watched the hits keep on coming with me. Anyway, it took a long time for me to get it togethet to mail the bill to him but I did and then never really heard anythign.

until today.

Like i said I went to the old homestead to pick up my mail and there was the bill from the surgery center. I thought for sure I was going to open it and see a figure that I wasn't too keen on paying but much to my surprise the leter said my balance was ZERO! nada, zilch, nothing!!!! My luck is changing! I still have thousands to pay for my medical bills last year, but this one bill was weighing on me for years!!!!!

woo hoo, I feel like I won the lottery, I am like the phoenix, I am rising from the ashes, I'm back in the high life again!

free screening

last night this guy i went on a date with in dec and a few more in jan called me out of the blue. he had disappeared in jan, (after the date where he called me at 830am to ask me to a free movie screening that night) only to send me an email in feb congratulating me that the strike was over and so i replied "i was wondering what happened to you" something to drive home my attitude of "WTF where did u go?" then i followed it up with yes, thanks for the email blah blah.

THEN NOTHING

then last night he called me at like 930pm to invite me to a screening (another one, it's the only thing he ever calls me to do, a free movie screening, he really knows how to make a girl feel special.) for 4pm today, but i was like Um I have to work.... and he said maybe we could get drinks after if i couldn't make the screening, but I already have plans!! WHO IS THIS GUY? HE CALLS LIKE 2 SECS BEFORE HE WANTS TO HANG OUT. now i know you're all thinking Jeez, give it a rest, at least he's calling, but honestly, a 16 hour notice isn't enough. I'm not saying i'm popular, but I don't see people alllll day long andit's really lonely so as a result I book my nights up way in advance becaues I need to see people and not feel so isolated, so i'm ususally booked up at least 10 days in advance. it's something I know i have to do to keep remotely sane! so i called him back today and left a message and haven't heard back. i'm sure in 3 weeks I"ll hear from him again!

WTF ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?

i handed in my pilot to my agents and they loved it but want me to do a re-write so we had a conference call yesterday and i've come out of it not understanding WTF they're trying to say. The thing about agents and TV execs is they get their job after answering a phone for a few years and then get promoted. The thing about writers is, they have to answer the phone for a few years BUT ALSO WRITE SCRIPTS AND IMPROVE THEIR CRAFT. you see the difference. In what other industry do people who answer the phone get promoted into a job that requires understanding of script development, story building, character?!?!? NO OTHER THAT'S WHY THERE IS SO MUCH BAD TV. the people who are giving notes HAVE NO EXPERIENCE DOING SO!!!! They're just trying to sound smart so as not to lose their job THEY SHOULDN'T HAVE IN THE FIRST PLACE. So sure agents listened in on all their bosses phone calls when they were assistants, so they hear phrases and words that execs and agents say that sound like they have meaning (they think the person on the other end knows what htey're talkinga bout) but really they're just saying a lot of words but it means nothing. I'm not sure you can fully understand this until you have had it happen to you.

so yesterday on the phone my agents said a lot of words but didn't really say anything concrete or of any value that will help me in my rewrite and this makes it difficult as one would imagine. I just want to be done with this script and send it out and maybe sell it (long shot, but crazier things have happened)

grey clouds are gonna clear up...

put on a happy face. I'm so exhausted putting on a happy face. but yet I continue to do so. all around me people I love are getting the craziest happiest news/experiences (most life changing, it's been quite a week for my friends: a new baby in boulder, an engagement in NYC!!)

yet the most exciting thing I did this week was floss.

And hope for my happy news!

a whole new life...

I know my last post was depressing and i can't help that, well i also thought it was hopeful, how i was coming up with new ideas to cut back. but despite that, i was just trying to convey how every single second of every single day of every single week of every single month the past 2 years of my existance has miserable!

but things are looking up! today I realized that all the hair that fell out ( 3 months after a surgery, most of your hair falls out) anyway, the hair is starting to sprout back in and IT'S NOT GREY!!!!!! so that's good since I do have a lot of grey hair, so i was quite pleased! yay!

I know some of you are thinking "get a job" I hope you all know that now that the strike is over that is exactly what I'm trying to do, it just sucks that my agents really old the power in my career. none of you have any idea what that is like! i feel powerless and lacking any control over my fate.

BUT MY VISION BOARD IS TOTALLY GOING TO CHANGE THAT! I'M LOOKIN AT IT NOW AND CAN'T WAIT FOR ALL THE GREAT THINGS THAT ARE GOING TO HAPPEN TO ME!!!!

it's a mad mad mad mad mad mad world

I hate it when i have a friend who is envious of "all the time off" i have. yes if I had a job lined up in a year from now and coudl travel, i'd be envious too, but I have a friend who recently said "i wish I had months and months off." so let me disabuse anyone of the notion that having off a ton of time with no end and no paycheck in sight is anything but glamorous. And let me tell you why... I do not have a family member or husband to swoop in and save the day to pay my $10,000 in medical bills and all my expenses, that must be nice! Here's how i live my life.

I have to steal toilet paper from businesses.
I have to steal $1 coupons from the coffee bean so I can afford my daily fix (only can go 4 times a week now since it adds up pretty fast)
I've had to cut up all my credit cards.
I have to bring a yogurt to my friends house during the acadmey awards party because I can't afford the pizza everyone else is ordering
I refill my gallon water bottles for 25 cents each at ralphs
I walk to church, coffee bean and the grocery store so to avoid using gas
i spend every waking hour coming up with ways to save money! it's exhausting.

my friend told me recently to do something and then i could deduct it for business expenses on my taxes i said to her "um deduct it from what? I've earned zero dollars, i believe you have to earn money in order to deduct it."

being a hollywood writer is not an easy life, so please no one at home try it!

vision boards and some such

first off yesterday I was at the WGA working and went to the bathroom. I walked down the hall behind a woman who was also going to the restroom, she entered and then spun around while I was about to walk in and said "you're going into the wrong one?" then she said "oh, I thought you were a man!" When I inquired why she should think that seeing as... I DON'T LOOK LIKE A MAN OR AT LEAST I NEVER THOUGHT I DID, she said "oh because you're wearing black pants, because of the black pants." now I was wearing black sweatpants, since when did they become a gender specific garment?? So that really helped with my self-esteem!

Last night I went to amy's with berna and made vision boards!!! it was so super fun! it's basicallly a collage where you cut out things from mags that you want for your life and then you get them through the laws of attraction. We saw this on oprah and I guess it's an element of THE SECRET as well, but it basically is if you constantly look at the board and what you're working towards then you'll get it! We all said we have no idea if it works or not, but it can't hurt to try and also it can't hurt to do it independent of whether it will work or not since it's good to be reminded what you want from life! I'm super happy with how mine turned out! I made two actually because I had cut out so many pics and sayings that I needed a second one!! I guess I'm dreaming big!

tues night i was at my friends house where i watch american idol every week. The couple ended up getting into a huge fight while I was there eating my chicken sandwhich. this is not a new phenomenon. couples often invite me over and then end up fighting in front of me and dont seem to mind that I'm there. why is this? because I DO seem to mine seeing as I hate confrontation even if I'm not directly involved in it.

last night i drove to el segundo to have dinner with my cousin steve and his family and my cousin patty and her family. patty was in from seattle and I hadn't seen them in a long time! it was nice to catch up, but i did realize one thing. when I'm alone in my apt/home office alone all day every day, I feel like I"m a totally normal persons, until i go out in public and open my mouth and say stupid shit... then i realize people must thing I'm barking mad!

i dont know if it would help if i spend more time around groups of people or not! I will have to start testing this out.

sorry for the lack of updatges, I've been busy writing emails to guys on the internet dating sites i'm on! I'll let you know if anything interesting happens!

I've decided to head back into therapy. I haven't been in a while, i think I went like 10 times in all of 2007, but I think it's time to go back and I'm currently going therapist shopping. Is it weird that i'm looking for a boyfriend and a therapsit at the same time?

saturday night I went to this awesome party thrown for one of the writers on that 70s show. it was his suprise 40th bday and his wife through this kick ass party where we all had to dress like him. Apparently he wears the same basic outfit every day, jeans, a grey cahsmere sweater and a yankee hat (ugh yankees I know) I was going to wear my mets hat, but I found a yankee hat in the picket line lost and found that I was the organizer of and so on the last day of the strike since no one claimed it, I took it home and washed it and got very many compliments on it during the party. Anyway, the wife also had all of the guy's favorite foods, they had a guy from Subway making sandwiches, boxes and boxes of pastries from canters deli, bins filled with chocolate bars and milk duds, pizza from larchmont pizza, el pollo loco making chicken bowls, everything was awesomely poor food choices and i loooooved them!!! i ate so much! even though I had a panic attack at the beginning of the party (not used to being around so many people since I'm alone all day every day for the past 2+ years) I still managed to get on the dance floor at the end of the night with some of the other writers and boogied down!!!! all in all a grand time was had!

yesterday i had b'fast at toast with a few peeps and was seated across from my sisters college roomate and also they were roomies in brooklyn together like 12 years ago (before it was hip to live there) she is so freakin awesome, i love her. I hadn't seen her in years, but was like "um, are you lesley?" how bizarre!!

this weekend

so yesterday I was supposed to have a date with the guy Todd who I went out with in August and had a great date with and then he dissappeared for a few months and then reappeared last month on facebook. Anyway, I asked him to see this exhibit downtown near where he lives that closes today.

Oh and i randomly bumped into him last week at a show. anyway, we were supposed to meet up tomoro and then when I texted him on sat. night he didnt' reply until sunday saying he forgot bout the museum and was going skiing with friends.... WOW!! THANKS FOR MAKING ME FEEL SO FORGETABLE!!!

so i didn't go, which is fine, I worked out and read and grocery shopped and went to swingers for some free lunch! it also became quite obvious the type of person he is. So last night I sat down and wrote a life love list, i saw them do it on oprah (oh my cousin's husband is on oprah today with nate berkus) but I digress, i wrote down everything I want in a mate and then put it away. I took a picture of it in my photo journal maybe you can make out some of the things that are on it. Now i just sit back and wait for it to come true! I'm going to also write one about my career!

the strike is pretty much over, we vote tomorrow on whether we want to end it or not! So I'm pretty sure we will. the meeting down town on sat. night about it was pretty uneventful, i thought someone would get angry and start yelling, but nope. I ran into a guy I used to work with years ago who is now writing for an english sitcom, and tried tot alk to him, but he was a total wanker, so I got no advice off him! boo!

off to tennis!

MY UPDATED PHOTO JOURNAL

oprah here I come

About every month, i apply to be on oprah. is this embarrassing, not to me it isn't! I even find topics that would apply to my friends lives, but of course dont tell them lest it ruin my chances to getting on... dont want too many tv people as guests.

fingers and toes crossed, i think I wrote a reallllly good little thing about the specific topic: are you a schlumpadinka! answer: yes i am, you should see what I wear on a daily basis when you dont need to go anywhere or ever leave the housee!!!!

FREE STUFF FOR STRIKERS UPDATE: MY HAIR LOOKS FAB!!!!! ALSO JUST GOT BACK FROM SWINGERS WHERE I HAD FREE B'FAST FOR THE 4TH DAY IN A ROW AND ORDERED LUNCH TO GO!!!! PLEASE THE STRIKE IS GOING TO BE OVER IN LIKE 2 DAYS I NEED TO MAYBE EVEN STOP BY TONIGHT FOR DINNER. IT'S SAVED ME A TON, I HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE GROCERY STORE ONCE THIS WEEK AND I USUALLY GO 3 TIMES!!!!

FREE IS FOR ME PART 2

I think the strike will be coming to a close this weekend. that is why i am taking advantage of all the free offers out there to us writers. I have spoken about free food aw swingers, i was there yesterday for lunch, today for b'fast and will be there tomoro for b'fast and friday for lunch!

then tomoro i'm getting my hair cut for free at a salon in beverly hills!! cool, right, well i'll let you know AFTER i see what they do to my locks. I'm dying for a haircut, haven't had one since the end of september, so if it save me $120 which is what I usually pay at frederik fekkai for a haircut, then who cares what it looks like... then again I'll be the judge of that AFTER i see how it turns out.

Okay I just stopped by strike HQ cause I heard they were given kate matilini gift cards, thats a good restaurant in LA! and I just scored one since they all know me at HQ!!! awesome!!! let the good times roll!!!

Happy Ash Wednesday

today is the first day of Lent, called Ash Wednesday. I just went to church to get my ashes and there is this homeless woman who comes to mass every week and she was there. And while I was kneeling and praying after communion, she walked by and I noticed she was wearing UGG BOOTS.

SHE HAS NICER CLOTHES THAN ME!!! I want those Ugg Boots, they are chocolate brown! I wanted to tackle her on the way out of mass, but t hen thought, that wasn't very Christian, soooo I opted not.

Yesterday during our primary, I totally BA-RACKED THE VOTE! Women in California came out in droves to vote for Hilary, but not one women I know, everyone I know voted for Barack. Also my polling place had a person directing parking!! i have never seen that before at my polling place even in a presidential election. I think this year is going to be so exctiting! There seems to be a buzz about this presidential race and it's exciting!!!

CAN YOU FEEL IT??

mucho celeb sightings!!

yesterday I met Kristin for coffee at kings road cafe and saw.... drum roll please... ERIC DANE!!! AKA MCSTEAMY FROM GREYS ANATOMY!!! OMG that man is hot on the show, but his hottness defies all hotness in person, his ass was so close to my face (i was sitting down) that I nearly passed out from sheer beauty.

gossip alert! rumor has it that he has a honey on the side who lives near kings road and who my friend has seen him having spats with and they call eachh other baby. i have not seen this, but it seems like an odd thing to make up, my friends is a reliable source and she has seen them on numerous ocasaions, in case you ddin't know, he's married to rebecaa gayheart, so this piece of gossip is CRAZY!!


Today at Swingers i saw dave chapelle. i wanted to take a pic of my picture a day in 2008 journal, but my friend says "he's bat shit, he might go crazy on you." so i didn't. he was wearing big ass headphones and was in the back so i couldn't see if he was with anyone, i wonder if he used his WGA to get a free meal like we did!!!

there were character actors galore at kings road yesterday too. The dad from Dawson' creek and a few others who would eye each other when the others would get a table, prety damn funny. oh, life in LA.

my migraine still lingers, but i'm doing better, amy and bern are coming over to watch friday night lights today so i had to clean my apartment, not that it was dirty but you know, wipe down the counter and stove and bathroom sink, ugh I ate being poor and not being able to afford someone to do that shit for me!

why do these things happen

yesterday I was at the guild writing in their library when I developed a headache. I thought ok, well, i probably haven't eaten enough today, so i went home and ate. then I went to the gym and then it hit... A MIGRAINE!

I have had like maybe 4 migraines in my life, and this one was pretty damn bad. It was also accompanied by my face flushing and getting really hot! I did research and this was more than a simple migraine, but a cluster headache which according to my researche "is the most painful headache theere is," although i didn't have all the symptoms, just the pain and the flushed face. I have no idea. I'm a walking medical anomaly, I'm starting to think I'm crazy. I still have residual pain right now and in fact and typing this with my eyes closed as it hurts too much to look at the screen. I'm so please at my typing ability to allow such a feat!!!!

Okay i need to go lay down.

whats the point

I have no idea what i do with my days, they just slip by and all of a sudden i realize it's sunday again and I have to start over. I worked at the strike HQ yesterday again answering phones. I really like the tues shift as the corrdinator is really nice and not an old guy going on and on about how he wrote a Julia Roberts movie in the 90s and what she was like before she hit stardom! these people are your worst nightmare!

I hope i dont do that when I'm an old fart, perhaps I already am, b.c hollywood standards are quite different. yesterday i applied for a job up at Adidas HQ in portland, dont tell my friend who works at Nike!!!

Went out on friday night with Tom, we met for a drink at Chaya, I guess that's our 3rd date, in two months tho, so it's not encouraging. I also facebooked the guy who i went on a date with in august who had been messaging me recently and aksed if he wanted to go to this exhibit downtown, where he lives, he took all day to reply and then sent me a message this morning saying sure, but no XOXOX at the end of said message... no idea what that means.

Last night I had dinner with Tal, one of the execs at Sony, LOVE HER!! I thought it would be a quick dinner, but we sat and talked for 3 hours! It was so fun, and great to catch up with her! She rules.

I'm realy enjoying my tennis class and the girls in it. we all get along so well, it's pretty insane and we all had a potluck dinner on sunday night and just sat and gossipped, etc. really fun as most of them are not in the biz and are just really genuinely cool.

For those of you who dont know me well, i like free things, like actually LOVE free things. in fact in 3rd grade i had this book where you write down things like your favorite actor or book or tv show and one thing said "your motto." and at 8 years old I remember writing "free is for me."

AT 8 YEARS OLD!!!

As a result of the writers strike, drew carey offered to pick up the tab of any writer who eats at swingers or bob's big boy. I haven't taken nearly enough advantage of it, but my micaela made me so 2 weeks ago we went and chowed down on free grub and then showed our guild card and bam, free good, baby! we went again today after Weight watchers, I lost a pound hooller!!!

what is it about banana multigrain panckes and a vanilla latte that tastes so much better because it's free?!?! I kinda regret not going there more. I know the strike will end in like a few weeks probably, so I have to start going more often, maybe for dinner!!! grilled cheese or something, yummers!!!

GRIM

so last night i went to my friend jessica's, she's a tv director and lives 1.5 blocks from me. we met through my ex will and we've remained friends. i've met a lot of people that way, liz, rachel, etc and etc. I keep the friends of the boys, but not the boys. anyway, she's a director and was supposed to direct an episode of a FOX tv show but isn't now due to the strike and as a result is going to lose her health benefits cause she hasn't earned enough money to keep them. This is the exact same position I'm in.

she said she's going to have to probably change her career after all the works she's done to establish herself because the strike has ruined her momentum and potential jobs. again this is the exact position I'm in. I'm going to have to change my entire life and basically end my life long dream (although to be fair I did write on a hit tv show and sold another one this year even though it went no where) due to this strike and the 2 years of me not working leading up to it and me not having a job when it ends. it's strange to think none of my other friends will ever have this problem, my friends who aren't part of a union that is.

also i still think it's so unfair that the course of my life is drastically going to change due to HEALTH INSURANCE!!!! or the lack there of. I have it for not, but am going to lose it in september. And as is stands I wont have earned enough by September to keep it going. There is just no way I could earn it even if the strike ended today. People in washington do not care about health insurance driving americans in bankruptcy, they just dont. I wish sicko did more to change policy!

supernanny

I just went to the coffee bean in beverly hills and was sitting there and Jo the nanny from supernanny came in and got a coffee. she had a huge bag from the Gap and I thought to myself, Jo shops at the Gap????

the guy behind the counter, the same guy who kiiissseddd renee zellwegger's ass a few months back (and i wrote about it click on the celeb sightings link below) was kissing hers as well, this guy needs to get a fucking life! He bends over backwards for them and me he's like 'here" hands me my coffee so roughly that it spills down the front of my shirt. THANKS ASS!

I tivo-ed bridget jones diary and just watched it and was stunned by the similarities between bridget and myself and now I'm depressed. I think it also has to do with the fact that I can't tell if I'm sick or not, my body can't make up it's mind. sometimes I feel ok and then I feel sick?!?! PULL THE TRIGGER BODY OF MINE BECAUSE THIS SHIT IS STARTING TO PISS ME OFF!!

weird

I woke up in a bad mood today. this rarely happens to me, in fact i dont remember it ever happening to me, waking up in a bad mood is so strange. Anyway, then i went to weight watchers and I gained wieght and then I went to the coffee bean and my coffee spilled and burned my hand and then I realized they gave me the wrong coffee. UGH!

so that's 3 bad things, now i'm done for the day! I'm more stressed now about my current situation now that i went to a friends yesterday and this friend I find out has been in talks with a studio to write a pilot for them. this friend said that he/she needs to look out for themselves becuase the guild is'nt looking out for them. soo now i'm like has everyone been doing this? is the strike gonna end next week and I'm the only asshole who didn't develop behidn the backs of everyone??? This is the only town where being honest and good gets you NOWHERE AND NOTHING!!

STRIKE 3, SO I GUESS I'M OUT

Last week I pulled my resume together to apply for a job at Nike in Portland. It was the perfect job for my lack of business experience. unfortunately today i saw that the job was no longer on the website. *sigh* and seeing as I haven't been hired to do it, i think it's safe to assume someone else was. I'm extremely disappointed. if I weren't a robot and didn't know how to cry, this would be a time when a normal human would cry.

I also got the call this week that MTV passed on my pilot. Oh and I pitched a book idea to my agent who pitched it to the book people and that was passed on too!

I GIVE UP!! NOBODY WANTS ME OR MY TALENTS!!!

dont tell on me

I'm not picketing today. I was going to, but I just dont want to picket today and I'm not going to!!! THERE, take that!

I'm still trying to fashion a reply to Todd what with his reindeer games. his first email he ended with XO then this one he ended with XOXOXO wow I'm getting some serious action people!

um, don't only 12 year old girls do the whole XO thing? And what does it all mean?

yesterday i worked at the Writers Guild strike headquarters answering phones. This has become a regular monday morning ritual. it's easy to be there by 8am and its only a mile a way and not too much happens that early in the day. It's easy strike work.

i maybe had 5 phone calls in 3 hours.

then I worked out, ate, and read a book for a potential movie writing gig that I was supposed to read before the strike started. I felt that since I neglected to read it I was still allowed to under strike rules, but there's a good chance I'm making that up. I just had nothing to do so I picked up the book and read it in under 2 hours, it's a kids type book

Had my tennis class last night, 2 girls showed up who aren't usually in the class and I did not care for them. one of them had coke bottle glasses and kept hitting to my backhand which is fine if thats one of her stratagies but apparently it was her only strategy. so it got annoying. she's what I could call a scrappy player.

I ran into the net and my racquet snapped back and hit my jaw and then i left the class I was annoyed at these new people and in pain and made an executive decision to be a big baby and go home.

Oh and I messaged todd, the guy who is playing jedi mind tricks on me from facebook. anyway, with the help of amy i wrote a great response, after waiting 4 days like any lady would, and then he immediately responded to that message in like 2 hours!!! so know I'm figuring out what to do!

SATURDAY NIGHT

Last night I met up with Bern, Kyle, Christine for some beers at 3rd stop. I'm not a big beer person at all, nor do i like to particularly drink that much, but hey when the bar is w/in walking distance, hey why not, right? I had a nice time drinking and eating an entire pizza, yes you read that correctly.

i went to WW on friday and lost 2 pounds and of course I have to reward my hard work by eating everything and putting it all back on!!!

THERE YOU ARE

Last night in my facebook inbox, I got a message entititled "there you are"

it was from Todd who I went out with in august and who I really liked. We text messaged a few times after the most successful 1st date I've have in ages and then I never heard from him again... and oh how much I liked him. of course this is how it always goes, the ones that want you, you dont want and vice versa.

So imagine my surprise when he tracked me down on facebook and said "there you are," trying to imply that I not HIM is at fault for our fizzled out "relationship"

the rest of the message said something along the lines of "you can't hide on facebook"

yeah, that's me, the one who has been hiding RIGHT OUT IN THE OPEN WITH THE EXACT SAME EMAIL ADDRESS AND PHONE NUMBER I HAD ALLLLLL ALONG!!

Pffft, these Jedi mind trick DO NOT WORK ON ME! Does he think I'm so stupid to think "oh noooo, Todd has wanted to talk to me this entire time and i've made myself unavailable poor him." TRY AGAIN, todd!!

OF COURSE I'M TOTALLY GOING TO MESSAGE HIM BACK TO SATISFY MY MORBID CURIOSITY!

PHOTO JOURNAL 2008

I'm doing this little project this year where I take a photo a day.

here's the compilation for the first 2 weeks of the year.

MY 2008 PHOTOJOURNAL

Whenever I update it, I'll post the link, it's just interesting what I take a picture of i think. Sometimes it'll be my bed right before I go in it cause i've forgotten to take a photo that day!! Who knows where my travels will take me!!! Follow along!

so there's this woman who works at the library at the writers guild who i fucking hate.

she talks really loud when on the phone and engages people in conversations that last for hhooooourrrrss, i always feel so bad for those people on the other end who just called to get a simple one or two word answer and she keeps them on the phone for 20 mins.

a few months ago I asked her to reduce her voice and she said "I believe my voice is at a perfectly suitable decible." meanwhile, everyone in the library is looking at each other with the "is this fucking woman nuts" shrug and eyeroll.

so yesterday i brought in a dioet coke and you cant bring drinks in but you can leave them on a shelf by the door. so i did and she later comes over in her "quiet" voice and says, holding up the can "you cannot being carbonated beverages into the library. they are forbiden." so i said ok. and she said she was going to remove the offensive element from the library and to the fridge at the foundation room and i said "you can just throw it out, ti's not a big deal" and she said "it is a big deal, soft drinks are not allowed, water is fine, but no soft drinks are allowedin the library...." i wanted to say "yeah i got that the first time you said it'" she repeats herself over and over.

she's fucking annoying.

anyway, look who got quoted (totally inaccurately) in this story.

http://www.blogger.com/img/gl.link.gifSTORY WRITTEN ABOUT ME BUT THIS WOMAN QUOTED ME TOTALLY WRONG

a correction was made but not in time for the AP wiree to re-adjust

who is the cutest ever??

MY NIECE!!!


HERE IS A PIC OF HER ON CHRISTMAS!

AUNTIE SARAH GAVE HER THE HOOKER BOOTS!!

i'm back in la, everything thing is the same. Nothing changed except the last digit of the year when i fill out my checks. All my medical bills have flooded my mailbox, thankfully a lot of these places are still sending the bills to my old address so I prob. wont get them for another month, which is fine seeing as $1,000 a month comes out of my bank account EVERY MONTH for medical expenses!! But it's only until october, so that's just days away... that's right $10,000 in medical bills and no income!!

unfortunately this will probably determine and change the course of my life... i just dont think it's fair seeing as if i lived in a country that paid for health insurance I woudln't have thes problems. I know this isn't the first time I've talked about my medical bills, it's just that I got another bill from 2005 today and it kinda set me off...

Oh and before you ask, yes I have health insurance, VERY GOOD INSURANCE, but i accrued over $100,000 in medical bills in 2007. You know how you think to yourself, oh my insurance pays 80% and i only pay 20% what a great deal... well that's great until your total bill is $100,000 do the math, it's grim.

I had a 2nd date last night with the guy who made me pay for everything on the 1st date. He paid for everything!! hahah except the lakers tickets that my friend carrie gave me! FREE TICKETS BITCHES!!

it was fun, we made out in his car which is a lot less than i did with him the first date when i was drunk. oops did i not tell you guys that??? i had a date last month with this guy who conveniently forgot his wallet and i had to shell out for everything. anyway, i gave him a 2nd chance mostly b/c i was ashamed of myself... i'm glad I did, he's cute-ish!!

anyway, happy new year!!!! I'll be writing more now that my neighbors turned their internet back on and i can go back to stealing it!!

happy new year!!!!

greetings everyone, ih ave been away in NY for almost 2 weeks! Oy vey! I am happy to say knock on wood, I have not been killed by my parent's clutter crumbling onto me during my sleep. my parents are hoarders. I think my father might be the worst offender, oprah show worthy if I may be so bold or traitorous to the mac fam!

i have spent my last 2 trips re-doing my dad's office formerly known as my old bedroom. we through out 7 bags of garbage including multiple windows '95 manuals for software my father no longer has. I also threw out a lot stuff he doesn't even know i threw out, I told him i was donating stuff to make him feel better and then in the trash it went! but the news is not all good. yesterday I was down in the basement and a lot of books that were supposed to be thrown out in november my dad had hauled back in after i left. HE HAS A SERIOUS HOARDING PROBLEM. these books were in the musty old basement, not doing anything, but my dad simply could not throw them out. dont' worry i put them back in the garbage and dumped a cup of coffee on them and buried them down deep in the trash can so he cannot find them... i hope.

this morning we had pancakes and my father cleaned up after and i saw in the fridge like a drop of leftover pancake batter in a tupperware, not even enough for one pancake and my dad kept it (dont worry i promptly threw it out and he hasn't even noticed!!!!!! also he put in the fridge 3 pancakes we didn't eat!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH HIM???! i threw out those as well. it's not like tonight, i'm going to be like i'm hungry what can i eat, oh look soggy cold blue berry pancakes, yum!"

MORE ON MY TRIP AFTER I GET BACK TO la AND CAN START USING MY COMPUTER AGAIN!!!