working for a living

hey all, been working on kristin's pilot like crazy these days. Worked until midnight last night and then worked all evening today. but we ordered dinner from Katsuya which is the best sushi in LA!!! so it was all worth it!

I'm having the best time being back in the writers room yukking it up with some of the old guys from that 70s show. It's so much fun!!! i've missed this!!! and Kristin is doing really great considering we've had to re-write the entire script.

I was supposed to read the part of Joy at yesterday's table read but then last minute was re-cast. boo! the part is now cut, but it would've have been had I read the lines!! oh yeah, i practiced and practiced and would've hit it out of the ball park.

tomorrow I'm so excited, I'm hiking at 8am, playing tennis at 10am then working all day again on the script over at universal studios. Saturday i have a engagement party for my ex boyfriend, and then sat. night i'm going to ssee sex and the city with a big group of friends. we're making it a night of it, drinks before hand and I think we're going to the over 21 showing at the arclight so I think we can bring drinks in! either way, i'm fucking psyched!

today i'm back in the tv hollywood world. going to my friend kristin's table read for her pilot. a table read is where the entire cast sits around a table and reads her script for her show. then the network and studio gives her notes and then we writers go help her make it better based on the network and studio notes and we re-write jokes we thought worked and story plots that need to be fixed.

it will be fun! i'm reading the part of Joy in the script because I guess they haven't cast Joy yet so I'm going to be in front of the entire ABC network, dreams works and all the trained actors on the cast and say some lines!! i hope i dont fuck it up!!! wish me luck! who knows maybe i'll have a new career.

YOu're probably wondering why I'm updating my blog so much today. I'm bored and it's raining in LA. I've now decided to complain about men in general. I sometimes wish I was a lesbian and wonder if woman put other woman through the hoops that men put woman through. I'm also kind of embarrassed what I allow guys to do to me, like what I put up with in order to make something work. this more accurate for relationships in the past then current ones, altho i dont currently have one but you know what I mean. I suppose more recent ones would be an more accurate description.

I was in this meeting with ABC drama last week and the woman told me that people dont come to LA to settle down, that's why so many woman mostly have a hard time finding someone here. They come to follow dreams and live a fairly unrealistic life (quite frankly exactly like the one I have been leading what with my hollywood premieres, TV show job, being part of a celeb entourage albeit breifly) I think her assesment of LA was quite on target.

fran

the last time I was home, i realized something about my mom who totally rules. Well actually this isn't a new realization, but one that started to grate on me. Here's what happened and maybe you can figure out what hte problem is...

we get in the car and drive to bellas, my fave b'fast restuarant. my mom gets the newpapers, gets into the car and sings "oh what a beautiful morning, oh what a beuatiful day..." the entire song.

In bellas we were talking about being old and how it sucks to grow up. My mother immediately broke into another song "I wont grow up" from Peter Pan

On the way home I commented on something out of the window and this inspired my mom to break into song again.

Then during lunch preparations, she started to sing another song about heating up tea! How does this woman: A. know so many songs and B. know so many songs that apply to such specific situations?!! Like heating up tea for example, who knew that was a lyric in any song?! MY MOTHER!!

it's just weird because it's not like she was the star of stage and screen or something, she just sings for no apparent reason. IT'S WEIRD!! and this isn't a new thing, she's done it for years, but i think the afflication is getting worse.

UPDATE: JUST GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH FRAN, AND I WAS TALKING ABOUT A TICKET I NEEDED TO GET FOR MY FRIEND NOAH'S WEDDING BUT HE HASN'T NAILED DOWN A DATE FOR HIS AUGUST NUPTUIALS. ANYWAY, MY MOM STARTED SINGING "SHE'S GOT A TICKET TO RIDE," INSTEAD OF LISTENING TO THE REST OF THE CONVO... SERIOUSLY PEOPLE DO YOU KNOW ANYONE ELSE WITH THIS ILLNESS, PLEASE CONTACT ME ASAP!!

babysitting

i think the weirdest day of one's life might be the day they meet or hear that the kids they babysat for are now college graduates. I just got an email from one of the woman whose kids I used to baby sit for. she wished me happy birthday then went on to update me. her oldest just graduated from college last weekend. Her youngest is going to be a junior in college. I met these girls when they were 5 and 7! I mean, it blows my mind! blows my mind. Why am I so old? who allowed this to happen? Not I.

there are 2 other girls I used to babysit for who have been out of college for a number of years, and I still can't wrap my head around it when I run into them whenever I'm home in NY for a visit. They're real people instead of little kids I'd run around after dressed up as a boogie man or some other strange character. Anyway, perhaps this post is a just a reflection of my passing birthday and movement on in the years!!

SURPRISE!

omg last night i was all ready to go with berna and kristin to see "sex and the city" screening. At least that's what I thought i was doing. On the walk over to the movie theatre, kristin wanted to stop in and see this wine bar we used to go to b./c it cahnged ownership and was like 'hey I want to poke my head in to see what it looks like" so she opened the door and i stood back on the sidewalk waiting and she opens the door and there's a sign that says "happy bday sarah mac" and i think to myself "thats funny thats my name too!" and then i see my friend chris and i think "what a coincidence Chris is at this bar and i'm walking by, this town is so small" and then everyone says suprise!!! AND IT WAS A SUPRISE PARTY FOR ME AND I'M TOO STUPID TO REALIZE IT!!!

i saw words sarah mac and didn't think it was for me!!! WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME!

I WAS SO FREAKIN SURPRISED and a little disappointed that i didn't see the sex and the city movie, not gonna lie!

but my friends were like "that was the best surprise ever because the look on your face was priceless," now let it be known that this is the 2nd surprise i've had in 5 years and the same thing happened last time too, i had no freakin idea and was kinda freaked out by the shock of it all.

but it seriously was an awesome night. berna pillaged my list of facebook friends and contacted those she had never even met before and was got all these people on the evite list!!

also i got totally and completely shitfaced. It was so fun to see so many friends to come out to celebrete ME! there were flowers and pizza and crudite and balloons and gifts, people brought gifts!!!!

cool, righ?

on tues i'm going to the spa. every year I go to the spa and to church on my bday! but i'll be getting a 90 min deep tissue massage and spending the day by the pool!! cannot wait!!

anyway, it was a good night. a great super fun happy night! I just feel so stupid again that I had no idea, AGAIN!

meetings

this is the week all the shows get picked up for the new tv season. well due to the strike many shows are not even shot yet so they wont be hiring for a few more months. ugh! anyway, i have lots of meetings and had a bunch last week but the show i had the best meeting on probably isn't going to get picked up. Its annoying since i spend hours reading the script, coming up with ideas, stuff to talk about, get dressed, drive to burbank, sit in the meeting, and then drive back, basically taking up 2 days including prep only to find out the show isn't even getting picked up and i have no job after all that?!?!??!?! SUCK!!

yesterday I filed for unemployment again, i get to sign up every may and it lasts for a few months. it's not much money and doesn't cover any of my expenses, well maybe cable and my cell phone but i'll take it. I have no idea if I qualify seeing as in order to get unemployment you have to have earned money in the past year which sadly I didn't earn much, but who knows, i thought i'd give it a shot.

weekends

weekends to me are the same as weekedays. pretty much nothing happens. I guess I have a few more friends around that are off work, but mostly my friends are all unemployed writers so they're around all day every day anyway. It just means there are more people in the brunch places, that's all.

friday night i went to liz's to watch Grizzy man documentary. if you haven't seen it, it's brilliant and when i mention it to people since, a ton of people are like I know i saw that and it's amazing. then i wonder why hasn't anyone told me about this gem of a film. Seriouly stop what youer' doing right now and watch it! not to be believed!!! it's about a guy who goes and lives with bears in alaska and eventually gets eaten by them becaues the bears are like "WTF is this guy doing thinking he's one of us!"

on saturday I went to my friend natalyas and hung out with her and her son who is 1.5 years old. he's so freakin cute. I used to work with her hubby so it was fun to see them. I went to talk career advice with Nat as she's super smart and gives great advice. They then asked me to come to dinner with them and we hit up the grove which was a mistake since there were like 10000000 people there and it was all too overwhelming for a person who sits at home alone all day. we had dinner, checked out barnes and noble and then I came home and went to bed. I had donated blood earlier in the day so was kinda wiped out.


Saw jeremy piven the other day at lulus cafe on beverly. I hate that guy. arrogance just oozes out of him while he's crouched over drinking his vanilla latte and egg whites. I just want to punch him in the face every time I see him.



oh and a great sighting was Kevin Connoly from entourage at my Catholic church last night, I've seen him once before, like 2 years ago, but he stayed for the entire mass, he's very cute, very irish so naturally i'm attracted to him, but he's too short for me!!

also on my way into church i saw a yellow VW bug and thought my friend Matija who used to live in LA but now lives in san fran was at church since she's the only person i know who drives one of those! so i got excited only to walk by the car and see it was an enterprise rental, very disappointing.

hey everyone, i've been back in LA for about a week and basicaly done nothing with my life. friday night i met up with remi for her bday and they had dinner somewhere but I met them for drinks at this place called vermont where we were in a minor battle with TR Knight's posse, AKA george o'malley. he's so tiny!!! anyway, his people insisted our table was reserved for his big group and they had some bossy big blonde lady trying to convince us of that, but in fact carrie had reserved that table for us!

in leiu of bday cake carrie had an assortment of cupcakes, omg so freaking good!! what a great idea. I felt bad that i was so freakin tired from all the wedding stuff the week before and the travelling that I had to leave early.

saturday went to david's surprise 40th at village idiot, it was in the back room and it was awesome! great food and seriously, rent that space it's freakin awesome if you're ever looking for a place to have a party. the service was fantastic!

this week i have a few meetings, i want a job, i want to be on a show, i'm so sick of not having a job it's driving me crazy!!! the next few weeks should be interesting as it's sorta staffing season, the annual rush to get writers jobs on tv shows, but due to the strike not all the shows are ready to be shot and ready to hire now so that might happen in a few months, thats annoying because it would be nice to afford my rent.

party time

I am right now in NY for emma's wedding. well her wedding happened on sat. and it was a rocking good time. my calves are so sore right now from all the jumping around and dancing! I have never heard croatian music before that night, but certaintly danced like i had been doing it all my life... must've been the booze!

I looked amazing in my black bridesmaid dress with a honey dew sash! the ceremony was amazing, there wasn't a dry eye in the church (well excpet mine since I dont cry and emma's since she has no tear ducts) we took loads of pics, were driven everywhere in the limos, ate, drank, was very merry. I had such a blast, i think i danced with every guy there, including the brides father who I believe I led and at one point even dipped!! oh yes!! did i mention there was lot of booze!

then we went to the after party and ran into a girl i went to high school with and alyson one of the other bridesmaid was drunk and mad at me for something that i had nothing to do with, but anyway she told me to "just go home" (we've made up) and so i caught a ride with the girl from high schoool who freaking worked at the hotel we werea after partying at!!! hilar! it was like 3:3oam before I even got home (had gotten up at 7am that day) I made it home with all my shoes and makeup and camera and I.D. etc. thankfully my parents were in Philly and didn't have to see me! when i get back to LA i'll upload the pics!

the best man who i figured I was going to make out with was hot and bothered with another lady, so this sinlge bridesmaid went back to her childhood bed in her parents house alllll alone!!! oh well, my choices were pretty limited, unless I wanted to take home my friend Tina's dad!

sorry for the lack of posts. I've continued to be horrible sick with acute athamatic bronchitis. breathing has been a strange thing for me the past few days.

anyway, i've also been out and about pretending i'm not sick and enjoying my life. I've seen a number of movies, had a few beers (i haven't drank beer in years) and playing tennis. My friend jen and I play every tues. morning at 10 at the bev hills tennis club (sounds fancy but it's a public court) sure i dont have a job and i'm totally poor, but still at least i'm trying to find the silver lining. Last night i went on a hike with kristin to a place, runyon canyon i"ve gone a million of times and she took me down a completely different path and it blew my mind. how did i not know this path existed and gave even a more spectacular view?!?! after living here for 12 freakin years, i can still learn something about this city. fantastic!

leaving tomoro for NY for emma's wedding, i'm a bridesmaid, cant wait should be fun even though i've been on all these steroids to help me breath for 3 weeks and I'm all bloated and ugly. sorry, what can you do? not my fault my lungs hate me.

greetings friends. I would like to wish my cold a happy 3rd week anniversary. Oh yes, i have been sick with a cold for about 3 weeks. It sucks. I finally went to the doctor on thursday only to be yelled at. It seems I had both a sinus infection and severe bronchitis which to a person with asthma like myself can be life threatening, I figured as much as I was drowning in my own muscus on wed. night. It's weird how you can actually feel the inside of your lungs?!1 anyway, I'm now on a major anti biotic and 2 inhalers (one with steroids, i'm hoping i h=get roid rage!! how fun would that be!) and feeling much better, despite thinking I was going to have to go to the hospital on saturday b/c i thought i had pnuemonia!

anyway, today I have an article due at fandango that i haven't even started since I was so sick and very busy watching maid in manhattan and coyote ugly!

last week i worked on a pilot at Paramount for NBC. I don't get paid in these situations, but usually they send a gift, we'll see. anyway, it was so much fun to be back on a set, pitching jokes, the only annoying thing were the people, well one writer in particualr who when he was off somewhere else and woudl come back and hear a joke someone had pitched while he was away he'd be like 'who said that who gets credit, who gets credit" and i realized I woudl hate to work with him. That's the competitive mentality i hate when working on a show. "who's joke was that. who gets credit" its susually a collaborative effort where someone pitches an area and then together everyone builds on it, but by pointing out who gets credit, it makes everyone else feel like they did nothing and the one who pitched the final wording is the genius. I swear i wanted to punch this guy in the face when he kepts saying it for 2 days straight. anyway, the show is really funny, and i hope gets on the air and i hope they hire me!!!!

celebrity sighting round up

I have a ton of celeb sightings!!!



on thurs I was driving by orso, a very actory type restaurant which is about 4 blocks from my house and I stopped because of traffic and looked over and saw Josh Jackson and his Girlfriend. Josh jackson who played pacey on dawson's creek. and let me just say he is looking MIGHTY FUCKING FINE!!!!! have you guys seen him lately?!?! yum yum, i wanted to lick him!!! but the light turned green and I had to go but DAMN!!




on saturday I was driving to my friend carrie's house when I drove by the park at coldwater canyon and saw all the paps lined up taking pics so I slowed down to see Gwen steffani with her son, pushing him on some two wheeler. she was all glam on an early sat. morn. By the time I had brunch and got home the pics of her day at the park were already up on people.com!!!



Just now I am currently staring at Eric Stolz from every 80s movie under the sun and once again may i say DAMN!! he's in the writers guild lounge for some reason. I looked over and there he was grabbing a bathroom key. he's in the small conference room with some people, i didn't recognize them, which means they're not regulars here as i have been given the title "mayor of the writers guild lounge!"

last night i went out for kristin's party, she sold her pilot which is good news for me since I helped her write it and if it gets picked up to series I'll have a job!! woo hoo! and then I can afford coffee again! oh yeah, since the sky rocketing pricetag of my accident and medical bills (from 2007) and car repairs, i have had to cut out coffee bean, 2 bucks a day instead of going to my gut goes to my credit card. so every 5 days i'm going to send a check via my bank to the credit card companies to help pay for stuff. ugh, being poor is a fucking nightmare!!

every day at the wrtiers guild there is a woman who comes to write and often sits across from me, well she sits a lot of places. moves aroudn the lounge she moves like 4 time a day sometimes twice in one hour. anyway, whenever she sits on the couches where is usually her first stop, she falls asleep. just sits there with her computer on her lap, eyes closed. this happens every day. and i watch her as her eyes slowly close and she tries to battle them to stay open but is unsuccesful, oh, right now she is up again, i'll keep you updated.

i've been sick for a week and I'm so tired! ugh! last night greg S drove me home from krisine's and then came inside to give me a pep talk about my life. he gave me some valuable advice about trying to figure out what i want to do with my life. well, not my life but what I want to do next. we shall see. I just wish someone would just tell me what to do, that would be so much easier. i hate being a grown up.

back in la!! went to emma's bachlorette party in SF this weekend with the rest of the bridesmaids and had a great time even though I had bronchitis and didnt get to go out as late as the rest of the girls. I'm still plagued with the illness as I'm too lazy to go see a doctor.

we toured the vineyards of napa in high style, a very tacky cheesy lame ass white limo that was PERFECT@! a freakin white limo, i didn't even know they made those anymore! we went to like 5 vineyards and at one my spot had about 10 empty champagne glassses! yeah, I was a bit faced! all the girls rallied to head out that night after a day of drinking, but I was too dizzy to stand let alone go to some bar so I stayed back and fell asleep watching bridget jones diary 2.

flew home sunday and have been in la since. I know am driving a rental car that i freakin hate, a ford focus which is a shit box but what can you do? I should get my car back next week, cannot wait, i miss it, but mostly because I left a whole bunch of laundry in it and now I don't have clean sock or my tennis racket which is in the truck! grrrr!! i didn't plan that well!

anyway, back to resting!!

so immediately after my accident last week my parents flew me home to NY. I just clarely had such a bad run of bad luck and I was so wound up and the pressure and stress and mental toll was all to much. I got into the acciddent at 2 called them around 3pm and was on a plane that night. My dad said i was so upset on the phone he thought I had killed someone. No, not someone, just someone's jaguar.

so i have been hiding out in ny recovering from whip lash and all my mental scarring. I'm glad I came home, turns out it was easter so I had a great time with my family and then started being spotted in my small town and in the church I go to and had to tell people I was home. It was fine, by then I was ready to get off my parents couch, although not behind a wheel. basically my friends just pick me up and drive me whereever they're going, i tag along. today I went swimming which i read is good for shoulder, neck and back injuries, so that felt good. my dad and I split a lane, hehe! pretty funny. we have matching goggles.

tonight my friend BJ and her kids and I went up to briarcliff to her sister cathy's sweet ass condo. I think one of my basketball coaches now works for the NBA pretty high up so i'm going to contact her about employment opporutnities there. Very excited about that. that should be cool. we had yummy spinach pizza tonight and played with the kids and gossiped about everyone we know. it's fun to do that with people you have known for over 15 years! it's not the same with the friends i've only had a few years, not that I dont cherish those relationships. I def. do, but still. anyway, I emailed with one of my friends today and he just gave me a great email reply when I told him I had to miss lunch b/c I was in ny due to this accident and my nervous breakdown, he said the nicest things, I just love getting those types of emails. Although now more and more I'm getting condolence emails and phone calls from people who are starting to hear about my accident etc as the news trickles out since I just picked up in left hours after the accident took place. lets see how nice they're going to be when they have to drive me everywhere when i go back to LA cause I'll be without a car for who knows how long. suck!

I WON THE LOTTERY

I bought a mega millions ticket the morning after my accident and guess what?!?! I WON!!! I WON THREE DOLLARS!! it's something right?!!?!?!

what should i spend it on? i dont want to spend it all on one place so as one would imagine that really narrows down my options. YIPPEE!!!

she's being aggressive

She's very AGGRESSIVE. this is what i just heard from my insurance company. My poor insurance compnay who i've only had for like 3 months and they have to deal with a COMPLETE lunatic that was involved in the accident with me. This woman was screaming at me and now i can only imagine what they're dealing with. As a result of this revelation and warning from my insurance company, i can no longer divulge information about the accident. Just know we were both at fault (my side) she on the other hand has a different view of the story. It's very complicated.

today was Good Friday, I've always wondered why it's called "Good Friday" since it's the day Jesus died. Actually I do know the answer, but it still bewilders me.

I would also like to apologize to my faithful readers who day after day come to my blog to read something witty or funny only to find out that I have suffered more bad luck, have slipped further into my depression and have completely lost the will to live. I'm sorry, I just can't seem to catch a break, I hope you know that since i'm reading "When Bad things happen to good people" (thanks mom!)... wel, I dont want to say I know I'm going to be okay and i'm going to get through this because if you scroll through my days it only keeps getting worse, but lets just leave it at that I'm reading this "when bad things happen to good people book," and that's that.

hmmm i guess the bird poop thing wasn't good luck after all. On monday I had a car repair for $1100. Tues I got a rejection letter for an entry level trainee job saying I didn't have the right qualifications!! FOR AN ENTRY LEVEL JOB and then on wednesday i got into a big car accident with a screaming lady, a lunatic insane lady who my insurance company told me today is being very "aggressive" with them and causing a lot of problems. (less than 24 hours after the accident) oh and a sassy black bus driver who first said I hit her bus too and then 10 mins later said "no wait you didn't hit my bus." so she's the "credible witness" for the entire case. Oh and i did happen to mention the botoxed lady was driving a brand new Jaguar?! yeah, awesome! I think I cried more yesterday than I have in... well only bout 2 weeks. but today is the first day of the rest of my life.

p.s. okay that is pic is not what happened!! oh and the $1100 car repair is gonna have to be completely redone! but it's okay, i'm gonna be ok and it could've been worse!! (at least that what some guy told me when he saw me standing by my car just staring at it glazed over about 30 mins after the accidnet)

good luck

I hear getting pooped on by a bird is good luck. any one have any idea what that is based on? I just got pooped on so I was curious!?@!